Wish I Was Better - Kina

Limb by limb and tooth by tooth Stirring up inside of me Every day, every hour I wish that I was bulletproof Wax me, mold me Heat the pins and stab them in You have turned me into this Just wish that it was bullet proof Was bullet proof So pay me money, take a shot Lead-fill the hole in me I could burst a million bubbles All surrogate and bullet proof And bullet proof And bullet proof Bullet proof

When I was 15, I had running back dreams But never did run too far Thought I was gonna be number three one day 'Til I wrecked my old man's car I almost finished college but I ain't cut from that cloth Used to wish I was, but I'm glad I'm not I'm just a North Carolina good ol' boy Boys, I ain't got no choice I pick a little guitar in the evenin' Wear Mossy Oak outta deer season I couldn't be anybody but me, even if I tried I used to wish I was, but I'm glad I'm not I used to have a Tennessee Bill Dance hat But barely ever got 'em in the boat I used to wanna hit 'em like Chipper did But I swung it just a little too slow Yeah, these days I don't wanna be anybody but me I used to wish I was, but I'm glad I'm not I'm just an North Carolina good ol' boy Boys, I ain't got no choice I pick a little guitar in the evenin' Wear Mossy Oak outta deer season I couldn't be anybody but me, even if I tried I used to wish I was, but I'm glad I'm not I'm just an North Carolina good ol' boy Boys, I ain't got no choice I pick a little guitar in the evenin' Wear Mossy Oak outta deer season I couldn't be anybody but me, even if I tried I used to wish I was, but I'm glad I'm not Yeah, I'm glad I'm not

You know I got this feeling That I just can't hide I try to tell you how I feel I try to tell you but I'm weak Words don't come easily When you get close I shiver I watch you when you smile I watch you when you cry And I still don't understand I can't find the way to tell you I wish I was your lover I wish that you were mine Baby I got this feeling That I just can't hide Don't try to run away There's many things I wanna say No matter how it ends Just hold me when I tell you I wish I was your lover I wish that you were mine Baby I got this feeling That I just can't hide I wish I was your lover I wish that you were mine Baby I got this feeling That I just can't hide All I need is a miracle Oh baby, all I need is you All I need is a love you give Oh baby, all I need is you Baby you I wish I was your lover I wish that you were mine Baby I got this feeling That I just can't hide I wish I was your lover I wish that you were mine Baby I got this feeling That I just can't hide I wish I was your lover I wish that you were mine Baby I got this feeling That I just can't hide Just wanna be your lover Just wanna be the one Let me be your lover Let me be the one

Hung all my clothes in the closet you made Your shoes still in boxes I send them your way Hoping life brings you no new pain I rearrange my memories I try to rewrite our life But no matter how I try to And no matter how I want to And no matter how easy things could be if I did And no matter how guilty I still feel saying it I wish I hated you I wish that weren't true Wish there was worse to you I wish you were worse to me Yeah, I wish I hated you Our shadows stands in a parallel plane Just two different endings You learn to repair And I learn to keep me in one place So close and yet so far If only we had known from the start But no matter how I try to And no matter how I want to And no matter how easy things could be if I did And no matter how guilty I still feel saying it I wish I hated you I wish that weren't true Wish there was worse to you I wish you were worse to me Yeah, I wish I hated you

I'm anxious, kinda sad Hard to be your best when you lost the best you had Spending days just on my phone Wondering where it all went wrong I'm nervous, pretty wired I said your name too much now my lungs got tired Thinking maybe I'm to blame I just need someone to hate Oh, oh, oh, oh You made this so damn hard for me You and your goddamn honesty It got me thinking I wish you woulda cheated And smashed my heart to pieces I wish I had a reason I could hate your guts for leaving I wish you were the villain, a psycho with no feelings So how do I move on? When you did nothing wrong Ahh Wish you did something wrong Ahh But you did nothing wrong I know it's messed up, kinda bad But I wish we didn't talk and you just left like that I'd be angry instead of numb Dammit who have I become? Oh, oh, oh, oh You made this so damn hard for me You and your goddamn honesty It got me thinking I wish you woulda cheated And smashed my heart to pieces I wish I had a reason I could hate your guts for leaving I wish you were the villain, a psycho with no feelings So how do I move on? When you did nothing wrong Ahh Wish you did something wrong Ahh But you did nothing wrong In the middle of the night I start to fantasize that you would ruin my whole life, oh Cuz you're the best I had And I keep running back like a goddamn fool tryna change your mind You were all mine Can't believe I Wish you woulda cheated And smashed my heart to pieces I wish I had a reason I could hate your guts for leaving I wish you were the villain, a psycho with no feelings So how do I move on? When you did nothing wrong

I've been thinking 'bout my thoughtless words And I know just how much they must have hurt And I take it back Won't you let me take it back? You know I told you that I don't love you That I'd be better off with someone new But I take it back Won't you let me take it back? Girl, you know that I still love you And you know that I'm so alone I don't know why I told you that I didn't need you Can't you see that, baby, I was wrong? What I wouldn't give to be your lover again All I want to do is touch your skin, yeah If I had you right here right now Tell you, tell you, tell you, tell you Girl, you know that I still love you And you know that I'm so alone I don't know why I told you that I didn't need you Can't you see that, baby, I was wrong?

متكتف مهموم موجوع وضعيف وشجاع مليان أحلام وعشان مربوط مكسور وبكسر في المآديف وتفوت أيام وتمر سنين وانا حالي غريب انا مين انا مين مشدود في الساقية وعايش مبسوط وحزين ومحبط وجرئ ورزين مشدود في الساقية وعايش مبسوط وحزين ومحبط وجرئ ورزين على غفلة اتحول بركان جبار انا ضلمة وليل أنا نار ونهار متكتف مهموم موجوع وضعيف وشجاع مليان أحلام وعشان مربوط مكسور وبكسر في المآديف ماشي على طريق مكتوب مرسوم بس انا مسؤول وعليا اللوم ماقدرش أقول من الذنب برئ لا انا ابليس ولا هبقى رسول ماقدرش أقول من الذنب برئ لا انا ابليس ولا هبقى رسول قدامي طريق همشيه همشيه نفهم في الآخر كل ده لية متكتف مهموم موجوع وضعيف وشجاع مليان أحلام وعشان مربوط مكسور وبكسر في المآديف

فوسط زحمة وناس كتير وطريق أنا ماشي فيه عكس السير وسط الطموح والأمل والتمني فاضلي خطوة توصلني فوسط حاجات ومكيفات بحاول أنسى كل اللي فات في وسط صدري ضلعي مكسور ومن خلاله قلبي شايف نور أنا كنت فاكر اني طاير وأتاريني على وشي بقع أنا كنت فاكر إني هوصل لكني بهرب من الوجع أنا كنت فاكر اني طاير وأتاريني على وشي بقع أنا كنت فاكر إني هوصل لكني بهرب من الوجع فوسط الليل وأنا بعيد عن البشر شفت نور يشبه نور القمر بس القمر مسيره يفارق ويسيبني تاني مع الوحدة أحارب فوسط قصة حب يعني وهمية كان لازم أصدق اصل الوحدة قوية مش كل المشاعر حقيقية أنا شفت نور معرفتش اغمض عنيا أنا كنت فاكر اني طاير وأتاريني على وشي بقع أنا كنت فاكر إني هوصل لكني بهرب من الوجع أنا كنت فاكر اني طاير وأتاريني على وشي بقع أنا كنت فاكر إني هوصل لكني بهرب من الوجع