Hate Myself - NF

I wish that I had somebody to call when I am not okay I wish that I had anyone who cared when I am in that place I wish I could have a mental breakdown Without turning my life into a ghost town So many things I would change But more than anything I wish somebody loved me As much as I hate myself I wish somebody listened As much as I go through hell For everytime I've thought of ending it all Wish somebody had felt what I felt I wish somebody loved me As much as I hate myself I wish there was a person that would miss me when I can't leave bed I wish I wasn't stuck sharing my secrets with these made up friends I wish I could be honest about the ugly Without every single person running from me These days it's hard to have faith And more than anything I wish somebody loved me As much as I hate myself I wish somebody listened As much as I go through hell For everytime I've thought of ending it all Wish somebody had felt what I felt I wish somebody loved me As much as I hate myself The floods I feel This storm could kill I'm better off to keep it damned 'Cause the more I speak The more I see Just how alone I really am I wish somebody loved me As much as I hate myself I wish somebody listened As much as I go through hell For everytime I've thought of ending it all Wish somebody had felt what I felt I wish somebody loved me As much as I hate myself

I always hate, hate, hate When you running around I wanna shake, shake, shake Bitch, I wanna be drowned I'll watch you hate, hate, hate Until you burn to the ground I'll watch you hate (Until you burn to the ground) I always hate, hate, hate When you running around I wanna shake, shake, shake Bitch, I wanna be drowned I'll watch you hate, hate, hate Until you burn to the ground I'll watch you hate (Until you burn to the ground)' I always hate, hate, hate When you running around I wanna shake, shake, shake Bitch, I wanna be drowned I'll watch you hate, hate Until you burn to the ground I'll watch you hate, hate (Until you burn to the ground) I always hate, hate, hate When you running around I wanna shake, shake, shake Bitch, I wanna be drowned I'll watch you hate, hate Until you burn to the ground I'll watch you hate, hate (Until you burn to the ground) You're acting like a psychopath, my dear One day you know it's wrong, the next is clear It's getting really hard to hear that bullshit Talking, when the money's all in my ear You're just another wrong and worthless hack One day you know it's blonde, the next it's black If you wanna seal the deal and come stab me Then you better pull the knife out of my back I always hate, hate, hate When you running around I wanna shake, shake, shake Bitch, I wanna be drowned I'll watch you hate, hate Until you burn to the ground I'll watch you hate, hate (Until you burn to the ground) I always hate, hate, hate When you running around I wanna shake, shake, shake Bitch, I wanna be drowned I'll watch you hate, hate Until you burn to the ground I'll watch you hate, hate (Until you burn to the ground) Be careful hon' Stop telling me on And I can't move on Think I'll probably flawed And I'd kill myself at four in the morning Pills probably gone I think I hate myself, you make me wanna say They know, they know, they know, they know I always hate, hate, hate When you running around I wanna shake, shake, shake Bitch, I wanna be drowned I'll watch you hate, hate Until you burn to the ground I'll watch you hate, hate (Until you burn to the ground) I always hate, hate, hate When you running around I wanna shake, shake, shake Bitch, I wanna be drowned I'll watch you hate, hate Until you burn to the ground I'll watch you hate, hate (Until you burn to the ground)

What did I say? What do you want? I swear I'll make it up Oh my gosh, what have I done? Hmm Pain in my chest, can't get to sleep In these cold and empty sheets Where did you go? Why did you leave? Lie to me, it would help Just lie to me, say you found someone else Lie to me, it would help Just lie to me, say you found someone else So I don't blame myself Ooh, ooh, ooh So I don't blame myself Ooh, ooh, ooh So I don't blame myself So I don't blame myself So I don't blame myself Movin' too fast, callin' it love Was I just not enough? Nothin' makes sense, it don't add up (oh, whoa) Slammin' the door, not sayin' a word It just keeps gettin' worse I'm not okay, honest, it hurts Lie to me, it would help Just lie to me, say you found someone else Lie to me, it would help Just lie to me, say you found someone else So I don't blame myself Ooh, ooh, ooh (ooh) So I don't blame myself (hey) Ooh, ooh, ooh (ooh) So I don't blame myself (Oh, oh whoa, oh whoa) So I don't blame myself (Oh, oh whoa, whoa) So I don't blame myself (Oh, oh whoa, oh whoa) So I don't blame myself

