Self Love - Avery Anna

Just because I (love you), yeah, yeah Yeah, yeah, (Just because I love you), yeah Peel in my second whip Stealing, putting second hand kills in my residence Healed all my brethren with a seal, we can't let you in Medicine I put the effort in to still burn at effigy Odorous, I'm sober, just as lil as they letting me Mama, wipe your tears, I'm fighting titans, can't invite you here Poetic license veering from the mic, my chest too tight to steer Chess lessons, bloodletting, flood when the night is clear I ain't give a fuck 'til my lungs had to fight for air Glaring, staring numb, therapist had a life to spare Snatched me by the eye said I'ma fight whether I like or not And she told me reasons why, but that's the private part Burnt the midnight lighter Killed the drive in me to tie the knot My game slop but if I name-dropped you, you still got my heart Driving off Squeezing off the E-brake these days I can't talk to god just for my knees sake Long conversations to be had Wrong places wrong times and Strong patience I must add Soul weighted don't mistake expatiations for some sadness A strong face, a long race I'm unafraid to come in last Quarter tank and ounce of gas and I'm driving And it's just because I (love you) Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah Look, I'm back at it glad bags and flat backs a pack rat A crass habit crash flashing scratch that im past rapping I'ma show off In a scar competition Flaunting close calls when you cook you can't regress back to the store bought I hope you keepin' me in mind I hope you shakin' I hope you still analyzin' hard as I made you As hard as I make it love that I'm armed with broad and it's brazen Arguing with mom cause I'm always gone when i stay here She said it's just because I love you That I see you out here poisoning yourself and want it for you And I love you better than i love myself my fruit is spoiled And it's not a game I put it in your name I kinda told you And I nodded and I took it to the bank and I deposit And I dropped it and I looked into the mirror said "oh Mavi" You coarser and you closer the rhythm that's inside And I warped you in the interest of design It's just because i love you Aye, aye, aye, aye, aye Clasp the windows to my soul Smoke thicken grab my mental by the throat Mind sifting tides shift it's still cement around my toes Saran wrap around my pack i can't trust get hand to hand served w a hand behind my back They prayed for us, ain't heard the answer but my glance is in the stash It's growing handsome by the stack i self aggrandized in the past but now the sun talking Not sure of where i'm going but i'm blunt walking In life or in this hood so keep a look for 911 callers I fund loss 'cause i'm from loss You gut me then it's no love lost You spun me into crumbles fingers numbing from the bloodloss I've endured The moral of my story is I'm impure The horror in my story is I've been through it and i still do it And my pencil is in earnest the difference tween u hearing the new records from my service The medicine I'm burning turned my breath into a furnace Whole face hot Shoulders hold weight till i break pace and can't stop So baby i could change your life, if you let me Tryna eat ain't really crave a bite since gained insight from desi So i stay inside away from light Hoping that your prayers reach Loathing that i can't breathe Croaking when i can't speak Was open with my grandscheme You was either with me or in my way plow through standees We sprouting now we plant seeds You plant love love will grow You plant fear fear a grow If you planted me then me would grow But i was branded negro I got slanted before relegated to preshow I started with wine then to the clear then to the nino Then to everclear and never steering without prerolls And I just had the presets to preceptor me bro I bleed presence And preach lessons All for free too And I offer free smoke to any nigga behind a #MeToo 'Cause tell my niggas: we ain't free until she free too Tell my niggas: we ain't free until she free too Tell my niggas: we ain't free until she free too And tell my sisters: we ain't free until they free too Tell my niggas: we ain't free until she free too Today free too, to... we... too

I tell you to leave when I want you to stay I'm stuck in my ways, I can't win my own game If it's meant to be, then I'll throw it away, oh-oh-oh Hurt you for no reason, I won't call you back Then I break you into pieces so I don't get attached Get so caught up in my feelings, float until we crash And we're runnin' out of gas, I was hopin' we could last, but I start to fall, then I cave, and I push you away You could call it self-sabotage I love to dig my own grave, somethin' wrong with my brain You could call it self-sabotage It's a self-fulfillin' prophecy I know I'm gonna —k it up with you and me — Never goin' my way, now I'm drownin' in blame You could call it self-sabotage I'm hard to love, this girl is a gun I'm killin' 'em softly, one by one So, fill up your lungs, yeah, you better run, oh-oh-oh Hurt you for no reason, I won't call you back Then I break you into pieces so I don't get attached So, caught up in my feelings, float until we crash And we're runnin' out of gas, I was hopin' we could last, but I start to fall, then I cave, and I push you away You could call it self-sabotage I love to dig my own grave, somethin' wrong with my brain You could call it self-sabotage It's a self-fulfillin' prophecy I know I'm gonna —k it up with you and me — Never goin' my way, now I'm drownin' in blame You could call it self-sabotage Hurt you for no reason, I won't call you back Then I break you into pieces so I don't get attached Get so caught up in my feelings, float until we crash And we're runnin' out of gas, I was hopin' we could last, but I start to fall, then I cave, and I push you away You could call it self-sabotage I love to dig my own grave, somethin' wrong with my brain You could call it self-sabotage It's a self-fulfillin' prophecy I know I'm gonna —k it up with you and me — Never goin' my way, now I'm drownin' in blame You could call it self-sabotage

