I'm Not Mad - Halsey

I bet one of his friends let my name slip again and it sent you down a rabbit hole Spinnin' Now you know i sing, know my sign, know my drink Size me up in a matter of minutes Did you mean to double tap that spring break throw back from 2016 In PCB Somewhere out there my ex boyfriends new girlfriend scrolled through my Instagram Tearin' me down, passin' the phone around Like there's nothing better to talk about Zoomin' out, zoomin' in, didn't realize it I'm the queen of mean girl committee But hey whatever helps, keep on telling yourself I'm not pretty Girl let me guess you don't like how I dress and you're hatin' on the way I talk (bless your heart) Give me a break, learn to sew, bake a cake, take a walk And while you're at it get lost Somewhere out there my ex boyfriends new girlfriend scrolled through my Instagram Tearin' me down, passin' the phone around Like there's nothing better to talk about Zoomin' out, zoomin' in, I didn't realize it I'm the queen of the mean girls committee But hey whatever helps, keep on tellin' yourself I'm not pretty I'm not pretty I'm not cool I'm just one of those girls that peaked in highschool (yea right) Somewhere out there my ex boyfriends new girlfriend scrolled through my Instagram Tearin' me down, passin' the phone around Like there's nothin' better to talk about Zoomin' out, zoomin' in, I didn't realize it In the queen of the mean girls committee But hey whatever helps, keep on tellin' yourself I'm not pretty I'm not pretty Yeah right

Light me up a cigarette and put it in my mouth You're the only one that wants me around And I can think of a thousand reasons why I don't believe in you I don't believe in you and I Light me up a cigarette and put it in my mouth You're the only one that wants me to die And I can think of a thousand reasons why I don't believe in you I don't believe in you I'm not yours anymore I'm not yours anymore No, I'm not yours anymore I'm not yours anymore Jump into your white mobile and run away You're always leaving me behind And I can think of a thousand reasons why I don't believe in you I don't believe in you and I I'm not yours anymore I'm not yours anymore No, I'm not yours anymore No, I'm not yours anymore Light me up a cigarette, put it in my mouth You're the only one that wants me around And I can think of a thousand reasons why I don't believe in you I don't believe in you and I

Tonight the monsters in my head Are screaming so damn loud But I built walls so high So they never even make a sound It's a mask, it's a lie It's the only home I've ever known 'Cause being who I really am Has only left me more alone I am not okay And I need you to see it I have so much to say And no one to hear it The reason I keep quiet With so much at stake I always feel like a burden, let it silence me You'll never understand Why it's so hard to say I'm not okay I wish I had a scar Had a bruise on the surface, any kind of proof That everything I feel is more than just some sad excuse My life's invisible abuse I'm either judged or have to hide The only symptom you can see Is I don't wanna be alive I am not okay And I need you to see it I have so much to say And no one to hear it The reason I keep quiet With so much at stake I always feel like a burden, let it silence me You'll never understand Why it's so hard to say I'll never have the words, I can't explain this hell But what if it kills me If I keep it to myself? To myself I am not okay And I need you to see it I have so much to say And no one to hear it I am not okay I am not okay I'm never safe It's not a phase If I finally break Would you still stay? Tonight the monsters in my head Are screaming so damn loud

Yeeee yeeee yeeee I'm not getting crazy over you baby No eventhough i'm under your Spell Couse ass I pass it down the street eee My little heart just gives a beat o yes it skips a beat woo yes It skips a beat Don't you know you got your influence on me You wanna drive my out of my mind Couse ass I pass it by I fell in love with you When you look at me I'm hypnotized Yes I'm hypnotized woo yes I'm hypnotized So I'm not getting crazy over you baby no no Eventhough I'm under your spell Couse when I pass it by my heart is still in blue When I look at you I'm hypnotized Woo I'm hypnotized Ye ye I'm hypnotized Yeeee yeee yeee yeee I'm not getting crazy over you baby no no Don't you know you got your influence on me Gurl you got me going out of my mind Couse ass I pass it down the street eee My little heart just gives a beat u Yes it skips a beat Woo yes it skips a beat yes Don'you know I love you baby u yes And I will never let you down Slowly hold his hand I'll be youre number one never let me down no no no no no baby o no no no baby

