Lost Myself To You - Besomorph, Anthony Keyrouz & Lunis

I think I lost myself when I started going out Taking drugs just to numb my pain I think I lost myself when my mother look me in the eyes And told me that I'm "Not the same" I think I lost myself when everyone figured out I'm a screw-up and an addict Looking at the world like it's crazy There's no one to save me And there's only one reason that I'm mad I'm mad because I I know I should have asked for more than what I've gotten It's hard to bite the apple if you know the apple's rotten They feeding me unhealthy habits but I couldn't stop it They told me love is natural, but this is feeling forced Don't bite the hand that feeds you Well, unless of course Unless it's constantly feeding you stuff that you can't stomach I'm not the one to tell them that I always ran from it Confrontation makes me sick I feel like I'm gon' vomit I don't wanna be the person that just hides behind Every wall I throw up, while I die inside This knot in my stomach won't stop until it's tied my mind It's held me down for too long and now my breath is gone I hope I get a second chance but there's no death respawn I know I'm probably not the person that can love on you But I'm a walking consequence of what love can do And if they treating you like dirt, then they will shovel you Into your grave where you will die and then cover you And swear to God, and claim that they were loving you 'Cause when you're six feet down there no longer under you Having a higher person doesn't mean you're fireproof X got shot, all he did was inspire youth If I could do one thing, it'd be inspired you To look inside the mirror and stop lying To the only fucking person that would die for you I think I lost myself when I let myself fuck around and fell for the wrong one Ay I think I lost myself when my mental health started giving signs and I ignored them Ay I think I lost myself when I found all my friends doubting all the dreams that I had Looking at the world like it's crazy, there's no one to save me That ain't the only reason that I'm mad I'm mad because I Found myself trapped in the dark, sad in my heart Mad at God just to cap it all off Your words and eyes, they ain't matching at all But nowadays I smile, I'm just laughing it off It's a prison cell in the head all the time When you're going to hell just to get through life Just to make it through another night Another sibling tryna pick a fight Family's not normal, guess that it's alright I just learned to live with it and adapt to life (life) In fact, who am I kidding, can you pass the knife? Just so I can slice into the afterlife The only time I'm happy is when I grab the mic It's like they can't be happy, so they mad that I'm It's like they don't have passion, so they after mine (why?) Asking a bunch of questions but I answer mine I think I lost myself when I let myself fuck around and fell for the wrong one Ay I think I lost myself when my mental health started giving signs and I ignored them Ay I think I lost myself when everyone figured out I'm a screw-up and an addict Looking at the world like it's crazy, there's no one to save me It ain't the only one reason that I'm mad I'm mad because I

Tell me what I've gotta do There's no getting through to you The lights are on, but nobody's home You say I can't understand But you're not giving me a chance When you leave me, where do you go? All the walls that you keep building All this time that I spent chasing All the ways that I keep losing you And the truth is, you turned into someone else You keep running like the sky is falling I can whisper, I can yell But I know, yeah, I know, yeah, I know, I'm just talking to myself Talking to myself, talking to myself But I know, yeah, I know, yeah, I know, I'm just talking to myself I admit I made mistakes But yours might cost you everything Can't you hear me calling you home? Oh, all the walls that you keep building All this time that I spent chasing All the ways that I keep losing you And the truth is, you turned into someone else You keep running like the sky is falling I can whisper, I can yell But I know, yeah, I know, yeah, I know, I'm just talking to myself Talking to myself, talking to myself Yeah, I know, yeah, I know, yeah, I know, I'm just talking to myself All the walls that you keep building All this time that I spent chasing All the ways that I keep losing you And the truth is, you turned into someone else You keep running like the sky is falling I can whisper, I can yell But I know, yeah, I know, yeah, I know, I'm just talking to myself I'm talking to myself, I'm talking to myself Yeah, I know, yeah, I know, yeah, I know, talking to myself

For everybody doing good, yeah I wish you well I hope you never have to go through this hell My head's in a cage, I'm locked in a cell I'm not talking shit I'm just talking, talking to myself I'm not depressed, no I'm just pissed That I ever could have let my life come to this People looking up while I keep looking down Middle finger to the sky with my head on the ground I want to take it back, take it back For everybody doing good, yeah I wish you well I hope you never have to go through this hell My head's in a cage, I'm locked in a cell I'm not talking shit I'm just talking, talking to myself Is there a cure for this disease? Can anybody help me? I'm down on my knees See all these happy people with their head held high I have everything I want, but I'm barely alive For everybody doing good, yeah I wish you well I hope you never have to go through this hell My head's in a cage, I'm locked in a cell I'm not talking shit I'm just talking, talking to myself I'm just talking, talking to myself I'm just talking, talking to myself Is there a cure for this disease? I'm tired of living my life on my knees For everybody doing good, yeah I wish you well I hope you never have to go through this hell Get me out of this cage Let me out of this cell Why does it feel like I'm just talking, talking to myself? I'm just talking, I'm just talking, talking to myself I'm just talking, talking to myself I'm just talking, talking to myself, yeah

متكتف مهموم موجوع وضعيف وشجاع مليان أحلام وعشان مربوط مكسور وبكسر في المآديف وتفوت أيام وتمر سنين وانا حالي غريب انا مين انا مين مشدود في الساقية وعايش مبسوط وحزين ومحبط وجرئ ورزين مشدود في الساقية وعايش مبسوط وحزين ومحبط وجرئ ورزين على غفلة اتحول بركان جبار انا ضلمة وليل أنا نار ونهار متكتف مهموم موجوع وضعيف وشجاع مليان أحلام وعشان مربوط مكسور وبكسر في المآديف ماشي على طريق مكتوب مرسوم بس انا مسؤول وعليا اللوم ماقدرش أقول من الذنب برئ لا انا ابليس ولا هبقى رسول ماقدرش أقول من الذنب برئ لا انا ابليس ولا هبقى رسول قدامي طريق همشيه همشيه نفهم في الآخر كل ده لية متكتف مهموم موجوع وضعيف وشجاع مليان أحلام وعشان مربوط مكسور وبكسر في المآديف

فوسط زحمة وناس كتير وطريق أنا ماشي فيه عكس السير وسط الطموح والأمل والتمني فاضلي خطوة توصلني فوسط حاجات ومكيفات بحاول أنسى كل اللي فات في وسط صدري ضلعي مكسور ومن خلاله قلبي شايف نور أنا كنت فاكر اني طاير وأتاريني على وشي بقع أنا كنت فاكر إني هوصل لكني بهرب من الوجع أنا كنت فاكر اني طاير وأتاريني على وشي بقع أنا كنت فاكر إني هوصل لكني بهرب من الوجع فوسط الليل وأنا بعيد عن البشر شفت نور يشبه نور القمر بس القمر مسيره يفارق ويسيبني تاني مع الوحدة أحارب فوسط قصة حب يعني وهمية كان لازم أصدق اصل الوحدة قوية مش كل المشاعر حقيقية أنا شفت نور معرفتش اغمض عنيا أنا كنت فاكر اني طاير وأتاريني على وشي بقع أنا كنت فاكر إني هوصل لكني بهرب من الوجع أنا كنت فاكر اني طاير وأتاريني على وشي بقع أنا كنت فاكر إني هوصل لكني بهرب من الوجع