I Hate This - Tenille Arts

I wish that I had somebody to call when I am not okay I wish that I had anyone who cared when I am in that place I wish I could have a mental breakdown Without turning my life into a ghost town So many things I would change But more than anything I wish somebody loved me As much as I hate myself I wish somebody listened As much as I go through hell For everytime I've thought of ending it all Wish somebody had felt what I felt I wish somebody loved me As much as I hate myself I wish there was a person that would miss me when I can't leave bed I wish I wasn't stuck sharing my secrets with these made up friends I wish I could be honest about the ugly Without every single person running from me These days it's hard to have faith And more than anything I wish somebody loved me As much as I hate myself I wish somebody listened As much as I go through hell For everytime I've thought of ending it all Wish somebody had felt what I felt I wish somebody loved me As much as I hate myself The floods I feel This storm could kill I'm better off to keep it damned 'Cause the more I speak The more I see Just how alone I really am I wish somebody loved me As much as I hate myself I wish somebody listened As much as I go through hell For everytime I've thought of ending it all Wish somebody had felt what I felt I wish somebody loved me As much as I hate myself

(Ooh, it's Wavy808) All this time is passing by But I still can't seem to tell you why It hurts me every time I see you Realize how much I need you I hate you, I love you I hate that I love you Don't want to, but I can't put Nobody else above you I hate the fact I had your back when nobody did (I did) I hate the fact I told you how I feel, and you ain't listen (no cap) Right now I'm on the road You think I'm fucking with these bitches? (Fuck) I love the fact you a boss bitch and independent (no cap) I always kept you my side since an adolescent I got shot, you wasn't there, I thought you was my blessin' I even went to jail for you, 30 shot Smith & Wesson Hollow tip my favorite kind, you was my essential (my essential) Juvenile, runnin' wild, we kept gettin' caught together You asked why, girl, I told you, "We locked in forever" (forever) And when we slide on the opps, it make your pussy wetter (wetter) The last nigga wasn't killin' shit, you said I do it better (better) You jammed on the last drill, you had me mad as fuck (mad as fuck) So when we get back to this house, I'ma beat that pussy up (pussy up) I broke you down part to part, I had to clean you up (clean you up) You my lil' soldier, so bipolar, why you mean as fuck? I even went to jail for you, would go to hell for you (hell for you) Right now I'm trafficking, you know I kept the sale with you You two-faced this, so I could never tell on you (tell on you) You always headshot niggas, it never failed with you (failed with you) Was on the block all night, you never left a nigga (left a nigga) Every shootout you was there, never failed a nigga And they mad, every stolen car I'm ridin' with her And out here shooting fo' them, that's why I'm sliding with ya When I was broke, you stuck with me even in the drought You don't care, anywhere, you will shoot it out (shoot it out) Remember when we separated, took a different route (different route) And I was mad as fuck, the police took you from my house (from my house) Then I got another bitch, a lil' Gunna bitch (Gunna bitch) Glock 23, jet 5 with a switch (switch) I put 30 shots on her, you know she love my dick When I up it, gotta buss it, got me nuttin' quick (quick) We in the bed, spread yo' legs, let me give you head I can't get caught with you 'cause I'm going fed (fast) But I gotta stay with you 'cause niggas want me dead (dead) We was robbin' shit together, kept the family fed You so good swear I love yo' ass like a brother (like a brother) My own momma even said we was for each other (for each other) Then you fuck around and get jealous when I bought that cutter (bought that choppa) You said you could never see me in love with another (I love my gun) All this time is passing by (no cap) But I still can't seem to tell you why It hurts me every time I see you Realize how much I need you I hate you, I love you I hate that I love you Don't want to, but I can't put Nobody else above you

I hate the way I cry when you say you miss me But I love the way you hold me when I sleep I hate the way I bleed each time you kiss me But you say, "Hey, sleeping beauty, go back to sleep" We had pennies in our pockets We had hope in our eyes He said, "Girl, you've got a million different faces So why'd you put on that disguise?" Well, take what you want 'cause I have got nothing Pass me some pills, I'll go to bed But, however much I toss and turn I feel a dark place up ahead Some nights I just sit back here I remember, I just remember Before it all got lost up in the mess He said, "Not all men are bad and I am not like your dad And I will hold you even though you're slightly mad 'Cause I am not a man who will ever break you" We had pennies in our pockets We had hope in our eyes He said, "Girl, you've got a million different faces So why'd you put on that disguise?" Well you can take what you want 'cause I have got nothing Pass me some pills, I'll go to bed But however much I toss and turn I feel a dark place up ahead Do do do do do do do do My doctor says I've got to sing a happy tune Do do do do do do do do A do do do, but my body gave up too soon Do do do do do do do do You know what? I am just fine until I'm on my own Do do do do do do do do Ah do do do do oh, somebody please come home I hate the way I tremble when you touch me You're like a needle slowly piercing my skin I hate the way my stomach aches And I really hate these loveless mistakes 'Cause I'm screaming for my rock who never picks up Why do you never pick up? We had pennies in our pockets We had hope in our eyes He said, "Girl, you've got a million different faces So why'd you put on that disguise?" Well, you can take what you want 'cause I have got nothing Pass me some pills and I will go to bed But however much I toss and turn I feel a dark place up ahead Do do do do do do do do My doctor said I've got to sing a happy tune Maybe if I skip my dinner Make myself pretty and thinner Maybe then he'll love me and stop looking at the other girls So you said I'm paranoid, I'm paranoid? Well I nearly choked, and no more of that crap You cannot break someone who's just been broken You can't break somebody who's just been broken So take me now I'm naked As you watch, I'll let you take it Maybe then you'll love me and stop looking at the other girls You said I'm paranoid, well paranoid? Well, I nearly choked And no more of that crap You cannot break someone who's just been broken You can't break somebody who's just been broken Then I think he'll love me and stop looking at those other girls

