i hate to admit (Bang Chan) - Stray Kids

I wish that I had somebody to call when I am not okay I wish that I had anyone who cared when I am in that place I wish I could have a mental breakdown Without turning my life into a ghost town So many things I would change But more than anything I wish somebody loved me As much as I hate myself I wish somebody listened As much as I go through hell For everytime I've thought of ending it all Wish somebody had felt what I felt I wish somebody loved me As much as I hate myself I wish there was a person that would miss me when I can't leave bed I wish I wasn't stuck sharing my secrets with these made up friends I wish I could be honest about the ugly Without every single person running from me These days it's hard to have faith And more than anything I wish somebody loved me As much as I hate myself I wish somebody listened As much as I go through hell For everytime I've thought of ending it all Wish somebody had felt what I felt I wish somebody loved me As much as I hate myself The floods I feel This storm could kill I'm better off to keep it damned 'Cause the more I speak The more I see Just how alone I really am I wish somebody loved me As much as I hate myself I wish somebody listened As much as I go through hell For everytime I've thought of ending it all Wish somebody had felt what I felt I wish somebody loved me As much as I hate myself

(Ooh, it's Wavy808) All this time is passing by But I still can't seem to tell you why It hurts me every time I see you Realize how much I need you I hate you, I love you I hate that I love you Don't want to, but I can't put Nobody else above you I hate the fact I had your back when nobody did (I did) I hate the fact I told you how I feel, and you ain't listen (no cap) Right now I'm on the road You think I'm fucking with these bitches? (Fuck) I love the fact you a boss bitch and independent (no cap) I always kept you my side since an adolescent I got shot, you wasn't there, I thought you was my blessin' I even went to jail for you, 30 shot Smith & Wesson Hollow tip my favorite kind, you was my essential (my essential) Juvenile, runnin' wild, we kept gettin' caught together You asked why, girl, I told you, "We locked in forever" (forever) And when we slide on the opps, it make your pussy wetter (wetter) The last nigga wasn't killin' shit, you said I do it better (better) You jammed on the last drill, you had me mad as fuck (mad as fuck) So when we get back to this house, I'ma beat that pussy up (pussy up) I broke you down part to part, I had to clean you up (clean you up) You my lil' soldier, so bipolar, why you mean as fuck? I even went to jail for you, would go to hell for you (hell for you) Right now I'm trafficking, you know I kept the sale with you You two-faced this, so I could never tell on you (tell on you) You always headshot niggas, it never failed with you (failed with you) Was on the block all night, you never left a nigga (left a nigga) Every shootout you was there, never failed a nigga And they mad, every stolen car I'm ridin' with her And out here shooting fo' them, that's why I'm sliding with ya When I was broke, you stuck with me even in the drought You don't care, anywhere, you will shoot it out (shoot it out) Remember when we separated, took a different route (different route) And I was mad as fuck, the police took you from my house (from my house) Then I got another bitch, a lil' Gunna bitch (Gunna bitch) Glock 23, jet 5 with a switch (switch) I put 30 shots on her, you know she love my dick When I up it, gotta buss it, got me nuttin' quick (quick) We in the bed, spread yo' legs, let me give you head I can't get caught with you 'cause I'm going fed (fast) But I gotta stay with you 'cause niggas want me dead (dead) We was robbin' shit together, kept the family fed You so good swear I love yo' ass like a brother (like a brother) My own momma even said we was for each other (for each other) Then you fuck around and get jealous when I bought that cutter (bought that choppa) You said you could never see me in love with another (I love my gun) All this time is passing by (no cap) But I still can't seem to tell you why It hurts me every time I see you Realize how much I need you I hate you, I love you I hate that I love you Don't want to, but I can't put Nobody else above you

Love, l-l-love, l-l-love how you love to hate me Kinda sad that you always been like that See me making waves and you don't like that Driving through your puddles going splish, splash (Splish, splash, splish, splash) Stressing over nothing, baby, relax Why you getting angry? I'ma kick back Only thing I think about is big stacks (Racks, racks) Negative days, negative nights Baby, you're wasting all your time I can't relate, I keep it light No, no, no drama in my life (uh) Wake up, yeah, makeup, maybe I need you? Nah, I been good lately Blowin' up, workin' busy You ain't worth my love if you only love to hate me Love, l-l-love, l-l-love How you love to hate me Love, l-l-love, l-l-love You ain't worth my love if you only love to hate me I'ma let you fade into the background Baby, all my shows are gettin' too loud Keep on turnin' it up when you want me down (Me down, me down, me down) Negative days, negative nights Baby, you're wasting all your time I can't relate, I keep it light No, no, no drama in my life (uh) Wake up, yeah, makeup, maybe I need you? Nah, I been good lately Blowin' up, workin' busy You ain't worth my love if you only love to hate me Love, l-l-love, l-l-love How you love to hate me Love, l-l-love, l-l-love You ain't worth my love if you only love to hate me Uh, love to hate me, you hate to love me I'm takin' back what you've taken from me You're mistaken, honey, this something that Remind me why I be alone on my own If I needed you, I'd have you, that I know, hold up I could do bad by myself, don't need help One of a kind, the hand that I was dealt, like oh, well Felt Cupid was stupid, I should have knew it 'Cause I been through it, you wouldn't do it If it ain't foolish, stupid You ain't worth my love if you only love to hate me Love, l-l-love, l-l-love How you love to hate me Love, l-l-love, l-l-love You ain't worth my love if you only love to hate me (uh) Love, l-l-love, l-l-love How you love to hate me Love, l-l-love, l-l-love You ain't worth my love if you only love to hate me

