Self Control - Laura Branigan

Just because I (love you), yeah, yeah Yeah, yeah, (Just because I love you), yeah Peel in my second whip Stealing, putting second hand kills in my residence Healed all my brethren with a seal, we can't let you in Medicine I put the effort in to still burn at effigy Odorous, I'm sober, just as lil as they letting me Mama, wipe your tears, I'm fighting titans, can't invite you here Poetic license veering from the mic, my chest too tight to steer Chess lessons, bloodletting, flood when the night is clear I ain't give a fuck 'til my lungs had to fight for air Glaring, staring numb, therapist had a life to spare Snatched me by the eye said I'ma fight whether I like or not And she told me reasons why, but that's the private part Burnt the midnight lighter Killed the drive in me to tie the knot My game slop but if I name-dropped you, you still got my heart Driving off Squeezing off the E-brake these days I can't talk to god just for my knees sake Long conversations to be had Wrong places wrong times and Strong patience I must add Soul weighted don't mistake expatiations for some sadness A strong face, a long race I'm unafraid to come in last Quarter tank and ounce of gas and I'm driving And it's just because I (love you) Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah Look, I'm back at it glad bags and flat backs a pack rat A crass habit crash flashing scratch that im past rapping I'ma show off In a scar competition Flaunting close calls when you cook you can't regress back to the store bought I hope you keepin' me in mind I hope you shakin' I hope you still analyzin' hard as I made you As hard as I make it love that I'm armed with broad and it's brazen Arguing with mom cause I'm always gone when i stay here She said it's just because I love you That I see you out here poisoning yourself and want it for you And I love you better than i love myself my fruit is spoiled And it's not a game I put it in your name I kinda told you And I nodded and I took it to the bank and I deposit And I dropped it and I looked into the mirror said "oh Mavi" You coarser and you closer the rhythm that's inside And I warped you in the interest of design It's just because i love you Aye, aye, aye, aye, aye Clasp the windows to my soul Smoke thicken grab my mental by the throat Mind sifting tides shift it's still cement around my toes Saran wrap around my pack i can't trust get hand to hand served w a hand behind my back They prayed for us, ain't heard the answer but my glance is in the stash It's growing handsome by the stack i self aggrandized in the past but now the sun talking Not sure of where i'm going but i'm blunt walking In life or in this hood so keep a look for 911 callers I fund loss 'cause i'm from loss You gut me then it's no love lost You spun me into crumbles fingers numbing from the bloodloss I've endured The moral of my story is I'm impure The horror in my story is I've been through it and i still do it And my pencil is in earnest the difference tween u hearing the new records from my service The medicine I'm burning turned my breath into a furnace Whole face hot Shoulders hold weight till i break pace and can't stop So baby i could change your life, if you let me Tryna eat ain't really crave a bite since gained insight from desi So i stay inside away from light Hoping that your prayers reach Loathing that i can't breathe Croaking when i can't speak Was open with my grandscheme You was either with me or in my way plow through standees We sprouting now we plant seeds You plant love love will grow You plant fear fear a grow If you planted me then me would grow But i was branded negro I got slanted before relegated to preshow I started with wine then to the clear then to the nino Then to everclear and never steering without prerolls And I just had the presets to preceptor me bro I bleed presence And preach lessons All for free too And I offer free smoke to any nigga behind a #MeToo 'Cause tell my niggas: we ain't free until she free too Tell my niggas: we ain't free until she free too Tell my niggas: we ain't free until she free too And tell my sisters: we ain't free until they free too Tell my niggas: we ain't free until she free too Today free too, to... we... too

