I’m Okay Though - Sara Kays

Daddy, I'm afraid, won't you stay a little while? Keep me safe 'cause there's monsters right outside Daddy, please don't go, I don't wanna be alone 'Cause the second that you're gone they're gonna know Before he went to bed, he grabbed my hand and said "Just 'cause I'm leaving It don't mean that I won't be right by your side When you need me And you can't see me in the middle of the night Just close your eyes and say a prayer It's okay, I know you're scared When I'm not here, but I'll always be right there Even though I'm leaving I ain't going nowhere" Dad, we've all been late and Uncle Sam don't like to wait He's got a big old plane that's gonna take me far away I know I act tough but there's a churning in my gut 'Cause I just can't call you up when things get rough Before I left, he hugged my neck and said "Just 'cause you're leaving It don't mean that I won't be right by your side When you need me And you can't see me in the middle of the night Just close your eyes and say a prayer It's okay, I know you're scared I might be here, but I'll always be right there Even though you're leaving I ain't going nowhere" Daddy, I'm afraid, won't you stay a little while? I never thought I'd see the day I had to say goodbye Daddy, please don't go, I can't do this on my own There's no way that I can walk this road alone Daddy grabbed my hand and said "Just 'cause I'm leaving It don't mean that I won't be right by your side When you need me And you can't see me in the middle of the night Just close your eyes and say a prayer It's okay, boy, I ain't scared I won't be here But I'll always be right there Even though I'm leaving I ain't going nowhere" I ain't going nowhere

D-D-Danny Why the f- they put my business on the blogs? Sisters know they never gotta get a job Brodie said he rather spin sh- and rob Damn dawg, he ain't playin' dawg That's your plan dawg? That's your man dawg? F- both of them, I want 'em all gone Sh- been gettin shakey I'm staying where I'm safe at Couple spots, I'on know where I stay at Why would you play and you know we don't play that? Flippin' words when you know I ain't say that I been good so I'm guessing it's payback Smoking woods in the back of the Maybach I'm the hero so they gotta face that Hit Dior, where the f- is my cape at? I'm on a other one, bought another car then another Bank account like I just won a settlement Sippin' Wock', I'm addicted to medicine Pockets on elephant, large I get two pretty women to come kick it with me at the penthouse We'll have a ménage I go in any n- city, bunch of killers with me, everybody got a rod Swear I'll nod off 'fore I fall off, it's that drink talk, oh, yeah 15 foreign cars and I pop off and I run ATL When I get old I might have back problems these Cuban links big as hell I done f- M's up with these lawyers tryna get my n- out of jail 500 racks for a bond, do whatever for brodie We came up from cars that was stolen Before it drop I'ma be on top of this fashion I'm staying in touch with the owners You stabbed me right in my back when you could have just asked what happen When you be disloyal We sharing all of this sh- From the money, to cars, to the h-, it don't matter the order One of my n- got out and another went in Swear, I'm getting sick and tired of that order I see you drowning I'm coming to help you I'm risking it all I'ma die in that water I'm rich as f- I can do what I wanna Came over sober, she left here a stoner She know she rather sleep inside a condo Well, I f- her like I'm fresh out the corner I can't change I'm stuck in my ways Poppin' half and half I'm up for a day Oh, you getting money now? Okay Tell 'em don't play with you, okay I'm proud of you, you supposed to be proud of me too I do everything that I can do Make it happen, don't make an excuse I sure improved I'm the one and not the two, yeah Lot of money on you now, yeah Sh- together, got accounts, yeah Glad you took a different route, yeah Tryna buy your folks a house, yeah Glad you really made it out, yeah You can't sit and wait around, yeah Gotta get up and get out, yeah You gotta get this sh- now, yeah I got a Cullinan 'cause I just wanted one Run up a check and look out for my brothers I asked did he trick and that n- was stutterin' I knew him for years and he don't know my government You can't come around if you keep on recording me I'm trappin', you trappin', that sh- be a tournament Voice of the trenches and I could be a general I'm pour up a cup with the n- who murder But I ain't gon' hold you, n- had told I told N- be using emojis, saying I'm bogus I was just down on my back I couldn't send cash, I wrote you My brother did ten, got out of jail, I'm global I take care of my block, I'm 'posed to I'm done f- h- who local Popped me a ten ain't feel it I gotta go boot up some doses Ask, can I leave them streets alone? Bro went to jail and I got him a phone Just 'cause he think 'cause he lost his motion My brother think he ain't coming home Fentanyl and felonies getting you gone Switch on a nickel, I feel like a stone The n- who died I'll never respond I'm slapping the b- who ain't listen to Von I can't change I'm stuck in my ways Poppin' half and half I'm up for a day Oh, you getting money now? Okay Tell 'em don't play with you, okay I'm proud of you, you supposed to be proud of me too I do everything that I can do Make it happen, don't make an excuse I sure improved I'm the one and not the two, yeah Lot of money on you now, yeah Sh- together, got accounts, yeah Glad you took a different route, yeah Tryna buy your folks a house, yeah Glad you really made it out, yeah You can't sit and wait around, yeah Gotta get up and get out, yeah You gotta get this sh- now, yeah

