I Deserve to Bleed - Sushi Soucy

I can't move, I'm so paralyzed I'm so paralyzed And I can't explain why I'm terrified I'm so terrified Well, I don't wanna touch the sky no more I just wanna feel the ground when I'm coming down It's been way too long And I don't even wanna get high no more I just want it out of my life Out of my life, out I wanna cut you outta my dreams 'Til I'm bleeding out 'Til I'm bleeding I wanna cut you outta my mind 'Til I'm bleeding out 'Til I'm bleeding I wanna cut you outta my dreams Woah, I'm bleeding out Girl, I'm bleeding I wanna cut you outta my mind 'Cause I'm bleeding out Oh, I'm bleeding Girl, I'm bleeding I keep telling myself I don't need it I keep telling myself I don't need it anymore I keep telling myself I don't need it anymore Need it anymore

Eh I deserve anything coming my way, so fuck you I done walked so many miles I done let so many down So many nights, I done felt worthless My whole life, I been abused Locked in a cell institution I was silent so I felt helpless Greatness, I deserve it Grammy award, I deserve it Charting number one on the Billboard, I deserve it Anything they got was doing great, I deserve it For every night that I experienced pain, I deserve it Wanna ride around the city in a Rolls Royce top down Diamonds shining hardly in the dark, I'm in the light now I want a big ass house with a flashy gate What's on the menu for the night, I want lobster and steak Tell me why I don't deserve it? 'Cause I been through pain every night hurting My momma ghetto, now she suburban Private plane got a different turbulence What you know 'bout getting it out the mud Then you fighting with the system? You ever see your brother die, watch the bullets hit him What about getting separated from your family? I was gone so long, I forgot I had family I had dreamed I had a Grammy I done walked so many miles I done let so many down So many nights, I done felt worthless My whole life, I been abused Locked in a cell institution I was silent so I felt helpless Greatness, I deserve it Grammy award, I deserve it Charting number one on the Billboard, I deserve it Anything they got was doing great, I deserve it For every night that I experienced pain, I deserve it (yeah) Keep yo' head up, no looking down, that shit gon' pay off Only the real gon' be around when that day come I know friends kill friends so I be with AR They can't find they self so they find someone to hate on Time to elevate on 'em Ball fadeaway on 'em Buy another estate on 'em Your time coming, wait on it We tryna make falls, we ain't worried about awards As long as I got my wood, I ain't running from no war I think about my granny a lot, my family a lot I done made it out, fuck if I get a Grammy or not Some niggas stabbed me in my back I forgave 'em but I never forgot That shit they did to me, I never forgot I done walked so many miles I done let so many down So many nights, I done felt worthless My whole life, I been abused Locked in a cell institution I was silent so I felt helpless Greatness, I deserve it Grammy award, I deserve it Charting number one on the Billboard, I deserve it Anything they got was doing great, I deserve it For every night that I experienced pain, I deserve it

Close my eyes Feel you sigh A desperate aching wonder Will you ever, ever let me off my knees? Wide awake Like a dream As simple as a secret Being told, told to everyone but me Will I I gave it all But you can't stop taking from me And way down I know You know where to cut me With your eyes closed It won't be long Til this heart stops beating So don't let me Bleed out here alone Hear my plea You won't hear my plea Sudden rain Coming down It all comes back to me Waking up, falling down Another day Come undone I keep trying to heal your pain In return, you cut me over and over One more time and I will I gave it all But you can't stop taking from me And way down I know You know where to cut me With your eyes closed It won't be long Til my heart stops beating So don't let me Don't leave me Bleeding alone I finally feel like I'm supposed to be, yeah, oh Don't you take this moment away from me But before you kill me wont you Wont you look back in my eyes and watch me I gave it all But you can't stop taking from me And way down I know You know where to cut me With your eyes closed It won't be long Til my heart stops beating So don't leave me don't let me Bleed out here alone Hear my plea I gave it all But you can't stop taking from me And way down I know You know where to cut me With your eyes closed It won't be long Til this heart stops beating So don't leave me don't let me Bleed out here alone

My cup runneth over Like blood from a stone These stand for me Name your god and bleed the freak I'd like to see How you all would bleed for me When the pig runs slower (slower) Let the arrow fly (fly) When the sin lies bolder (bolder) I'll pluck out thine eye (I'll pluck out thine eye) These stand for me Name your god and bleed the freak I'd like to see How you all would bleed for me If you scorn my lover (lover) Satan got your thigh (thigh) If you steal in hunger (hunger) I will kick you when you try (when you try) These stand for me Name your god and bleed the freak I'd like to see How you all would bleed for me I'm (All these things that you've done for me) (Have left me so) Fucking tired, oh (I'm not saying that you haven't done a lot of good) (But if there's one thing that you can do) Bleed for me, bleed for me These stand for me Name your god and bleed the freak I'd like to see How you all would bleed for me These stand for me Name your god and bleed the freak I'd like to see How you all would bleed for me

