Half the Man - Jennifer Hart

Well, if you loved me half as much as I love you You couldn't worry me half as much as you do Woah, you're so nice to me when there's no one else around But you only build me up to take me down Oh, but if you missed me half as much as I miss you Well, you couldn't stay away half as much as you do Woah, I know that I could never be this blue Well, if you only loved me half as much as I love you I know that I, I know that I could never be this blue Woah, if you only loved me half as much as I love you Well, as I love you Oh, as I love you

Wonder how I didn't die This is not my life, I'm no survivor I only happened to survive Wonder how I sleep at night Well I count pink elephants, blessings, and skeletons Down the days I have left, with one eye open That was me screaming, "Bitch, I am reality" Then stumbling off to lose myself in a brown paper bag 'cause me and Sweet Evan Williams got a date down on Avenue A Staving shakes, scraping change 'til daybreak Turns out anyone can eat out the trash Then wake up on the freeway mid-crash I was drunk when I made my bed Now with a half-decade hangover I lay down in it What have I done? Don't know what I've said It's a half-decade hangover, either this, in jail or dead It's a half-decade hangover, Jesus Christ, my aching head Waste not, want not borrowed time Lender knows I've tried to make it right Give back my life, and if not Take it, 'cause lately I been thinking maybe I could Take it or leave it, if I can't at least break even Then I'm leaving when I been feelin' this awful since I hit bottom and Said, "Hand me my shovel, I'm going in" Oh brother. Man, you call that recovered? Tripped on a couple steps and collapsed on the stairs Broke my neck on the backs of those who I've hurt and scared Like it's a good thing you said, "You've got your whole life ahead" Oh great, another half a century to live to regret I'd rather be anybody else instead 'Cause I was drunk when I made my bed Now with a half-decade hangover I lay down in it What have I done? Don't know what I've said It's a half-decade hangover, either this, in jail or dead It's a half-decade hangover, Jesus Christ, my aching head Sober, but so much still hangs over Please believe me when I say I've poured my whole past down the drain Say that a second chance is a chance I can take But I can't make amends for things I can't remember I can only say I'm sorry and occasionally pray Guess you'll just have to take my word that I've changed After 1,825 days I was drunk when I made my bed Now with a half-decade hangover I lay down in it What have I done? Don't know what I've said It's a half-decade hangover, hand me my ibuprofen It's a half-decade hangover, Jesus Christ, my aching head

I'm waiting for a train To take me away The cost of my vanity I can't afford to pay I'm waiting for a change To not feel this way I gave up my sanity For nothing in exchange I think I'm wasted And I'll never make it I'm numb and I'm jaded And I can't escape it I think I'm waking Cause I feel you fading There's nowhere to run The train never comes I'm sick of this place I'm sick of LA I traded my heart for a taste of the fame, yeah Don't know what love is, but I love cocaine I love the way that she feels and now I can't feel my pain I can't feel the mania, I don't feel insane She swears that I have a problem, like I don't know That if I don't get a grip, I'm gonna die on this road I know I'm losing control, I've been losing hope I swear I'm trying to grow, but this is This is all that I know The world that I'm lost in Is one I can't process I've been to the bottom I'm back to the bottle Already forgot it Already forgotten The pain that it causes Like I didn't cause it And I think I'm wasted And I'll never make it I'm numb and I'm jaded And I can't escape it And I think I'm waking Cause I feel you fading Your memory's erasing And I can't escape, no I can't escape

Cap off kneeling at the back of the church Feeling water on your brow, and it heals and it hurts At first a sharpish pain that returns as a thought That the needle in your skin won't bring you closer to god And i watch as your head turns full circle All hopeless with a coffee and a medical text It's too easy knowing nothing, blowing off the rest And the riddles in the pages leaving too much to guess And the worry cracks a fracture from your hip to your chest And i watch as your head turns full circle You got lost in your travels and a spiritual book Mistook beaches for nirvana in the way that they look And the crooks that run the island are killing to keep earning They're burning seven tons of plastic and it seems to be working Is that the best that i can do? And i watch as your head turns full circle You appear even-tempered but your looks will deceive And the sparks are always flying 'cause you drink for relief With the heart of a child and the wit of a fool It's a wonder why i don't try to build a wall around you And i watch as your head turns full circle And i watch as your head turns full circle And i watch as your head turns full circle

