I Would've - Jessie Murph

If you would've blinked, then I would've Looked away at the first glance If you tasted poison, you could've Spit me out at the first chance If I was some paint, did it splatter On a promising grown man And if I was a child, did it matter If you got to wash your hands Oh, all I used to do was pray Would've, could've, should've If you'd never looked my way I would've stayed On my knees And I damn sure never would've danced with the devil At nineteen, and the god's honest truth is that the pain was heaven And now that I'm grown I'm scared of ghosts Memories feel like weapons And now that I know I wish you'd left me wondering If you never touched me, I would've Gone along with the righteous If I never blushed then they could've Never whispered about this And if you never saved me from boredom I could've gone on as I was But lord, you made me feel important And then you tried to erase us Oh, you're a crisis of my faith Would've, could've, should've If I'd only played it safe I would've stayed on my knees And I damn sure never would've danced with the devil At nineteen, and the god's honest truth is that the pain was heaven And now that I'm grown I'm scared of ghosts Memories feel like weapons And now that I know I wish you'd left me wondering God rest my soul I miss who I used to be The tomb won't close Stained glass windows in my mind I regret you all the time Can't let this go I fight with you in my sleep The wound won't close I keep on waiting for a sign I regret you all the time If clarity's in death, then why won't this die? Years of tearing down our banners You and I Living for the thrill of hitting you where it hurts Give me back my girlhood It was mine first And I damn sure never would've danced with the devil At nineteen, and the god's honest truth is that the pain was heaven And now that I'm grown I'm scared of ghosts Memories feel like weapons And now that I know I wish you'd left me wondering God rest my soul I miss who I used to be The tomb won't close Stained glass windows in my mind I regret you all the time I can't let this go I fight with you in my sleep The wound won't close I keep on waiting for a sign I regret you all the time Oh, god rest my soul I miss who I used to be The tomb won't close Stained-glass windows in my mind I regret you all the time I can't let this go I fight with you in my sleep The wound won't close I keep on waiting for a sign I regret you all the time

Hung all my clothes in the closet you made Your shoes still in boxes I send them your way Hoping life brings you no new pain I rearrange my memories I try to rewrite our life But no matter how I try to And no matter how I want to And no matter how easy things could be if I did And no matter how guilty I still feel saying it I wish I hated you I wish that weren't true Wish there was worse to you I wish you were worse to me Yeah, I wish I hated you Our shadows stands in a parallel plane Just two different endings You learn to repair And I learn to keep me in one place So close and yet so far If only we had known from the start But no matter how I try to And no matter how I want to And no matter how easy things could be if I did And no matter how guilty I still feel saying it I wish I hated you I wish that weren't true Wish there was worse to you I wish you were worse to me Yeah, I wish I hated you

말없이 그대만 보죠 못 본 척 지나칠 걸 알면서도 그대 곁에만 있으면 시간이 멈춘 것 같아 내내 웃기만 했었죠 말없이 그대만 보죠 또 난 하고 싶은 말이 또 생긴 거죠 가까이 다가 갈수록 그대와의 거리가 너무도 멀게만 느껴지죠 난 그대만 I love you 그저 I want you, I need you 아직 어리단 말 마요 I love you 지금 이 순간도 너의 목소리 듣고 싶어 내 곁에 있어줘 좋은 일만 있었던 건 아니죠 내게도 눈물짓던 밤이 있어 어느새 다가온 사랑 내 맘을 흔들어 놓죠 그대 곁에 가면 안 되나요 난 그대만 I love you 그저 I want you, I need you 아직 어리단 말 마요 I love you 지금 이 순간도 너의 목소리 듣고 싶어 내 곁에 있어줘 I love you 그저 I want you, I need you 아직 어리단 말 마요 I love you 지금 이 순간도 너의 목소리 듣고 싶어 I love you 그저 I want you, I need you 자꾸 눈물만 흐르죠 I love you 거짓말이라도 말해줬으면 바라는 나

I guess I just feel like I guess I just feel like Nobody's honest Nobody's true Everyone's lying To make it on through I guess I just feel like I'm the same way too I guess I just feel like Good things are gone And the weight of my worries Is too much to take on I think I remember This dream that I had This love's gonna save us From a world that's gone mad I guess I just feel like What happened to that I guess I just feel like The joke's getting old The future is fading And the past is on hold But I know that I'm open And I know that I'm free And I'll always let hope in Wherever I'll be And if I go blind I'll still find my way I guess I just felt like Giving up today

Limb by limb and tooth by tooth Stirring up inside of me Every day, every hour I wish that I was bulletproof Wax me, mold me Heat the pins and stab them in You have turned me into this Just wish that it was bullet proof Was bullet proof So pay me money, take a shot Lead-fill the hole in me I could burst a million bubbles All surrogate and bullet proof And bullet proof And bullet proof Bullet proof

متكتف مهموم موجوع وضعيف وشجاع مليان أحلام وعشان مربوط مكسور وبكسر في المآديف وتفوت أيام وتمر سنين وانا حالي غريب انا مين انا مين مشدود في الساقية وعايش مبسوط وحزين ومحبط وجرئ ورزين مشدود في الساقية وعايش مبسوط وحزين ومحبط وجرئ ورزين على غفلة اتحول بركان جبار انا ضلمة وليل أنا نار ونهار متكتف مهموم موجوع وضعيف وشجاع مليان أحلام وعشان مربوط مكسور وبكسر في المآديف ماشي على طريق مكتوب مرسوم بس انا مسؤول وعليا اللوم ماقدرش أقول من الذنب برئ لا انا ابليس ولا هبقى رسول ماقدرش أقول من الذنب برئ لا انا ابليس ولا هبقى رسول قدامي طريق همشيه همشيه نفهم في الآخر كل ده لية متكتف مهموم موجوع وضعيف وشجاع مليان أحلام وعشان مربوط مكسور وبكسر في المآديف

فوسط زحمة وناس كتير وطريق أنا ماشي فيه عكس السير وسط الطموح والأمل والتمني فاضلي خطوة توصلني فوسط حاجات ومكيفات بحاول أنسى كل اللي فات في وسط صدري ضلعي مكسور ومن خلاله قلبي شايف نور أنا كنت فاكر اني طاير وأتاريني على وشي بقع أنا كنت فاكر إني هوصل لكني بهرب من الوجع أنا كنت فاكر اني طاير وأتاريني على وشي بقع أنا كنت فاكر إني هوصل لكني بهرب من الوجع فوسط الليل وأنا بعيد عن البشر شفت نور يشبه نور القمر بس القمر مسيره يفارق ويسيبني تاني مع الوحدة أحارب فوسط قصة حب يعني وهمية كان لازم أصدق اصل الوحدة قوية مش كل المشاعر حقيقية أنا شفت نور معرفتش اغمض عنيا أنا كنت فاكر اني طاير وأتاريني على وشي بقع أنا كنت فاكر إني هوصل لكني بهرب من الوجع أنا كنت فاكر اني طاير وأتاريني على وشي بقع أنا كنت فاكر إني هوصل لكني بهرب من الوجع