lost myself at a diddy party - prod sxnic

I think I lost myself when I started going out Taking drugs just to numb my pain I think I lost myself when my mother look me in the eyes And told me that I'm "Not the same" I think I lost myself when everyone figured out I'm a screw-up and an addict Looking at the world like it's crazy There's no one to save me And there's only one reason that I'm mad I'm mad because I I know I should have asked for more than what I've gotten It's hard to bite the apple if you know the apple's rotten They feeding me unhealthy habits but I couldn't stop it They told me love is natural, but this is feeling forced Don't bite the hand that feeds you Well, unless of course Unless it's constantly feeding you stuff that you can't stomach I'm not the one to tell them that I always ran from it Confrontation makes me sick I feel like I'm gon' vomit I don't wanna be the person that just hides behind Every wall I throw up, while I die inside This knot in my stomach won't stop until it's tied my mind It's held me down for too long and now my breath is gone I hope I get a second chance but there's no death respawn I know I'm probably not the person that can love on you But I'm a walking consequence of what love can do And if they treating you like dirt, then they will shovel you Into your grave where you will die and then cover you And swear to God, and claim that they were loving you 'Cause when you're six feet down there no longer under you Having a higher person doesn't mean you're fireproof X got shot, all he did was inspire youth If I could do one thing, it'd be inspired you To look inside the mirror and stop lying To the only fucking person that would die for you I think I lost myself when I let myself fuck around and fell for the wrong one Ay I think I lost myself when my mental health started giving signs and I ignored them Ay I think I lost myself when I found all my friends doubting all the dreams that I had Looking at the world like it's crazy, there's no one to save me That ain't the only reason that I'm mad I'm mad because I Found myself trapped in the dark, sad in my heart Mad at God just to cap it all off Your words and eyes, they ain't matching at all But nowadays I smile, I'm just laughing it off It's a prison cell in the head all the time When you're going to hell just to get through life Just to make it through another night Another sibling tryna pick a fight Family's not normal, guess that it's alright I just learned to live with it and adapt to life (life) In fact, who am I kidding, can you pass the knife? Just so I can slice into the afterlife The only time I'm happy is when I grab the mic It's like they can't be happy, so they mad that I'm It's like they don't have passion, so they after mine (why?) Asking a bunch of questions but I answer mine I think I lost myself when I let myself fuck around and fell for the wrong one Ay I think I lost myself when my mental health started giving signs and I ignored them Ay I think I lost myself when everyone figured out I'm a screw-up and an addict Looking at the world like it's crazy, there's no one to save me It ain't the only one reason that I'm mad I'm mad because I

Don't know what I'm feeling, feeling right now Life's been kinda pretty, kinda down, down Heart full of emotions But I lost myself, myself to you I should've known it, your heart is so cold Three, four, five times, yeah, I couldn't let go I don't even know The person you are You tore me apart I lost it all on you Gave it all to you Broke me down again Lover to a friend Lost it all on you But it's a game I lose Again and again Again and again I lost it all on you Gave it all to you Broke me down again Lover to a friend Lost it all on you But it's a game I lose Again and again Again and again Got me up all night, my eyes bloodshot from your lies Love, love, love, baby, it's always a surprise Yes, yes, yes, come and take me for a ride Chasing all the highs (highs) I should've known it, your heart is so cold Three, four, five times yeah, I couldn't let go I don't even know The person you are You tore me apart I lost it all on you Gave it all to you Broke me down again Lover to a friend Lost it all on you But it's a game I lose Again and again Again and again I lost it all on you Gave it all to you Broke me down again Lover to a friend Lost it all on you But it's a game I lose Again and again Again and again I lost it all Ooh-ooh I lo...