Tonight the monsters in my head Are screaming so damn loud But I built walls so high So they never even make a sound It's a mask, it's a lie It's the only home I've ever known 'Cause being who I really am Has only left me more alone I am not okay And I need you to see it I have so much to say And no one to hear it The reason I keep quiet With so much at stake I always feel like a burden, let it silence me You'll never understand Why it's so hard to say I'm not okay I wish I had a scar Had a bruise on the surface, any kind of proof That everything I feel is more than just some sad excuse My life's invisible abuse I'm either judged or have to hide The only symptom you can see Is I don't wanna be alive I am not okay And I need you to see it I have so much to say And no one to hear it The reason I keep quiet With so much at stake I always feel like a burden, let it silence me You'll never understand Why it's so hard to say I'll never have the words, I can't explain this hell But what if it kills me If I keep it to myself? To myself I am not okay And I need you to see it I have so much to say And no one to hear it I am not okay I am not okay I'm never safe It's not a phase If I finally break Would you still stay? Tonight the monsters in my head Are screaming so damn loud

Last night I made out with another boy To get the taste of your lips off mine I'm thinking that wasn't my smartest choice I think I had too much cherry wine Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh I don't wanna soak in my bed all day, just writing sad shit Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh Yeah, it hurts right now But in time, I'll be right back before I know it I'm gonna be okay, getting over you And I'm gonna feel so great 'Cause I know that all it takes is a moment for me to regain my balance Mm, mm, mm, mm Yeah, I'm gonna be okay 'cause I know my truth I'm not coming back today I just gotta get myself a damn moment for me to regain my balance Mm, mm, mm, mm Am I gonna be okay, okay? I pray, I take it day by day I pray my troubles up away I pray that I won't feel the same ways I did before Crying on my bathroom floor I just need some time, and then I know I won't feel anymore Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh I don't wanna soak in my bed all day, just writing sad shit Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh Yeah, it hurts right now But in time, I'll be right back before I know it I'm gonna be okay, getting over you And I'm gonna feel so great 'Cause I know that all it takes is a moment for me to regain my balance Mm, mm, mm, mm Yeah, I'm gonna be okay 'cause I know my truth I'm not coming back today I just gotta get myself a damn moment for me to regain my balance Mm, mm, mm, mm I'm gonna be okay, okay, okay I'm gonna be okay, okay I'm gonna be okay, okay, okay I'm gonna be I'm gonna be okay

متكتف مهموم موجوع وضعيف وشجاع مليان أحلام وعشان مربوط مكسور وبكسر في المآديف وتفوت أيام وتمر سنين وانا حالي غريب انا مين انا مين مشدود في الساقية وعايش مبسوط وحزين ومحبط وجرئ ورزين مشدود في الساقية وعايش مبسوط وحزين ومحبط وجرئ ورزين على غفلة اتحول بركان جبار انا ضلمة وليل أنا نار ونهار متكتف مهموم موجوع وضعيف وشجاع مليان أحلام وعشان مربوط مكسور وبكسر في المآديف ماشي على طريق مكتوب مرسوم بس انا مسؤول وعليا اللوم ماقدرش أقول من الذنب برئ لا انا ابليس ولا هبقى رسول ماقدرش أقول من الذنب برئ لا انا ابليس ولا هبقى رسول قدامي طريق همشيه همشيه نفهم في الآخر كل ده لية متكتف مهموم موجوع وضعيف وشجاع مليان أحلام وعشان مربوط مكسور وبكسر في المآديف