متكتف مهموم موجوع وضعيف وشجاع مليان أحلام وعشان مربوط مكسور وبكسر في المآديف وتفوت أيام وتمر سنين وانا حالي غريب انا مين انا مين مشدود في الساقية وعايش مبسوط وحزين ومحبط وجرئ ورزين مشدود في الساقية وعايش مبسوط وحزين ومحبط وجرئ ورزين على غفلة اتحول بركان جبار انا ضلمة وليل أنا نار ونهار متكتف مهموم موجوع وضعيف وشجاع مليان أحلام وعشان مربوط مكسور وبكسر في المآديف ماشي على طريق مكتوب مرسوم بس انا مسؤول وعليا اللوم ماقدرش أقول من الذنب برئ لا انا ابليس ولا هبقى رسول ماقدرش أقول من الذنب برئ لا انا ابليس ولا هبقى رسول قدامي طريق همشيه همشيه نفهم في الآخر كل ده لية متكتف مهموم موجوع وضعيف وشجاع مليان أحلام وعشان مربوط مكسور وبكسر في المآديف

فوسط زحمة وناس كتير وطريق أنا ماشي فيه عكس السير وسط الطموح والأمل والتمني فاضلي خطوة توصلني فوسط حاجات ومكيفات بحاول أنسى كل اللي فات في وسط صدري ضلعي مكسور ومن خلاله قلبي شايف نور أنا كنت فاكر اني طاير وأتاريني على وشي بقع أنا كنت فاكر إني هوصل لكني بهرب من الوجع أنا كنت فاكر اني طاير وأتاريني على وشي بقع أنا كنت فاكر إني هوصل لكني بهرب من الوجع فوسط الليل وأنا بعيد عن البشر شفت نور يشبه نور القمر بس القمر مسيره يفارق ويسيبني تاني مع الوحدة أحارب فوسط قصة حب يعني وهمية كان لازم أصدق اصل الوحدة قوية مش كل المشاعر حقيقية أنا شفت نور معرفتش اغمض عنيا أنا كنت فاكر اني طاير وأتاريني على وشي بقع أنا كنت فاكر إني هوصل لكني بهرب من الوجع أنا كنت فاكر اني طاير وأتاريني على وشي بقع أنا كنت فاكر إني هوصل لكني بهرب من الوجع

You got a fast car I want a ticket to anywhere Maybe we make a deal Maybe together we can get somewhere Any place is better Startin' from zero, got nothing to lose Maybe we'll make something Me, myself, I got nothing to prove You got a fast car I got a plan to get us out of here I been working at the convenience store Managed to save just a little bit of money Won't have to drive too far Just across the border and into the city You and I can both get jobs Finally see what it means to be living See, my old man's got a problem He lives with the bottle, that's the way it is He says his body's too old for working His body's too young to look like his Mama went off and left him She wanted more from life than he could give I said, "somebody's got to take care of him" So I quit school and that's what I did You got a fast car Is it fast enough so we can fly away? Still gotta make a decision Leave tonight, or live and die this way So, I remember when we were driving, driving in your car Speed so fast, I felt like I was drunk City lights lay out before us And your arm felt nice wrapped 'round my shoulder And I, I, had a feeling that I belonged I, I, had a feeling I could be someone, be someone, be someone You got a fast car We go cruisin', entertain ourselves You still ain't got a job So I work in a market as a checkout girl I know things will get better You'll find work and I'll get promoted We'll move out of the shelter Buy a bigger house, live in the suburbs So, I remember when we were driving, driving in your car Speed so fast, I felt like I was drunk City lights lay out before us And your arm felt nice wrapped 'round my shoulder And I, I, had a feeling that I belonged I, I, had a feeling I could be someone, be someone, be someone You got a fast car I got a job that pays all our bills You stay out drinking late at the bar See more of your friends than you do of your kids I'd always hoped for better Thought maybe together you and me would find it I got no plans, I ain't going nowhere So take your fast car and keep on driving So, I remember when we were driving, driving in your car Speed so fast, I felt like I was drunk City lights lay out before us And your arm felt nice wrapped 'round my shoulder And I, I, had a feeling that I belonged I, I, had a feeling I could be someone, be someone, be someone You got a fast car Is it fast enough so you can fly away? You still gotta make a decision Leave tonight, or live and die this way