متكتف مهموم موجوع وضعيف وشجاع مليان أحلام وعشان مربوط مكسور وبكسر في المآديف وتفوت أيام وتمر سنين وانا حالي غريب انا مين انا مين مشدود في الساقية وعايش مبسوط وحزين ومحبط وجرئ ورزين مشدود في الساقية وعايش مبسوط وحزين ومحبط وجرئ ورزين على غفلة اتحول بركان جبار انا ضلمة وليل أنا نار ونهار متكتف مهموم موجوع وضعيف وشجاع مليان أحلام وعشان مربوط مكسور وبكسر في المآديف ماشي على طريق مكتوب مرسوم بس انا مسؤول وعليا اللوم ماقدرش أقول من الذنب برئ لا انا ابليس ولا هبقى رسول ماقدرش أقول من الذنب برئ لا انا ابليس ولا هبقى رسول قدامي طريق همشيه همشيه نفهم في الآخر كل ده لية متكتف مهموم موجوع وضعيف وشجاع مليان أحلام وعشان مربوط مكسور وبكسر في المآديف

فوسط زحمة وناس كتير وطريق أنا ماشي فيه عكس السير وسط الطموح والأمل والتمني فاضلي خطوة توصلني فوسط حاجات ومكيفات بحاول أنسى كل اللي فات في وسط صدري ضلعي مكسور ومن خلاله قلبي شايف نور أنا كنت فاكر اني طاير وأتاريني على وشي بقع أنا كنت فاكر إني هوصل لكني بهرب من الوجع أنا كنت فاكر اني طاير وأتاريني على وشي بقع أنا كنت فاكر إني هوصل لكني بهرب من الوجع فوسط الليل وأنا بعيد عن البشر شفت نور يشبه نور القمر بس القمر مسيره يفارق ويسيبني تاني مع الوحدة أحارب فوسط قصة حب يعني وهمية كان لازم أصدق اصل الوحدة قوية مش كل المشاعر حقيقية أنا شفت نور معرفتش اغمض عنيا أنا كنت فاكر اني طاير وأتاريني على وشي بقع أنا كنت فاكر إني هوصل لكني بهرب من الوجع أنا كنت فاكر اني طاير وأتاريني على وشي بقع أنا كنت فاكر إني هوصل لكني بهرب من الوجع

One, two, three Why are you hanging on so tight To the rope that I'm hanging from? Off this island, this was an escape plan (this was an escape plan) Carefully timed it, so let me go And dive into the waves below Who tends the orchards? Who fixes up the gables? Emotional torture from the head of your high table Who fetches the water from the rocky mountain spring? And walk back down again to feel your words and their sharp sting And I'm getting fucking tired The capillaries in my eyes are bursting If our love died, would that be the worst thing? For somebody I thought was my saviour You sure make me do a whole lot of labour The calloused skin on my hands is cracking If our love ended, would that be a bad thing? And the silence haunts our bed chamber You make me do too much labour You make me do too much labour Apologies from my tongue, and never yours Busy lapping from flowing cup and stabbing with your fork I know you're a smart man (I know you're a smart man), and weaponise The false incompetence, it's dominance under a guise If we had a daughter, I'd watch and could not save her The emotional torture, from the head of your high table She'd do what you taught her, she'd meet the same cruel fate So now I've gotta run, so I can undo this mistake At least I've gotta try The capillaries in my eyes are bursting If our love died, would that be the worst thing? For somebody I thought was my saviour You sure make me do a whole lot of labour The calloused skin on my hands is cracking If our love ends, would that be a bad thing? And the silence haunts our bed chamber You make me do too much labour All day, every day, therapist, mother, maid Nymph then a virgin, nurse then a servant Just an appendage, live to attend him So that he never lifts a finger 24-7, baby machine So he can live out his picket fence dreams It's not an act of love if you make her You make me do too much labour All day, every day, therapist, mother, maid Nymph then virgin, nurse and a servant Just an appendage, live to attend him So that he never lifts a finger 24-7, baby machine So he can live out his picket fence dreams It's not an act of love if you make her You make me do too much labour All day, every day, therapist, mother, maid (The capillaries in my eyes are bursting) Nymph then virgin, nurse and a servant (If our love died, would that be the worst thing?) Just an appendage, live to attend him (For somebody I thought was my saviour) So that he never lifts a finger (You sure make me do a whole lot of labour) 24-7, baby machine (The calloused skin on my hands is crackin') So he can live out his picket fence dreams (If our love ends, would that be a bad thing?) It's not an act of love if you make her (And the silence haunts our bed chamber) You make me do too much labour