فوسط زحمة وناس كتير وطريق أنا ماشي فيه عكس السير وسط الطموح والأمل والتمني فاضلي خطوة توصلني فوسط حاجات ومكيفات بحاول أنسى كل اللي فات في وسط صدري ضلعي مكسور ومن خلاله قلبي شايف نور أنا كنت فاكر اني طاير وأتاريني على وشي بقع أنا كنت فاكر إني هوصل لكني بهرب من الوجع أنا كنت فاكر اني طاير وأتاريني على وشي بقع أنا كنت فاكر إني هوصل لكني بهرب من الوجع فوسط الليل وأنا بعيد عن البشر شفت نور يشبه نور القمر بس القمر مسيره يفارق ويسيبني تاني مع الوحدة أحارب فوسط قصة حب يعني وهمية كان لازم أصدق اصل الوحدة قوية مش كل المشاعر حقيقية أنا شفت نور معرفتش اغمض عنيا أنا كنت فاكر اني طاير وأتاريني على وشي بقع أنا كنت فاكر إني هوصل لكني بهرب من الوجع أنا كنت فاكر اني طاير وأتاريني على وشي بقع أنا كنت فاكر إني هوصل لكني بهرب من الوجع

One, two, three Why are you hanging on so tight To the rope that I'm hanging from? Off this island, this was an escape plan (this was an escape plan) Carefully timed it, so let me go And dive into the waves below Who tends the orchards? Who fixes up the gables? Emotional torture from the head of your high table Who fetches the water from the rocky mountain spring? And walk back down again to feel your words and their sharp sting And I'm getting fucking tired The capillaries in my eyes are bursting If our love died, would that be the worst thing? For somebody I thought was my saviour You sure make me do a whole lot of labour The calloused skin on my hands is cracking If our love ended, would that be a bad thing? And the silence haunts our bed chamber You make me do too much labour You make me do too much labour Apologies from my tongue, and never yours Busy lapping from flowing cup and stabbing with your fork I know you're a smart man (I know you're a smart man), and weaponise The false incompetence, it's dominance under a guise If we had a daughter, I'd watch and could not save her The emotional torture, from the head of your high table She'd do what you taught her, she'd meet the same cruel fate So now I've gotta run, so I can undo this mistake At least I've gotta try The capillaries in my eyes are bursting If our love died, would that be the worst thing? For somebody I thought was my saviour You sure make me do a whole lot of labour The calloused skin on my hands is cracking If our love ends, would that be a bad thing? And the silence haunts our bed chamber You make me do too much labour All day, every day, therapist, mother, maid Nymph then a virgin, nurse then a servant Just an appendage, live to attend him So that he never lifts a finger 24-7, baby machine So he can live out his picket fence dreams It's not an act of love if you make her You make me do too much labour All day, every day, therapist, mother, maid Nymph then virgin, nurse and a servant Just an appendage, live to attend him So that he never lifts a finger 24-7, baby machine So he can live out his picket fence dreams It's not an act of love if you make her You make me do too much labour All day, every day, therapist, mother, maid (The capillaries in my eyes are bursting) Nymph then virgin, nurse and a servant (If our love died, would that be the worst thing?) Just an appendage, live to attend him (For somebody I thought was my saviour) So that he never lifts a finger (You sure make me do a whole lot of labour) 24-7, baby machine (The calloused skin on my hands is crackin') So he can live out his picket fence dreams (If our love ends, would that be a bad thing?) It's not an act of love if you make her (And the silence haunts our bed chamber) You make me do too much labour