Missing you like the tide rushing me The second I lost you, I was lost at the sea Yeah, the taste on my tongue, bitter-sweet The second I lost you, I was lost at the sea Alone in this island Got lost on the way Without you in my sight Feels like I'm so out of place (so out of place) A flashback and rewind Should feel like a crime But I can't keep myself from thinking of us time to time (of us time to time) Missing you like the tide rushing me The second I lost you, I was lost at the sea Yeah, the taste on my tongue, bittersweet (bittersweet) The second I lost you, I was lost at the sea So show me the way (illa, illa, illa, illa, illa) Away, away (illa, illa, illa, illa, illa) I'm drifting away (Iila, illa, illa, illa, illa) Away, away (illa, illa, illa, illa, illa) Yeah Castaway, you held me down, but now you left me hanging Clouding up my sight, you know the fog is never-ending Ain't the same without you on this road we used to grow in Ain't the same without you here to hold me when I'm lonely Can't seem to wipe it off my mind Run my sleeves over my eyes Where you going without me? Left me like a hurricane sinking inside me Missing you like the tide rushing me The second I lost you, I was lost at the sea Yeah, the taste on my tongue, bitter-sweet The second I lost you, I was lost at the sea So show me the way (illa, illa, illa, illa, illa) Away, away (illa, illa, illa, illa, illa) I'm drifting away (illa, illa, illa, illa, illa) Away, away (illa, illa, illa, illa, illa) Missing you is what I'm doing best right now Heavy-hearted, that's my home address right now Corners of my broken heart are razor sharp And lead me at this pointed edge, is only gonna hurt me now These scars ain't nothing new to me Goodbyes ain't nothing new to me Empty hearts, we fall apart I seen it all before, I'll see it all again So show me the way (illa, illa, illa, illa, illa) Away, away (illa, illa, illa, illa, illa) I'm drifting away (Iila, illa, illa, illa, illa) Away, away (illa, illa, illa, illa, illa) Stargazing by the rolling waves No more tears rolling down my face Just like sand, we drift away All this time we were bound to break Stargazing by the rolling waves No more tears rolling down my face Just like sand, we drift away All this time we were bound to break

I'll wait here, you're crazy Those vicious streets are filled with strays You should've never gone to Hollywood They find you, two time you Say you're the best they've ever seen You should've never trusted Hollywood I wrote you and told you You were the biggest fish out here You should've never gone to Hollywood They take you and make you They look at you in disgusting ways You should've never trusted Hollywood I was standing on the wall feeling ten feet tall All you maggots smoking fags on Santa Monica Boulevard This is my front page, this is my new age All you bitches put your hands in the air And wave them like you just don't care All you maggots smoking fags out there on Sunset Boulevard All you bitches put your hands in the air And wave 'em like you just don't care Phony people come to pray Look at all of them beg to stay Phony people come to pray (The lines in the letter said, "We have gone to Hackensack) Look at all of them beg to stay Phony people come to pray All you maggots smoking fags on Santa Monica Boulevard All you maggots smoking fags out there on Sunset Boulevard All you maggots smoking fags out there on Hollywood Boulevard You should have never trusted Hollywood You should have never gone to Hollywood All you bitches put your hands in the air And wave 'em like you just don't care You should've never trusted Hollywood

Oye, na, na, na, na Oye, na, na, na, na (AoD) Midas touch, I got the rightest She wanna see me write this I got the rightest (AJ) Said she wanna party with a jagaban (jagaban) Because she never met nobody badder than baby Brown and bad just like a jagaban (jagaban) I ain't never seen nobody badder than I say, "Baby, do you wanna be a jagaban?" (Jagaban) "Are you sure you can party with a jagaban?" (Jagaban) Said she wanna party with a jagaban (jagaban) Because she never met nobody badder than (jagaban) Long, long time Baby, you been on my mind Long, long time Baby, I been on my grind No 419, baby, you been on my mind No 419, baby, I been on my grind (I'm a jagaban) Classy, bougie, riffraff Only fuck with good vibes Hennessy with no chaser Only thing I chase is paper (I'm a jagaban) Classy, bougie, riffraff Only fuck with good vibes Hennessy with no chaser Only thing I chase is paper Only thing I chase is paper Only thing I chase is paper Only thing I chase is paper Because I am a jagaban-ban-ban, a jagaban The only thing I chase is paper, paper Na, na, na, na, na Said she wanna party with a jagaban (jagaban) Because she never met nobody badder than baby Brown and bad just like a jagaban (jagaban) I ain't never seen nobody badder than I say, "Baby, do you wanna be a jagaban?" (Jagaban) "Are you sure you can party with a jagaban?" (Jagaban) Said she wanna party with a jagaban (jagaban) Because she never met nobody badder than (jagaban) Long, long time Baby, you been on my mind Long, long time Baby, I been on my grind No 419, baby, you been on my mind No 419, baby, I been on- Where you dey? Where you was? When I was on my lonely? Nobody show me love When I was on my lonely Now I'm making bags She wanna feel the boy That's a lot of money And she like the money I am Midas I'm a jagaban And she know that Nobody badder than Oye na, na, na, na, na Oye na, na, na, na, na Oye na, na, na, na, na Classy, bougie, riffraff Only fuck with good vibes Hennessy with no chaser Only thing I chase is paper Only thing I chase is paper Only thing I chase is paper Only thing I chase is paper Because I am a jagaban-ban-ban, a jagaban The only thing I chase is paper, paper Na, na, na, na, na Said she wanna party with a jagaban Because she never met nobody badder than baby Brown and bad just like a jagaban I ain't never seen nobody badder than I say, "Baby do you wanna be a jagaban?" Are you sure you can party with a jagaban? Said she wanna party with a jagaban Because she never met nobody badder than I'm a jagaban Classy, bougie, riffraff Only fuck with good vibes Hennessy with no chaser Only thing I chase is paper (Baby, do you wanna be a jagaban?) (Oye, na, na, na, na, na)