Now, sometimes these thoughts in my head speak so loud Every little thing that I think about Just builds on top of the pain and doubt Even though I wanna just let it out I try to act like I don't mind it, try to keep my mouth so quiet But sittin' there in my silence just seems to amplify it When I thought that keepin' this inside would make it better I never thought that I would end up ruining it forever But every time I think I got everything put back together I end up making more regrets, making more regrets Falling from grace, I watch it all come apart Knowing I could've changed it all from the start Fighting myself, I always lose Fighting myself, I always lose I didn't want you to think I'm worn out so easily I wish I'd held it in so you never knew what built up inside of me Now I don't know how it overflows, spilled out unwillingly But now everything that I learned to hate came out for you to see I don't want you to promise you can change everything and make it better 'Cause you can bet I'm gonna end up ruining it forever And every time you think you got everything put back together I end up making more regrets, making more regrets Falling from grace, I watch it all come apart Knowing I could've changed it all from the start Fighting myself, I always lose Fighting myself, I always lose Falling from grace, I watch it all come apart Knowing I could've changed it all from the start Fighting myself, I always lose Fighting myself, I always lose I can't run with this weight on my back I can't see 'cause I'm focused on the past I can't breathe, I need to break free From the anger that is constantly inside me I can't run with this weight on my back I can't see 'cause I'm focused on the past I can't breathe, I need to break free From the anger that is constantly inside of me Falling from grace, I watch it all come apart Knowing I could've changed it all from the start I can't breathe, I need to break free From the anger that is constantly inside of me Falling from grace, I watch it all come apart Knowing I could've changed it all from the start I can't breathe, I need to break free From the anger that is constantly inside of me

눈을 뜬다 어둠 속 나 심장이 뛰는 소리 낯설 때 마주 본다 거울 속 너 겁먹은 눈빛 해묵은 질문 어쩌면 누군가를 사랑하는 것보다 더 어려운 게 나 자신을 사랑하는 거야 솔직히 인정할 건 인정하자 니가 내린 잣대들은 너에게 더 엄격하단 걸 니 삶 속의 굵은 나이테 그 또한 너의 일부 너이기에 이제는 나 자신을 용서하자 버리기엔 우리 인생은 길어 미로 속에선 날 믿어 겨울이 지나면 다시 봄은 오는 거야 차가운 밤의 시선 초라한 날 감추려 몹시 뒤척였지만 저 수많은 별을 맞기 위해 난 떨어졌던가 저 수천 개 찬란한 화살의 과녁은 나 하나 You've shown me I have reasons I should love myself 내 숨 내 걸어온 길 전부로 답해 어제의 나 오늘의 나 내일의 나 I'm learning how to love myself 빠짐없이 남김없이 모두 다 나 정답은 없을지도 몰라 어쩜 이것도 답은 아닌 거야 그저 날 사랑하는 일조차 누구의 허락이 필요했던 거야 난 지금도 나를 또 찾고 있어 But 더는 죽고 싶지가 않은 걸 슬프던 me 아프던 me 더 아름다울 美 그래 그 아름다움이 있다고 아는 마음이 나의 사랑으로 가는 길 가장 필요한 나다운 일, eh 지금 날 위한 행보는 바로 날 위한 행동 날 위한 태도 그게 날 위한 행복 I'll show you what i got 두렵진 않아 그건 내 존재니까 Love myself 시작의 처음부터 끝의 마지막까지 해답은 오직 하나 왜 자꾸만 감추려고만 해 니 가면 속으로 내 실수로 생긴 흉터까지 다 내 별자린데 You've shown me I have reasons I should love myself oh oh oh 내 숨 내 걸어온 길 전부로 답해 내 안에는 여전히 oh oh oh 서툰 내가 있지만 oh oh oh You've shown me I have reasons I should love myself oh oh 내 숨 내 걸어온 길 전부로 답해 oh oh oh 어제의 나 오늘의 나 내일의 나 I'm learning how to love myself 빠짐없이 남김없이 모두 다 나