متكتف مهموم موجوع وضعيف وشجاع مليان أحلام وعشان مربوط مكسور وبكسر في المآديف وتفوت أيام وتمر سنين وانا حالي غريب انا مين انا مين مشدود في الساقية وعايش مبسوط وحزين ومحبط وجرئ ورزين مشدود في الساقية وعايش مبسوط وحزين ومحبط وجرئ ورزين على غفلة اتحول بركان جبار انا ضلمة وليل أنا نار ونهار متكتف مهموم موجوع وضعيف وشجاع مليان أحلام وعشان مربوط مكسور وبكسر في المآديف ماشي على طريق مكتوب مرسوم بس انا مسؤول وعليا اللوم ماقدرش أقول من الذنب برئ لا انا ابليس ولا هبقى رسول ماقدرش أقول من الذنب برئ لا انا ابليس ولا هبقى رسول قدامي طريق همشيه همشيه نفهم في الآخر كل ده لية متكتف مهموم موجوع وضعيف وشجاع مليان أحلام وعشان مربوط مكسور وبكسر في المآديف

فوسط زحمة وناس كتير وطريق أنا ماشي فيه عكس السير وسط الطموح والأمل والتمني فاضلي خطوة توصلني فوسط حاجات ومكيفات بحاول أنسى كل اللي فات في وسط صدري ضلعي مكسور ومن خلاله قلبي شايف نور أنا كنت فاكر اني طاير وأتاريني على وشي بقع أنا كنت فاكر إني هوصل لكني بهرب من الوجع أنا كنت فاكر اني طاير وأتاريني على وشي بقع أنا كنت فاكر إني هوصل لكني بهرب من الوجع فوسط الليل وأنا بعيد عن البشر شفت نور يشبه نور القمر بس القمر مسيره يفارق ويسيبني تاني مع الوحدة أحارب فوسط قصة حب يعني وهمية كان لازم أصدق اصل الوحدة قوية مش كل المشاعر حقيقية أنا شفت نور معرفتش اغمض عنيا أنا كنت فاكر اني طاير وأتاريني على وشي بقع أنا كنت فاكر إني هوصل لكني بهرب من الوجع أنا كنت فاكر اني طاير وأتاريني على وشي بقع أنا كنت فاكر إني هوصل لكني بهرب من الوجع

You got a fast car I want a ticket to anywhere Maybe we make a deal Maybe together we can get somewhere Any place is better Startin' from zero, got nothing to lose Maybe we'll make something Me, myself, I got nothing to prove You got a fast car I got a plan to get us out of here I been working at the convenience store Managed to save just a little bit of money Won't have to drive too far Just across the border and into the city You and I can both get jobs Finally see what it means to be living See, my old man's got a problem He lives with the bottle, that's the way it is He says his body's too old for working His body's too young to look like his Mama went off and left him She wanted more from life than he could give I said, "somebody's got to take care of him" So I quit school and that's what I did You got a fast car Is it fast enough so we can fly away? Still gotta make a decision Leave tonight, or live and die this way So, I remember when we were driving, driving in your car Speed so fast, I felt like I was drunk City lights lay out before us And your arm felt nice wrapped 'round my shoulder And I, I, had a feeling that I belonged I, I, had a feeling I could be someone, be someone, be someone You got a fast car We go cruisin', entertain ourselves You still ain't got a job So I work in a market as a checkout girl I know things will get better You'll find work and I'll get promoted We'll move out of the shelter Buy a bigger house, live in the suburbs So, I remember when we were driving, driving in your car Speed so fast, I felt like I was drunk City lights lay out before us And your arm felt nice wrapped 'round my shoulder And I, I, had a feeling that I belonged I, I, had a feeling I could be someone, be someone, be someone You got a fast car I got a job that pays all our bills You stay out drinking late at the bar See more of your friends than you do of your kids I'd always hoped for better Thought maybe together you and me would find it I got no plans, I ain't going nowhere So take your fast car and keep on driving So, I remember when we were driving, driving in your car Speed so fast, I felt like I was drunk City lights lay out before us And your arm felt nice wrapped 'round my shoulder And I, I, had a feeling that I belonged I, I, had a feeling I could be someone, be someone, be someone You got a fast car Is it fast enough so you can fly away? You still gotta make a decision Leave tonight, or live and die this way