They send me away to find them a fortune A chest filled with diamonds and gold The house was awake With shadows and monsters The hallways, they echoed and groaned I sat alone, in bed 'til the morning And crying, "They're coming for me" And I tried to hold these secrets inside me My mind's like a deadly disease I'm bigger than my body I'm colder than this home I'm meaner than my demons I'm bigger than these bones And all the kids cried out "Please, stop, you're scaring me" I can't help this awful energy Goddamn right, you should be scared of me Who is in control? I paced around for hours on empty I jumped at the slightest of sounds And I couldn't stand the person inside me I turned all the mirrors around I'm bigger than my body I'm colder than this home I'm meaner than my demons I'm bigger than these bones And all the kids cried out "Please, stop, you're scaring me" I can't help this awful energy Goddamn right, you should be scared of me Who is in control? I'm well acquainted With villains that live in my bed They beg me to write them So they'll never die when I'm dead And I've grown familiar With villains that live in my head They beg me to write them So I'll never die when I'm dead I'm bigger than my body I'm colder than this home I'm meaner than my demons I'm bigger than these bones And all the kids cried out "Please, stop, you're scaring me" I can't help this awful energy Goddamn right, you should be scared of me Who is in control? And all the kids cried out "Please, stop, you're scaring me" I can't help this awful energy Goddamn right, you should be scared of me Who is in control?

Oh, the night is casting shadows as I follow you along Down rivers into open fields, you're running on and on Sometimes you'll turn around then to see me fallen far behind I'm trying to keep up with you, but I feel you're running blind You must leave Everything That you can't control That you can't control Can you leave Everything That you cannot control? Can you let it go? Can you feel how they are coming into your head, into your home? Performing all their tricks on you, they won't leave you alone And I see how you are falling for them and all their lies While you believe in magic now, I still believe my eyes You must leave Everything That you can't control That you can't control Can you leave Everything That you cannot control? Can you let it go? Can you let it go? Can you let it go? Can you let it go? Can you let it go? Can you leave Everything That you cannot control? Can you let it go?

I tell you to leave when I want you to stay I'm stuck in my ways, I can't win my own game If it's meant to be, then I'll throw it away, oh-oh-oh Hurt you for no reason, I won't call you back Then I break you into pieces so I don't get attached Get so caught up in my feelings, float until we crash And we're runnin' out of gas, I was hopin' we could last, but I start to fall, then I cave, and I push you away You could call it self-sabotage I love to dig my own grave, somethin' wrong with my brain You could call it self-sabotage It's a self-fulfillin' prophecy I know I'm gonna —k it up with you and me — Never goin' my way, now I'm drownin' in blame You could call it self-sabotage I'm hard to love, this girl is a gun I'm killin' 'em softly, one by one So, fill up your lungs, yeah, you better run, oh-oh-oh Hurt you for no reason, I won't call you back Then I break you into pieces so I don't get attached So, caught up in my feelings, float until we crash And we're runnin' out of gas, I was hopin' we could last, but I start to fall, then I cave, and I push you away You could call it self-sabotage I love to dig my own grave, somethin' wrong with my brain You could call it self-sabotage It's a self-fulfillin' prophecy I know I'm gonna —k it up with you and me — Never goin' my way, now I'm drownin' in blame You could call it self-sabotage Hurt you for no reason, I won't call you back Then I break you into pieces so I don't get attached Get so caught up in my feelings, float until we crash And we're runnin' out of gas, I was hopin' we could last, but I start to fall, then I cave, and I push you away You could call it self-sabotage I love to dig my own grave, somethin' wrong with my brain You could call it self-sabotage It's a self-fulfillin' prophecy I know I'm gonna —k it up with you and me — Never goin' my way, now I'm drownin' in blame You could call it self-sabotage

متكتف مهموم موجوع وضعيف وشجاع مليان أحلام وعشان مربوط مكسور وبكسر في المآديف وتفوت أيام وتمر سنين وانا حالي غريب انا مين انا مين مشدود في الساقية وعايش مبسوط وحزين ومحبط وجرئ ورزين مشدود في الساقية وعايش مبسوط وحزين ومحبط وجرئ ورزين على غفلة اتحول بركان جبار انا ضلمة وليل أنا نار ونهار متكتف مهموم موجوع وضعيف وشجاع مليان أحلام وعشان مربوط مكسور وبكسر في المآديف ماشي على طريق مكتوب مرسوم بس انا مسؤول وعليا اللوم ماقدرش أقول من الذنب برئ لا انا ابليس ولا هبقى رسول ماقدرش أقول من الذنب برئ لا انا ابليس ولا هبقى رسول قدامي طريق همشيه همشيه نفهم في الآخر كل ده لية متكتف مهموم موجوع وضعيف وشجاع مليان أحلام وعشان مربوط مكسور وبكسر في المآديف