I don't wanna lose myself Lose myself We used to drive down the west side Honda 92, that's my first ride Walk into Sevan's with no ID Barely 16, cop the 40 (Yeah) Left my city in a rush (In a rush) Didn't look back, gave you up (I gave you up) Now I see my name in the lights (In the lights) But it's still dark inside I don't wanna lose myself Lose myself We used to sleep in a closet (Yeah) E-40 on repeat (On repeat) Sippin' boba in the sunset Now you won't look at me (Yeah) Left my city in a rush (In a rush) Didn't look back, gave you up (I gave you up) Now I see my name in the lights (In the lights) But it's still dark inside I don't wanna lose myself Lose myself To this, to this, to this I just wanna feel something Took a long time to clear my head I just wanna feel something I lost my love Lose myself, myself, myself Yeah, yeah, yeah Lose myself, myself, myself Oh no no If I lose it all Will you look for me? If I lose it all Meet me back at Ocean Beach

متكتف مهموم موجوع وضعيف وشجاع مليان أحلام وعشان مربوط مكسور وبكسر في المآديف وتفوت أيام وتمر سنين وانا حالي غريب انا مين انا مين مشدود في الساقية وعايش مبسوط وحزين ومحبط وجرئ ورزين مشدود في الساقية وعايش مبسوط وحزين ومحبط وجرئ ورزين على غفلة اتحول بركان جبار انا ضلمة وليل أنا نار ونهار متكتف مهموم موجوع وضعيف وشجاع مليان أحلام وعشان مربوط مكسور وبكسر في المآديف ماشي على طريق مكتوب مرسوم بس انا مسؤول وعليا اللوم ماقدرش أقول من الذنب برئ لا انا ابليس ولا هبقى رسول ماقدرش أقول من الذنب برئ لا انا ابليس ولا هبقى رسول قدامي طريق همشيه همشيه نفهم في الآخر كل ده لية متكتف مهموم موجوع وضعيف وشجاع مليان أحلام وعشان مربوط مكسور وبكسر في المآديف

فوسط زحمة وناس كتير وطريق أنا ماشي فيه عكس السير وسط الطموح والأمل والتمني فاضلي خطوة توصلني فوسط حاجات ومكيفات بحاول أنسى كل اللي فات في وسط صدري ضلعي مكسور ومن خلاله قلبي شايف نور أنا كنت فاكر اني طاير وأتاريني على وشي بقع أنا كنت فاكر إني هوصل لكني بهرب من الوجع أنا كنت فاكر اني طاير وأتاريني على وشي بقع أنا كنت فاكر إني هوصل لكني بهرب من الوجع فوسط الليل وأنا بعيد عن البشر شفت نور يشبه نور القمر بس القمر مسيره يفارق ويسيبني تاني مع الوحدة أحارب فوسط قصة حب يعني وهمية كان لازم أصدق اصل الوحدة قوية مش كل المشاعر حقيقية أنا شفت نور معرفتش اغمض عنيا أنا كنت فاكر اني طاير وأتاريني على وشي بقع أنا كنت فاكر إني هوصل لكني بهرب من الوجع أنا كنت فاكر اني طاير وأتاريني على وشي بقع أنا كنت فاكر إني هوصل لكني بهرب من الوجع

