I'm Not Ashamed - Culture

I bet one of his friends let my name slip again and it sent you down a rabbit hole Spinnin' Now you know i sing, know my sign, know my drink Size me up in a matter of minutes Did you mean to double tap that spring break throw back from 2016 In PCB Somewhere out there my ex boyfriends new girlfriend scrolled through my Instagram Tearin' me down, passin' the phone around Like there's nothing better to talk about Zoomin' out, zoomin' in, didn't realize it I'm the queen of mean girl committee But hey whatever helps, keep on telling yourself I'm not pretty Girl let me guess you don't like how I dress and you're hatin' on the way I talk (bless your heart) Give me a break, learn to sew, bake a cake, take a walk And while you're at it get lost Somewhere out there my ex boyfriends new girlfriend scrolled through my Instagram Tearin' me down, passin' the phone around Like there's nothing better to talk about Zoomin' out, zoomin' in, I didn't realize it I'm the queen of the mean girls committee But hey whatever helps, keep on tellin' yourself I'm not pretty I'm not pretty I'm not cool I'm just one of those girls that peaked in highschool (yea right) Somewhere out there my ex boyfriends new girlfriend scrolled through my Instagram Tearin' me down, passin' the phone around Like there's nothin' better to talk about Zoomin' out, zoomin' in, I didn't realize it In the queen of the mean girls committee But hey whatever helps, keep on tellin' yourself I'm not pretty I'm not pretty Yeah right

I'm not even mad anymore No, really, I ain't even mad anymore Yeah, I don't even want you back anymore I don't remember what we had anymore, yeah I hope your back aches and your knees hurt I hope you think about me sleeping in your T-shirt I hope your little brother turns out to be nothing like you I hope that you hurt more than I do And honestly, I still wish you nothing but the best I know that you're still self-obsessed I hear the wicked get no rest But when you do, I hope you'll dream of me (You know, you know I'm hoping) Yeah, I hope you dream of me (You know, you know I'm hoping) I hope you dream of me (You know, you know I'm hoping) I hope you dream of me Yeah I don't even hope you die these days I hope you live 'til 85 these days Regretting that you ever lied these days I hope it's eating you alive these days Yeah I hope you're up late in the bathroom Just wishin' I'ma change my mind and come back soon I hope that when you're 35 years You'll wish that you tried to 'Cause I know that I do And honestly, I still wish you nothing but the best I know that you're still self-obsessed I hear the wicked get no rest But when you do, I hope you'll dream of me Yeah, I hope you dream of me Yeah, I hope you dream of me I hope you dream of me I ain't even mad about it anymore No, really, I ain't even mad about it anymore Maybe just a little less than I was before I've got a 20 dollar bill that says That you never, ever, ever gonna change I still wish you nothing but the best I know that you're still self-obsessed I hear the wicked get no rest But when you do, I hope you'll dream of me I still wish you nothing but the best I know that you're still self-obsessed I hear the wicked get no rest But when you do, I hope you'll dream of me (You know, you know I'm hoping) Yeah, I hope you dream of me (You know, you know I'm hoping) I hope you dream of me (You know, you know I'm hoping) I hope you dream of me Yeah

Tonight the monsters in my head Are screaming so damn loud But I built walls so high So they never even make a sound It's a mask, it's a lie It's the only home I've ever known 'Cause being who I really am Has only left me more alone I am not okay And I need you to see it I have so much to say And no one to hear it The reason I keep quiet With so much at stake I always feel like a burden, let it silence me You'll never understand Why it's so hard to say I'm not okay I wish I had a scar Had a bruise on the surface, any kind of proof That everything I feel is more than just some sad excuse My life's invisible abuse I'm either judged or have to hide The only symptom you can see Is I don't wanna be alive I am not okay And I need you to see it I have so much to say And no one to hear it The reason I keep quiet With so much at stake I always feel like a burden, let it silence me You'll never understand Why it's so hard to say I'll never have the words, I can't explain this hell But what if it kills me If I keep it to myself? To myself I am not okay And I need you to see it I have so much to say And no one to hear it I am not okay I am not okay I'm never safe It's not a phase If I finally break Would you still stay? Tonight the monsters in my head Are screaming so damn loud