فوسط زحمة وناس كتير وطريق أنا ماشي فيه عكس السير وسط الطموح والأمل والتمني فاضلي خطوة توصلني فوسط حاجات ومكيفات بحاول أنسى كل اللي فات في وسط صدري ضلعي مكسور ومن خلاله قلبي شايف نور أنا كنت فاكر اني طاير وأتاريني على وشي بقع أنا كنت فاكر إني هوصل لكني بهرب من الوجع أنا كنت فاكر اني طاير وأتاريني على وشي بقع أنا كنت فاكر إني هوصل لكني بهرب من الوجع فوسط الليل وأنا بعيد عن البشر شفت نور يشبه نور القمر بس القمر مسيره يفارق ويسيبني تاني مع الوحدة أحارب فوسط قصة حب يعني وهمية كان لازم أصدق اصل الوحدة قوية مش كل المشاعر حقيقية أنا شفت نور معرفتش اغمض عنيا أنا كنت فاكر اني طاير وأتاريني على وشي بقع أنا كنت فاكر إني هوصل لكني بهرب من الوجع أنا كنت فاكر اني طاير وأتاريني على وشي بقع أنا كنت فاكر إني هوصل لكني بهرب من الوجع

Our love will never be another You're just a devil undercover Found you when you were in the gutter It was sweet until I was a sucker, shout out Jonas Brothers I learned more than I cared to discover Don't you know that I'm more than a come up? You act up and then act like it's nothin' Sold your soul, you stone cold, you a stunner Every time you left it was never right In another bed every single night Had it to a science, you were so precise See it in your eyes, saw you in the light Somehow, mami, I still want you Listen to me, don't drive away Kill me softly, your hold on me is Somethin' I can't explain I know you could never be my - It could never be like this I know, stop thinkin' you're in my plans Hunnid times you blew another chance I know you were gettin' down on the low Then runnin' back to me in the morning I know it could never be like this You could never be my - No, no Our love will never be another You're just a devil undercover Found you when you were in the gutter It was sweet until I was a sucker Rather be single for life Than be - with you I ain't rollin' the dice, no I ain't playin' to lose (no) Every time you left it was never right In another bed every single night Had it to a science, you were so precise See it in your eyes, saw you in the light Somehow, mami, I still want you Listen to me, don't drive away Kill me softly, your hold on me is Somethin' I can't explain I know you could never be my - It could never be like this I know, stop thinkin' you're in my plans Hunnid times you blew another chance I know you were gettin' down on the low Then runnin' back to me in the morning I know it could never be like this You could never be my - No, no Be my - It could never be like this It could never be like this It could never be like this

Something's got a hold of me lately No, I don't know myself anymore Feels like the walls are all closing in And the devil's knocking at my door, whoa Outta my mind, how many times Did I tell you I'm no good at being alone? Yeah it's taking a toll on me, trying my best to keep From tearing the skin off my bones, don't you know I lose control When you're not next to me I'm falling apart right in front of you Can't you see? I lose control When you're not next to me Yeah, you're breaking my heart, baby You make a mess of me Problematic, problem is I want your body like a fiend, like a bad habit Bad habit's hard to break when I'm with you Yeah I know, I could do it on my own, but I want That real full moon black magic and it takes two Problematic, problem is When I'm with you I'm an addict And I need some release, my skin in your teeth Can't see the forest through the trees Got me down on my knees, darling please, oh I lose control When you're not next to me I'm falling apart right in front of you Can't you see? I lose control When you're not next to me Yeah, you're breaking my heart, baby You make a mess of me, yeah I lose control When you're not here with me I'm falling apart right in front of you Can't you see? I lose control When you're not here with me Yeah, you're breaking my heart, baby You make a mess of me