Just come outside, for the night (Yeah) Take your time, get your light (Yeah) Shawty giant, huh-uh I been out geekin' Bitch Fien', fien', fien', fien'-fien' (Yeah) Fien', fien', fien', fien'-fien' (Yeah) Fien', fien', fien', fien'-fien' Fien', fien' (Yeah), fien', fien', fien' The career's more at stake when you in your prime (At stake) Fuck that paper, baby, my face on the dotted line (Dot, yeah) I been flyin' out of town for some peace of mind (Yeah, yeah, bitch) It's like always they just want a piece of mine (Ah) I been focused on the future, never on right now (Ah) But I'm sippin', not kombucha, either pink or brown (It's lit) I'm the one that introduced you to the you right now (Mm, let's go) Oh my God, that bitch bite (That bitch bite) But alright (Alright), tryna vibe (Tryna vibe like this) In the night, come alive Ain't asleep, ain't a—, ain't a—, ain't-ain't-ain't— Fien', fien', fien', fien'-fien' Fien', fien', fien', fien'-fien' Fien', fien', fien', fien'-fien' Fien', fien', fien', fien' Fien', fien', fien', fien' Syrup, woah, what? What? (Homixide, Homixide, Homixide, Homixide) What? (Yeah, woah, yeah, yeah) (Homixide, Homixide, Homixide, Homixide, yeah) (Yeah, hol' up, yeah) Yeah, I just been poppin' my shit it's been gettin' live, hol' up (Shit) Yeah, you try to come 'round 'bout this shit, they poppin' ya tires, hol' up (Shit) Uh, hunnid round, woah, feel it, knock 'em on ten Playin' both sides with these hoes (Hol' up) Shawty, I'm fuckin' yo' friends (Hol' up) I been goin' crazy, shawty, I been handlin' these bands She not innocent, uh, shit, she tryna go— Fien', fien' (Yeah, talm 'bout), fien', fien'-fien' (Syrup, oh-oh, what?) Fien', fien', fien', fien'-fien' (Syrup, oh-oh) Fien', fien', fien', fien'-fien'-fien' (Talkin' bout, talm 'bout, let's go) I just been icin' my hoes I just been drippin' my ho (Drippin' my ho) This is a whole 'nother level, shawty I got these hoes on they toes (Hoes on they toes) I put this bitch on the road She tryna fuck on the O, hol' up, hol' up I got this ho with me, she tryna show me sum', hol' up, hol' up I got flows for days, these niggas ain't know nun', hol' up, hol' up Me and my bro locked in, you know we on one, hol' up We in the spot goin' crazy, until the sun up You worried about that ho, that ho done chose us (Bitch-ass) Uh, pistols all in the kitchen, can't get it to cold, uh, hol' up, yeah (Wow) Fien', fien', fien' (Hol' up, hol' up, hol' up, hol' up, yeah) Why the fuck these niggas actin' like they know us? Double 0, Cactus, shit we towed up, this shit how we told 'em (Skrrt, skrrt) Switch out the bag, these niggas get rolled up (It's lit, hol' up, slatt) Everything lit, hol' up, everything Homixide, Homixide (Homixide, Homixide, Homixide, Homixide) Fien', fien', fien', fien'-fien'-fien' (Homixide, Homixide, Homixide, Homixide, Homixide, Homixide, Homixide)

When I stare in your eyes You'll be there forever To watch our life (to watch our life together) You just like going to Heaven (my heart) Oh, where are you taking me? (Oh, yeah, oh, yeah, oh, yeah, oh, yeah) I'm fallin', and, I'm drownin' But, you're takin' me One thousand on my feet Stacks spreaded on my seat Ten thousand on my eyes (eyes) Rollie Pollie on my wrist Gotta make a flight, big day, slummin' on FaceTime Fifty K, wonderin' why I'm stormin' off, no race (I'm brought in by thе bliss) I was sworn in by the kiss (Late from the country cadеnce) No peacemaker, I sweep up cases Goin' on a walk with a new suit on But, new suit dead, Bottega, that's on it Give me the heat from the sleep, then I harm her Cupid creep in, sleep with a Hummer Three time to get me teen Still same phone, AT&T Still givin' news very vividly Beef in there, fuck a beef Smokin' on some vegetari' (huh) I need no beef, no cheese (yeah) Even when I eat, they cheat (uh) Everytime we meet naive When I stare in your eyes You'll be there forever To watch our life (to watch out life together) You just like going to Heav— (my heart) One thousand on my feet Stacks spreaded on my seat Ten thousand on my eyes (eyes) Yeah, it's mad how it gets so deep It's mad how I gets so hot It's mad how you get me by (by) Look in my eyes, tell me a tale Do you see the road that's matchin' my soul? Look, tell me the stats whenever the smoke clear out my face Am I picture-perfect, or do I look fried? All of that green and yellow that drip from your eyes is tonic Tell you demise, I went to my side To push back the ceilin' and push back the feelings, I had to decide I replay them nights And right by my side all I see is a sea of people that ride wit' me If they just knew what Scotty would do to jump out the stage and save them a child I'm busy creatin' became the most weighted I gotta find balance And keep me inspired (hah) Yeah, yeah That shit wild, instead I'm a hero I took it from zero, LaFlame you sayin'? I read it from miles, this shit wasn't love They got me fucked up I put you on bust and take you around Couple of guns inside of that school I gave 'em the tools to get it up ground They say they the ones when they make the errors Can't look in the mirror, that shit wild Stand on the stage, I give 'em the rage I'm turnin' it down, can't turn it, can't flower We doing the streets, we do it for keeps, we do it for rights Got 52 weeks This shit ain't for pleasure, I'm comin' to tweak This shit is forever, and it ain't feelin' me Ridin' and rappin' around I take me beat and I turn into a beast Bought the crib on a hill, made it harder to reach Bought a couple more whips 'cause I needed more speed Bought a couple more watches, I needed more time They ain't buy the condo, it was part of the lease And I bought some more ice 'cause I brought in the heat Made her cancel my dick, so she never gon' cheat If I gave you a day in my life or a day in my eyes, don't blink

