House Of Self-Undoing - Chelsea Wolfe

Just because I (love you), yeah, yeah Yeah, yeah, (Just because I love you), yeah Peel in my second whip Stealing, putting second hand kills in my residence Healed all my brethren with a seal, we can't let you in Medicine I put the effort in to still burn at effigy Odorous, I'm sober, just as lil as they letting me Mama, wipe your tears, I'm fighting titans, can't invite you here Poetic license veering from the mic, my chest too tight to steer Chess lessons, bloodletting, flood when the night is clear I ain't give a fuck 'til my lungs had to fight for air Glaring, staring numb, therapist had a life to spare Snatched me by the eye said I'ma fight whether I like or not And she told me reasons why, but that's the private part Burnt the midnight lighter Killed the drive in me to tie the knot My game slop but if I name-dropped you, you still got my heart Driving off Squeezing off the E-brake these days I can't talk to god just for my knees sake Long conversations to be had Wrong places wrong times and Strong patience I must add Soul weighted don't mistake expatiations for some sadness A strong face, a long race I'm unafraid to come in last Quarter tank and ounce of gas and I'm driving And it's just because I (love you) Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah Look, I'm back at it glad bags and flat backs a pack rat A crass habit crash flashing scratch that im past rapping I'ma show off In a scar competition Flaunting close calls when you cook you can't regress back to the store bought I hope you keepin' me in mind I hope you shakin' I hope you still analyzin' hard as I made you As hard as I make it love that I'm armed with broad and it's brazen Arguing with mom cause I'm always gone when i stay here She said it's just because I love you That I see you out here poisoning yourself and want it for you And I love you better than i love myself my fruit is spoiled And it's not a game I put it in your name I kinda told you And I nodded and I took it to the bank and I deposit And I dropped it and I looked into the mirror said "oh Mavi" You coarser and you closer the rhythm that's inside And I warped you in the interest of design It's just because i love you Aye, aye, aye, aye, aye Clasp the windows to my soul Smoke thicken grab my mental by the throat Mind sifting tides shift it's still cement around my toes Saran wrap around my pack i can't trust get hand to hand served w a hand behind my back They prayed for us, ain't heard the answer but my glance is in the stash It's growing handsome by the stack i self aggrandized in the past but now the sun talking Not sure of where i'm going but i'm blunt walking In life or in this hood so keep a look for 911 callers I fund loss 'cause i'm from loss You gut me then it's no love lost You spun me into crumbles fingers numbing from the bloodloss I've endured The moral of my story is I'm impure The horror in my story is I've been through it and i still do it And my pencil is in earnest the difference tween u hearing the new records from my service The medicine I'm burning turned my breath into a furnace Whole face hot Shoulders hold weight till i break pace and can't stop So baby i could change your life, if you let me Tryna eat ain't really crave a bite since gained insight from desi So i stay inside away from light Hoping that your prayers reach Loathing that i can't breathe Croaking when i can't speak Was open with my grandscheme You was either with me or in my way plow through standees We sprouting now we plant seeds You plant love love will grow You plant fear fear a grow If you planted me then me would grow But i was branded negro I got slanted before relegated to preshow I started with wine then to the clear then to the nino Then to everclear and never steering without prerolls And I just had the presets to preceptor me bro I bleed presence And preach lessons All for free too And I offer free smoke to any nigga behind a #MeToo 'Cause tell my niggas: we ain't free until she free too Tell my niggas: we ain't free until she free too Tell my niggas: we ain't free until she free too And tell my sisters: we ain't free until they free too Tell my niggas: we ain't free until she free too Today free too, to... we... too