Some people like to rock Some people like to roll But movin' and grooving's gonna satisfy my soul Let's have a party, whoo Let's have a party Send him to the store And buy some more Let's have a party tonight I never kissed a bear I never kissed a goon But I can shake a chicken in the middle of the room Let's have a party, hoo Let's have a party Who will send him to the store Let's buy some more Let's have a party tonight I never kissed a bear I never kissed a goon But I can shake a chicken in the middle of the room Let's have a party, hoo Let's have a party Who will send him to the store Let's buy some more Let's have a party tonight Honky Tonky Joe is knockin' at the door Bring him in, fill him up And set him on the floor Let's have a party, hoo Let's have a party Then we'll send him to the store Let's buy some more Let's have a party tonight The meat is on the stove The bread's a-gettin' hot Everybody run, he got the possum in the pot Let's have a party, hoo Let's have a party Who will send him to the store Let's buy some more Let's have a party tonight Let's have a party tonight Let's have a party tonight We're gon' have a party tonight Let's have a party tonight

متكتف مهموم موجوع وضعيف وشجاع مليان أحلام وعشان مربوط مكسور وبكسر في المآديف وتفوت أيام وتمر سنين وانا حالي غريب انا مين انا مين مشدود في الساقية وعايش مبسوط وحزين ومحبط وجرئ ورزين مشدود في الساقية وعايش مبسوط وحزين ومحبط وجرئ ورزين على غفلة اتحول بركان جبار انا ضلمة وليل أنا نار ونهار متكتف مهموم موجوع وضعيف وشجاع مليان أحلام وعشان مربوط مكسور وبكسر في المآديف ماشي على طريق مكتوب مرسوم بس انا مسؤول وعليا اللوم ماقدرش أقول من الذنب برئ لا انا ابليس ولا هبقى رسول ماقدرش أقول من الذنب برئ لا انا ابليس ولا هبقى رسول قدامي طريق همشيه همشيه نفهم في الآخر كل ده لية متكتف مهموم موجوع وضعيف وشجاع مليان أحلام وعشان مربوط مكسور وبكسر في المآديف

فوسط زحمة وناس كتير وطريق أنا ماشي فيه عكس السير وسط الطموح والأمل والتمني فاضلي خطوة توصلني فوسط حاجات ومكيفات بحاول أنسى كل اللي فات في وسط صدري ضلعي مكسور ومن خلاله قلبي شايف نور أنا كنت فاكر اني طاير وأتاريني على وشي بقع أنا كنت فاكر إني هوصل لكني بهرب من الوجع أنا كنت فاكر اني طاير وأتاريني على وشي بقع أنا كنت فاكر إني هوصل لكني بهرب من الوجع فوسط الليل وأنا بعيد عن البشر شفت نور يشبه نور القمر بس القمر مسيره يفارق ويسيبني تاني مع الوحدة أحارب فوسط قصة حب يعني وهمية كان لازم أصدق اصل الوحدة قوية مش كل المشاعر حقيقية أنا شفت نور معرفتش اغمض عنيا أنا كنت فاكر اني طاير وأتاريني على وشي بقع أنا كنت فاكر إني هوصل لكني بهرب من الوجع أنا كنت فاكر اني طاير وأتاريني على وشي بقع أنا كنت فاكر إني هوصل لكني بهرب من الوجع