I had to let a little off, yeah I had to cut the pill off, yeah But if we bein' real though, yeah Nah, I don't never feel nothin' (yeah, yeah) I'm steady jumpin' the gun, yeah, I do it for fun You act like you do it for real, but, no, you is not one of us You never could come inside of this buildin' we run Inside of this world we run, we do it for us No, we don't fuck with one of them at all, at all We don't fuck with you at all (No, no) no, I won't pick up your calls, uh No, l don't like you at all I kind of wanna see you fall I keep on chasin' the highs I know I could never get back, so I'm always on low And I got eyes on the back of my head I got eyes everywhere, so I know where you go (yeah, yeah) I could drop ties in this bitch Drop like flies in this bitch, I cut ties in this bitch I'Il cut ties in your face, yeah, cut you like a lace Nothin' I do could be replaced that's why I'm livin' out in space I take the money to another level I take the plane to another level I take the heights to a newer level I take gettin' high to a newer level Keep diggin' your grave, I'll pass you the shovel, yeah I ain't mean to burst your bubble But I ain't into makin' change, I'ma stay the same, bring it to my level If we bein' real, I don't know how to feel I been overseas (I been overseas), you been on your knees You been beggin', "Please" (you been beggin', "Please"), it's nothin' left to see It's nothin' left to feel, why you in the field? (Why you in the field?) Why you so real? (Why you so real?) Tell me how you feel, huh (Tell me how you feel) Why you make me feel the way I feel? Will you make me feel better? (Will you make me feel better?) Always clashin' heads, yeah, with somebody who think they know better (Who think they know better) Who the fuck is you? Got better things to do I don't got time to waste, I just need my space It's a couple things that I can feel, but I can't feel my face It's a couple things that I wish I could but I can't replace I think it's a sickness, bein' so selfish, yeah I'm in need of a witness They always tell me, yeah, "Never forget this" I forget everything, I don't even know where my tip is And I'll change everything, I don't know how I'll top this

يابا الكنا مستنيينوا براح سألت صاحبي مسألتش حد من الراح من مين اخبي مدلوق فعبي انا كلي جراح حب الجنيه حبي اللي ليها حبي للصحاب راح اه راح كنا ابطال فالعبه بس العب شكله طال اوي ثانوي وفالشكوي انا شكيت اوي سري طلع وانا غير سوي قصدي يعني قالوا غير سوي مانا خلاص قطري خلاص قطري خلاص مانا خلاص قطري خلاص قطري خلاص مانا خلاص صفر تاني والباقيلي باظ مانا خلاص قطري خلاص قطري خلاص وانا بقيت خوان بقيت خواف اخاف اتعود فا يسيبوا اخاف أسأل واكون محتاس وكله عشان محتاج راحة البال النباهه تجيب جنان صغر سني وعين الناس مفيش اجابات و مفيش سؤال والقلب مات وانطفي ومفيش هروب مالبشر ياصحبه طولي فليالينا عايزين نطول القمر عايزين تطول السيره نداوي قلب اتكسر ولو الوحده طالت ومشينا ميطولش ليل السهر مفيش منك تخيل مفيش منك فكل الناس ولو هتغيبي ثانيه خدي الاذن عشان وسواس تنسي وماضيك يضايقك اه يصعب عليا اكون محتاج واخويا كانت غيرته باينه اه يارتني ارجعلي اشوفلي اخوات مفيش منك تخيل مفيش منك فكل الناس ولو هتغيبي ثانيه خدي الاذن عشان وسواس تنسي وماضيك يضايقك اه يصعب عليا اكون محتاج واخويا كانت غيرته باينه يارتني ارجعلي اشوفلي اخوات اه مانا خلاص قطري خلاص قطري خلاص اه مانا خلاص قطري خلاص قطري خلاص اه مانا خلاص قطري خلاص قطري خلاص اه مانا خلاص صفر تاني والباقيلي باظ