متكتف مهموم موجوع وضعيف وشجاع مليان أحلام وعشان مربوط مكسور وبكسر في المآديف وتفوت أيام وتمر سنين وانا حالي غريب انا مين انا مين مشدود في الساقية وعايش مبسوط وحزين ومحبط وجرئ ورزين مشدود في الساقية وعايش مبسوط وحزين ومحبط وجرئ ورزين على غفلة اتحول بركان جبار انا ضلمة وليل أنا نار ونهار متكتف مهموم موجوع وضعيف وشجاع مليان أحلام وعشان مربوط مكسور وبكسر في المآديف ماشي على طريق مكتوب مرسوم بس انا مسؤول وعليا اللوم ماقدرش أقول من الذنب برئ لا انا ابليس ولا هبقى رسول ماقدرش أقول من الذنب برئ لا انا ابليس ولا هبقى رسول قدامي طريق همشيه همشيه نفهم في الآخر كل ده لية متكتف مهموم موجوع وضعيف وشجاع مليان أحلام وعشان مربوط مكسور وبكسر في المآديف

فوسط زحمة وناس كتير وطريق أنا ماشي فيه عكس السير وسط الطموح والأمل والتمني فاضلي خطوة توصلني فوسط حاجات ومكيفات بحاول أنسى كل اللي فات في وسط صدري ضلعي مكسور ومن خلاله قلبي شايف نور أنا كنت فاكر اني طاير وأتاريني على وشي بقع أنا كنت فاكر إني هوصل لكني بهرب من الوجع أنا كنت فاكر اني طاير وأتاريني على وشي بقع أنا كنت فاكر إني هوصل لكني بهرب من الوجع فوسط الليل وأنا بعيد عن البشر شفت نور يشبه نور القمر بس القمر مسيره يفارق ويسيبني تاني مع الوحدة أحارب فوسط قصة حب يعني وهمية كان لازم أصدق اصل الوحدة قوية مش كل المشاعر حقيقية أنا شفت نور معرفتش اغمض عنيا أنا كنت فاكر اني طاير وأتاريني على وشي بقع أنا كنت فاكر إني هوصل لكني بهرب من الوجع أنا كنت فاكر اني طاير وأتاريني على وشي بقع أنا كنت فاكر إني هوصل لكني بهرب من الوجع

You got a fast car I want a ticket to anywhere Maybe we make a deal Maybe together we can get somewhere Any place is better Startin' from zero, got nothing to lose Maybe we'll make something Me, myself, I got nothing to prove You got a fast car I got a plan to get us out of here I been working at the convenience store Managed to save just a little bit of money Won't have to drive too far Just across the border and into the city You and I can both get jobs Finally see what it means to be living See, my old man's got a problem He lives with the bottle, that's the way it is He says his body's too old for working His body's too young to look like his Mama went off and left him She wanted more from life than he could give I said, "somebody's got to take care of him" So I quit school and that's what I did You got a fast car Is it fast enough so we can fly away? Still gotta make a decision Leave tonight, or live and die this way So, I remember when we were driving, driving in your car Speed so fast, I felt like I was drunk City lights lay out before us And your arm felt nice wrapped 'round my shoulder And I, I, had a feeling that I belonged I, I, had a feeling I could be someone, be someone, be someone You got a fast car We go cruisin', entertain ourselves You still ain't got a job So I work in a market as a checkout girl I know things will get better You'll find work and I'll get promoted We'll move out of the shelter Buy a bigger house, live in the suburbs So, I remember when we were driving, driving in your car Speed so fast, I felt like I was drunk City lights lay out before us And your arm felt nice wrapped 'round my shoulder And I, I, had a feeling that I belonged I, I, had a feeling I could be someone, be someone, be someone You got a fast car I got a job that pays all our bills You stay out drinking late at the bar See more of your friends than you do of your kids I'd always hoped for better Thought maybe together you and me would find it I got no plans, I ain't going nowhere So take your fast car and keep on driving So, I remember when we were driving, driving in your car Speed so fast, I felt like I was drunk City lights lay out before us And your arm felt nice wrapped 'round my shoulder And I, I, had a feeling that I belonged I, I, had a feeling I could be someone, be someone, be someone You got a fast car Is it fast enough so you can fly away? You still gotta make a decision Leave tonight, or live and die this way