I tell you to leave when I want you to stay I'm stuck in my ways, I can't win my own game If it's meant to be, then I'll throw it away, oh-oh-oh Hurt you for no reason, I won't call you back Then I break you into pieces so I don't get attached Get so caught up in my feelings, float until we crash And we're runnin' out of gas, I was hopin' we could last, but I start to fall, then I cave, and I push you away You could call it self-sabotage I love to dig my own grave, somethin' wrong with my brain You could call it self-sabotage It's a self-fulfillin' prophecy I know I'm gonna —k it up with you and me — Never goin' my way, now I'm drownin' in blame You could call it self-sabotage I'm hard to love, this girl is a gun I'm killin' 'em softly, one by one So, fill up your lungs, yeah, you better run, oh-oh-oh Hurt you for no reason, I won't call you back Then I break you into pieces so I don't get attached So, caught up in my feelings, float until we crash And we're runnin' out of gas, I was hopin' we could last, but I start to fall, then I cave, and I push you away You could call it self-sabotage I love to dig my own grave, somethin' wrong with my brain You could call it self-sabotage It's a self-fulfillin' prophecy I know I'm gonna —k it up with you and me — Never goin' my way, now I'm drownin' in blame You could call it self-sabotage Hurt you for no reason, I won't call you back Then I break you into pieces so I don't get attached Get so caught up in my feelings, float until we crash And we're runnin' out of gas, I was hopin' we could last, but I start to fall, then I cave, and I push you away You could call it self-sabotage I love to dig my own grave, somethin' wrong with my brain You could call it self-sabotage It's a self-fulfillin' prophecy I know I'm gonna —k it up with you and me — Never goin' my way, now I'm drownin' in blame You could call it self-sabotage

"You're so pretty" I say that to a random girl in the bathroom I forgive my stupid exes like I have to Text my friends just to say, "I'm checkin' on you" What it must be like to be On the other side of me Always smilin' nice and sweet Deep down in reality I hate the way "self-love" sounds I hate that I need some right now I hate this dumb self-love song 'Cause I'm the only one, I don't let my Self-love, self-love I was supposed to write out ten things I like about me I only got to three, what does that say about therapy? I posted a caption sayin', "Treat yourself nice" For the life of me, I can't seem to take my own advice So, it must be like to be Thrivin' in high self-esteem Confidence is so mainstream Maybe it's just not for me I hate the way "self-love" sounds I hate that I need some right now I hate this dumb self-love song (self-love song) 'Cause I'm the only one, I don't let my Self-love, self-love Self-love La-da-da Self-love What it must be like to be Anybody else but me I hate the way "self-love" sounds I hate that I need some right now I hate this dumb self-love song (self-love song) 'Cause I'm the only one, I don't let my Self-love It's so dumb Self-love I'm the only one, I don't let my Self-love Self-love

Got something to say, yeah I know it's easy to love me Thought it was better this way Oh trust me baby it's hard Tried to give it up, I've tried to baby, it's tough I guess it's my fault, I know what's up Baby we used to fuck From now on we make love Girl let's catch up, phone calls ain't enough That's where I messed up, I should've kept in touch Cause I ain't the type that will hit it and quit it Even if it's mine, even if it isn't Take them trips and pay yo' ass a visit Gave you a portion but you needed more, needed more Now you won't even call me no more Ain't laying naked in my sheets no more I guess you ain't a freak no more Sex more, that's what I was on Talk less, that's what I was on Selfish, baby I know, I know Quick to admit it when I'm wrong Instead I was leading you on Now it's fuck me and leave you alone Come love me, I need you at home It's somethin' about the way you scream and you moan Now I'm the one who's been treating you wrong Contradicting all the things I've been preaching in songs, oh Shit was going good girl Now it's looking bad girl Can we take it back girl? You gave me a task girl Go clean up my act girl Done that, where you at girl? Would you mind, would you mind Would you mind if I? Come do the things that you like What you like, what you like I know what you like Who else gon' get you right but me Who else gon' get you right Don't know when I'm finna wife it I still ain't decided Better make up my mind quick 'Fore a nigga come and swipe it Know I sound a lil' self righteous Yeah, but there ain't nothin' else like it Anything else bad for your health I've been checking you profile to see if you recited this I got a lot more where that came from You got a Tumblr too, I gotta make one I've been peepin' hard, on some stalking shit I'm feening hard, that's the obvious, yeah But you know I won't mind if we were just fuckin' Feelin' on somethin', talking 'bout nothin' Then maybe later you and I discuss it Do you feel like I do, can I know? Clearly baby It's you that I want Listen, I don't wanna confuse you Don't ever think that I use you Give me one more chance, I'll prove you wrong How you want it to go, we can do this slow Pick up where we left off, I don't wanna lose it, no This for life, baby, you should know, you should know Baby I know Shit was going good girl Now it's looking bad girl Can we take it back girl? You gave me a task girl Go clean up my act girl Done that, where you at girl? Would you mind?