I hate the way I cry when you say you miss me But I love the way you hold me when I sleep I hate the way I bleed each time you kiss me But you say, "Hey, sleeping beauty, go back to sleep" We had pennies in our pockets We had hope in our eyes He said, "Girl, you've got a million different faces So why'd you put on that disguise?" Well, take what you want 'cause I have got nothing Pass me some pills, I'll go to bed But, however much I toss and turn I feel a dark place up ahead Some nights I just sit back here I remember, I just remember Before it all got lost up in the mess He said, "Not all men are bad and I am not like your dad And I will hold you even though you're slightly mad 'Cause I am not a man who will ever break you" We had pennies in our pockets We had hope in our eyes He said, "Girl, you've got a million different faces So why'd you put on that disguise?" Well you can take what you want 'cause I have got nothing Pass me some pills, I'll go to bed But however much I toss and turn I feel a dark place up ahead Do do do do do do do do My doctor says I've got to sing a happy tune Do do do do do do do do A do do do, but my body gave up too soon Do do do do do do do do You know what? I am just fine until I'm on my own Do do do do do do do do Ah do do do do oh, somebody please come home I hate the way I tremble when you touch me You're like a needle slowly piercing my skin I hate the way my stomach aches And I really hate these loveless mistakes 'Cause I'm screaming for my rock who never picks up Why do you never pick up? We had pennies in our pockets We had hope in our eyes He said, "Girl, you've got a million different faces So why'd you put on that disguise?" Well, you can take what you want 'cause I have got nothing Pass me some pills and I will go to bed But however much I toss and turn I feel a dark place up ahead Do do do do do do do do My doctor said I've got to sing a happy tune Maybe if I skip my dinner Make myself pretty and thinner Maybe then he'll love me and stop looking at the other girls So you said I'm paranoid, I'm paranoid? Well I nearly choked, and no more of that crap You cannot break someone who's just been broken You can't break somebody who's just been broken So take me now I'm naked As you watch, I'll let you take it Maybe then you'll love me and stop looking at the other girls You said I'm paranoid, well paranoid? Well, I nearly choked And no more of that crap You cannot break someone who's just been broken You can't break somebody who's just been broken Then I think he'll love me and stop looking at those other girls

متكتف مهموم موجوع وضعيف وشجاع مليان أحلام وعشان مربوط مكسور وبكسر في المآديف وتفوت أيام وتمر سنين وانا حالي غريب انا مين انا مين مشدود في الساقية وعايش مبسوط وحزين ومحبط وجرئ ورزين مشدود في الساقية وعايش مبسوط وحزين ومحبط وجرئ ورزين على غفلة اتحول بركان جبار انا ضلمة وليل أنا نار ونهار متكتف مهموم موجوع وضعيف وشجاع مليان أحلام وعشان مربوط مكسور وبكسر في المآديف ماشي على طريق مكتوب مرسوم بس انا مسؤول وعليا اللوم ماقدرش أقول من الذنب برئ لا انا ابليس ولا هبقى رسول ماقدرش أقول من الذنب برئ لا انا ابليس ولا هبقى رسول قدامي طريق همشيه همشيه نفهم في الآخر كل ده لية متكتف مهموم موجوع وضعيف وشجاع مليان أحلام وعشان مربوط مكسور وبكسر في المآديف

فوسط زحمة وناس كتير وطريق أنا ماشي فيه عكس السير وسط الطموح والأمل والتمني فاضلي خطوة توصلني فوسط حاجات ومكيفات بحاول أنسى كل اللي فات في وسط صدري ضلعي مكسور ومن خلاله قلبي شايف نور أنا كنت فاكر اني طاير وأتاريني على وشي بقع أنا كنت فاكر إني هوصل لكني بهرب من الوجع أنا كنت فاكر اني طاير وأتاريني على وشي بقع أنا كنت فاكر إني هوصل لكني بهرب من الوجع فوسط الليل وأنا بعيد عن البشر شفت نور يشبه نور القمر بس القمر مسيره يفارق ويسيبني تاني مع الوحدة أحارب فوسط قصة حب يعني وهمية كان لازم أصدق اصل الوحدة قوية مش كل المشاعر حقيقية أنا شفت نور معرفتش اغمض عنيا أنا كنت فاكر اني طاير وأتاريني على وشي بقع أنا كنت فاكر إني هوصل لكني بهرب من الوجع أنا كنت فاكر اني طاير وأتاريني على وشي بقع أنا كنت فاكر إني هوصل لكني بهرب من الوجع