Yeeee yeeee yeeee I'm not getting crazy over you baby No eventhough i'm under your Spell Couse ass I pass it down the street eee My little heart just gives a beat o yes it skips a beat woo yes It skips a beat Don't you know you got your influence on me You wanna drive my out of my mind Couse ass I pass it by I fell in love with you When you look at me I'm hypnotized Yes I'm hypnotized woo yes I'm hypnotized So I'm not getting crazy over you baby no no Eventhough I'm under your spell Couse when I pass it by my heart is still in blue When I look at you I'm hypnotized Woo I'm hypnotized Ye ye I'm hypnotized Yeeee yeee yeee yeee I'm not getting crazy over you baby no no Don't you know you got your influence on me Gurl you got me going out of my mind Couse ass I pass it down the street eee My little heart just gives a beat u Yes it skips a beat Woo yes it skips a beat yes Don'you know I love you baby u yes And I will never let you down Slowly hold his hand I'll be youre number one never let me down no no no no no baby o no no no baby

Light me up a cigarette and put it in my mouth You're the only one that wants me around And I can think of a thousand reasons why I don't believe in you I don't believe in you and I Light me up a cigarette and put it in my mouth You're the only one that wants me to die And I can think of a thousand reasons why I don't believe in you I don't believe in you I'm not yours anymore I'm not yours anymore No, I'm not yours anymore I'm not yours anymore Jump into your white mobile and run away You're always leaving me behind And I can think of a thousand reasons why I don't believe in you I don't believe in you and I I'm not yours anymore I'm not yours anymore No, I'm not yours anymore No, I'm not yours anymore Light me up a cigarette, put it in my mouth You're the only one that wants me around And I can think of a thousand reasons why I don't believe in you I don't believe in you and I

متكتف مهموم موجوع وضعيف وشجاع مليان أحلام وعشان مربوط مكسور وبكسر في المآديف وتفوت أيام وتمر سنين وانا حالي غريب انا مين انا مين مشدود في الساقية وعايش مبسوط وحزين ومحبط وجرئ ورزين مشدود في الساقية وعايش مبسوط وحزين ومحبط وجرئ ورزين على غفلة اتحول بركان جبار انا ضلمة وليل أنا نار ونهار متكتف مهموم موجوع وضعيف وشجاع مليان أحلام وعشان مربوط مكسور وبكسر في المآديف ماشي على طريق مكتوب مرسوم بس انا مسؤول وعليا اللوم ماقدرش أقول من الذنب برئ لا انا ابليس ولا هبقى رسول ماقدرش أقول من الذنب برئ لا انا ابليس ولا هبقى رسول قدامي طريق همشيه همشيه نفهم في الآخر كل ده لية متكتف مهموم موجوع وضعيف وشجاع مليان أحلام وعشان مربوط مكسور وبكسر في المآديف

فوسط زحمة وناس كتير وطريق أنا ماشي فيه عكس السير وسط الطموح والأمل والتمني فاضلي خطوة توصلني فوسط حاجات ومكيفات بحاول أنسى كل اللي فات في وسط صدري ضلعي مكسور ومن خلاله قلبي شايف نور أنا كنت فاكر اني طاير وأتاريني على وشي بقع أنا كنت فاكر إني هوصل لكني بهرب من الوجع أنا كنت فاكر اني طاير وأتاريني على وشي بقع أنا كنت فاكر إني هوصل لكني بهرب من الوجع فوسط الليل وأنا بعيد عن البشر شفت نور يشبه نور القمر بس القمر مسيره يفارق ويسيبني تاني مع الوحدة أحارب فوسط قصة حب يعني وهمية كان لازم أصدق اصل الوحدة قوية مش كل المشاعر حقيقية أنا شفت نور معرفتش اغمض عنيا أنا كنت فاكر اني طاير وأتاريني على وشي بقع أنا كنت فاكر إني هوصل لكني بهرب من الوجع أنا كنت فاكر اني طاير وأتاريني على وشي بقع أنا كنت فاكر إني هوصل لكني بهرب من الوجع