I'm Not the Devil - Cody Jinks

I bet one of his friends let my name slip again and it sent you down a rabbit hole Spinnin' Now you know i sing, know my sign, know my drink Size me up in a matter of minutes Did you mean to double tap that spring break throw back from 2016 In PCB Somewhere out there my ex boyfriends new girlfriend scrolled through my Instagram Tearin' me down, passin' the phone around Like there's nothing better to talk about Zoomin' out, zoomin' in, didn't realize it I'm the queen of mean girl committee But hey whatever helps, keep on telling yourself I'm not pretty Girl let me guess you don't like how I dress and you're hatin' on the way I talk (bless your heart) Give me a break, learn to sew, bake a cake, take a walk And while you're at it get lost Somewhere out there my ex boyfriends new girlfriend scrolled through my Instagram Tearin' me down, passin' the phone around Like there's nothing better to talk about Zoomin' out, zoomin' in, I didn't realize it I'm the queen of the mean girls committee But hey whatever helps, keep on tellin' yourself I'm not pretty I'm not pretty I'm not cool I'm just one of those girls that peaked in highschool (yea right) Somewhere out there my ex boyfriends new girlfriend scrolled through my Instagram Tearin' me down, passin' the phone around Like there's nothin' better to talk about Zoomin' out, zoomin' in, I didn't realize it In the queen of the mean girls committee But hey whatever helps, keep on tellin' yourself I'm not pretty I'm not pretty Yeah right

Light me up a cigarette and put it in my mouth You're the only one that wants me around And I can think of a thousand reasons why I don't believe in you I don't believe in you and I Light me up a cigarette and put it in my mouth You're the only one that wants me to die And I can think of a thousand reasons why I don't believe in you I don't believe in you I'm not yours anymore I'm not yours anymore No, I'm not yours anymore I'm not yours anymore Jump into your white mobile and run away You're always leaving me behind And I can think of a thousand reasons why I don't believe in you I don't believe in you and I I'm not yours anymore I'm not yours anymore No, I'm not yours anymore No, I'm not yours anymore Light me up a cigarette, put it in my mouth You're the only one that wants me around And I can think of a thousand reasons why I don't believe in you I don't believe in you and I

Tonight the monsters in my head Are screaming so damn loud But I built walls so high So they never even make a sound It's a mask, it's a lie It's the only home I've ever known 'Cause being who I really am Has only left me more alone I am not okay And I need you to see it I have so much to say And no one to hear it The reason I keep quiet With so much at stake I always feel like a burden, let it silence me You'll never understand Why it's so hard to say I'm not okay I wish I had a scar Had a bruise on the surface, any kind of proof That everything I feel is more than just some sad excuse My life's invisible abuse I'm either judged or have to hide The only symptom you can see Is I don't wanna be alive I am not okay And I need you to see it I have so much to say And no one to hear it The reason I keep quiet With so much at stake I always feel like a burden, let it silence me You'll never understand Why it's so hard to say I'll never have the words, I can't explain this hell But what if it kills me If I keep it to myself? To myself I am not okay And I need you to see it I have so much to say And no one to hear it I am not okay I am not okay I'm never safe It's not a phase If I finally break Would you still stay? Tonight the monsters in my head Are screaming so damn loud

متكتف مهموم موجوع وضعيف وشجاع مليان أحلام وعشان مربوط مكسور وبكسر في المآديف وتفوت أيام وتمر سنين وانا حالي غريب انا مين انا مين مشدود في الساقية وعايش مبسوط وحزين ومحبط وجرئ ورزين مشدود في الساقية وعايش مبسوط وحزين ومحبط وجرئ ورزين على غفلة اتحول بركان جبار انا ضلمة وليل أنا نار ونهار متكتف مهموم موجوع وضعيف وشجاع مليان أحلام وعشان مربوط مكسور وبكسر في المآديف ماشي على طريق مكتوب مرسوم بس انا مسؤول وعليا اللوم ماقدرش أقول من الذنب برئ لا انا ابليس ولا هبقى رسول ماقدرش أقول من الذنب برئ لا انا ابليس ولا هبقى رسول قدامي طريق همشيه همشيه نفهم في الآخر كل ده لية متكتف مهموم موجوع وضعيف وشجاع مليان أحلام وعشان مربوط مكسور وبكسر في المآديف

فوسط زحمة وناس كتير وطريق أنا ماشي فيه عكس السير وسط الطموح والأمل والتمني فاضلي خطوة توصلني فوسط حاجات ومكيفات بحاول أنسى كل اللي فات في وسط صدري ضلعي مكسور ومن خلاله قلبي شايف نور أنا كنت فاكر اني طاير وأتاريني على وشي بقع أنا كنت فاكر إني هوصل لكني بهرب من الوجع أنا كنت فاكر اني طاير وأتاريني على وشي بقع أنا كنت فاكر إني هوصل لكني بهرب من الوجع فوسط الليل وأنا بعيد عن البشر شفت نور يشبه نور القمر بس القمر مسيره يفارق ويسيبني تاني مع الوحدة أحارب فوسط قصة حب يعني وهمية كان لازم أصدق اصل الوحدة قوية مش كل المشاعر حقيقية أنا شفت نور معرفتش اغمض عنيا أنا كنت فاكر اني طاير وأتاريني على وشي بقع أنا كنت فاكر إني هوصل لكني بهرب من الوجع أنا كنت فاكر اني طاير وأتاريني على وشي بقع أنا كنت فاكر إني هوصل لكني بهرب من الوجع

You're on the phone with your girlfriend, she's upset She's going off about something that you said 'Cause she doesn't get your humor like I do I'm in my room, it's a typical Tuesday night I'm listening to the kind of music she doesn't like And she'll never know your story like I do 'Cause she wears short skirts, I wear t-shirts She's cheer captain and I'm on the bleachers Dreaming 'bout the day when you wake up and find That what you're looking for has been here the whole time If you could see that I'm the one who understands you Been here all along, so why can't you see? You belong with me, you belong with me Walk in the streets with you in your worn-out jeans I can't help thinking this is how it ought to be Laughing on a park bench thinking to myself "Hey, isn't this easy?" And you've got a smile that can light up this whole town I haven't seen it in a while since she brought you down You say, "You're fine", I know you better than that Hey, what you doing with a girl like that? She wears high heels, I wear sneakers She's cheer captain and I'm on the bleachers Dreaming 'bout the day when you wake up and find That what you're looking for has been here the whole time If you could see that I'm the one who understands you Been here all along, so why can't you see? You belong with me Standing by and waiting at your back door All this time, how could you not know, baby? You belong with me, you belong with me Oh, I remember you driving to my house In the middle of the night I'm the one who makes you laugh When you know you're 'bout to cry I know your favorite songs And you tell me 'bout your dreams Think I know where you belong Think I know it's with me Can't you see that I'm the one who understands you? Been here all along, so why can't you see? You belong with me Standing by and waiting at your back door All this time, how could you not know, baby? You belong with me, you belong with me You belong with me Have you ever thought just maybe, you belong with me? You belong with me