(Ugh!) Yeah Yeah Tell me what you want me to be What you want me to be What you want me to be (Ooh) I am tight (Yeah) Fuckin' right (Uh) Tell me what you want me to be What you want me to be What you want me to be (Ooh) I could be the one turned on All you niggas in the back Come and jack me off Yes, so, I could be the one that you want That you want I could be the one that you want So what the fuck, you Get down (Ugh) (Yeah, ooh) I am tight (Yeah) Fuckin' right (Ugh) Tell me what you want me to be What you want me to be What you want me to be (Ooh) Now, I could be the one in time I'm the one who isn't really there I am the light Dischord and rhyme I am the one who isn't anywhere I am tight (Yeah) Fuckin' right (Ugh) Tell me what you want me to be What you want me to be What you want me to be (Ooh) I could be the one turned on All you niggas in the back Come and jack me off Yes, so, I could be the one that you want That you want I could be the one that you want So what the fuck, you Get down Get down

متكتف مهموم موجوع وضعيف وشجاع مليان أحلام وعشان مربوط مكسور وبكسر في المآديف وتفوت أيام وتمر سنين وانا حالي غريب انا مين انا مين مشدود في الساقية وعايش مبسوط وحزين ومحبط وجرئ ورزين مشدود في الساقية وعايش مبسوط وحزين ومحبط وجرئ ورزين على غفلة اتحول بركان جبار انا ضلمة وليل أنا نار ونهار متكتف مهموم موجوع وضعيف وشجاع مليان أحلام وعشان مربوط مكسور وبكسر في المآديف ماشي على طريق مكتوب مرسوم بس انا مسؤول وعليا اللوم ماقدرش أقول من الذنب برئ لا انا ابليس ولا هبقى رسول ماقدرش أقول من الذنب برئ لا انا ابليس ولا هبقى رسول قدامي طريق همشيه همشيه نفهم في الآخر كل ده لية متكتف مهموم موجوع وضعيف وشجاع مليان أحلام وعشان مربوط مكسور وبكسر في المآديف

فوسط زحمة وناس كتير وطريق أنا ماشي فيه عكس السير وسط الطموح والأمل والتمني فاضلي خطوة توصلني فوسط حاجات ومكيفات بحاول أنسى كل اللي فات في وسط صدري ضلعي مكسور ومن خلاله قلبي شايف نور أنا كنت فاكر اني طاير وأتاريني على وشي بقع أنا كنت فاكر إني هوصل لكني بهرب من الوجع أنا كنت فاكر اني طاير وأتاريني على وشي بقع أنا كنت فاكر إني هوصل لكني بهرب من الوجع فوسط الليل وأنا بعيد عن البشر شفت نور يشبه نور القمر بس القمر مسيره يفارق ويسيبني تاني مع الوحدة أحارب فوسط قصة حب يعني وهمية كان لازم أصدق اصل الوحدة قوية مش كل المشاعر حقيقية أنا شفت نور معرفتش اغمض عنيا أنا كنت فاكر اني طاير وأتاريني على وشي بقع أنا كنت فاكر إني هوصل لكني بهرب من الوجع أنا كنت فاكر اني طاير وأتاريني على وشي بقع أنا كنت فاكر إني هوصل لكني بهرب من الوجع