متكتف مهموم موجوع وضعيف وشجاع مليان أحلام وعشان مربوط مكسور وبكسر في المآديف وتفوت أيام وتمر سنين وانا حالي غريب انا مين انا مين مشدود في الساقية وعايش مبسوط وحزين ومحبط وجرئ ورزين مشدود في الساقية وعايش مبسوط وحزين ومحبط وجرئ ورزين على غفلة اتحول بركان جبار انا ضلمة وليل أنا نار ونهار متكتف مهموم موجوع وضعيف وشجاع مليان أحلام وعشان مربوط مكسور وبكسر في المآديف ماشي على طريق مكتوب مرسوم بس انا مسؤول وعليا اللوم ماقدرش أقول من الذنب برئ لا انا ابليس ولا هبقى رسول ماقدرش أقول من الذنب برئ لا انا ابليس ولا هبقى رسول قدامي طريق همشيه همشيه نفهم في الآخر كل ده لية متكتف مهموم موجوع وضعيف وشجاع مليان أحلام وعشان مربوط مكسور وبكسر في المآديف

فوسط زحمة وناس كتير وطريق أنا ماشي فيه عكس السير وسط الطموح والأمل والتمني فاضلي خطوة توصلني فوسط حاجات ومكيفات بحاول أنسى كل اللي فات في وسط صدري ضلعي مكسور ومن خلاله قلبي شايف نور أنا كنت فاكر اني طاير وأتاريني على وشي بقع أنا كنت فاكر إني هوصل لكني بهرب من الوجع أنا كنت فاكر اني طاير وأتاريني على وشي بقع أنا كنت فاكر إني هوصل لكني بهرب من الوجع فوسط الليل وأنا بعيد عن البشر شفت نور يشبه نور القمر بس القمر مسيره يفارق ويسيبني تاني مع الوحدة أحارب فوسط قصة حب يعني وهمية كان لازم أصدق اصل الوحدة قوية مش كل المشاعر حقيقية أنا شفت نور معرفتش اغمض عنيا أنا كنت فاكر اني طاير وأتاريني على وشي بقع أنا كنت فاكر إني هوصل لكني بهرب من الوجع أنا كنت فاكر اني طاير وأتاريني على وشي بقع أنا كنت فاكر إني هوصل لكني بهرب من الوجع

Our love will never be another You're just a devil undercover Found you when you were in the gutter It was sweet until I was a sucker, shout out Jonas Brothers I learned more than I cared to discover Don't you know that I'm more than a come up? You act up and then act like it's nothin' Sold your soul, you stone cold, you a stunner Every time you left it was never right In another bed every single night Had it to a science, you were so precise See it in your eyes, saw you in the light Somehow, mami, I still want you Listen to me, don't drive away Kill me softly, your hold on me is Somethin' I can't explain I know you could never be my - It could never be like this I know, stop thinkin' you're in my plans Hunnid times you blew another chance I know you were gettin' down on the low Then runnin' back to me in the morning I know it could never be like this You could never be my - No, no Our love will never be another You're just a devil undercover Found you when you were in the gutter It was sweet until I was a sucker Rather be single for life Than be - with you I ain't rollin' the dice, no I ain't playin' to lose (no) Every time you left it was never right In another bed every single night Had it to a science, you were so precise See it in your eyes, saw you in the light Somehow, mami, I still want you Listen to me, don't drive away Kill me softly, your hold on me is Somethin' I can't explain I know you could never be my - It could never be like this I know, stop thinkin' you're in my plans Hunnid times you blew another chance I know you were gettin' down on the low Then runnin' back to me in the morning I know it could never be like this You could never be my - No, no Be my - It could never be like this It could never be like this It could never be like this

Something's got a hold of me lately No, I don't know myself anymore Feels like the walls are all closing in And the devil's knocking at my door, whoa Outta my mind, how many times Did I tell you I'm no good at being alone? Yeah it's taking a toll on me, trying my best to keep From tearing the skin off my bones, don't you know I lose control When you're not next to me I'm falling apart right in front of you Can't you see? I lose control When you're not next to me Yeah, you're breaking my heart, baby You make a mess of me Problematic, problem is I want your body like a fiend, like a bad habit Bad habit's hard to break when I'm with you Yeah I know, I could do it on my own, but I want That real full moon black magic and it takes two Problematic, problem is When I'm with you I'm an addict And I need some release, my skin in your teeth Can't see the forest through the trees Got me down on my knees, darling please, oh I lose control When you're not next to me I'm falling apart right in front of you Can't you see? I lose control When you're not next to me Yeah, you're breaking my heart, baby You make a mess of me, yeah I lose control When you're not here with me I'm falling apart right in front of you Can't you see? I lose control When you're not here with me Yeah, you're breaking my heart, baby You make a mess of me