A Soulmate Who Wasn’t Meant to Be - Jess Benko

I wasn't built for this My head can't make any damn sense of this so it sings Can't remember the smell and I Can't recall the taste but I try everyday If I wasn't so afraid I'd shine a light up to space Then my soul could be Strong enough to see your face One more day One more day I found notes that you hid Sharing secrets and fears that were meant to stay hid Moving stuff out your room Leaves me emptier than the room where you stayed If I wasn't so afraid I'd shine a light up to space Then my soul could be Strong enough to see your face Give me one more day One more day And if I wasn't so afraid I'd shine a light up to space Then my soul could be Strong enough to see your face One more day

I used to be a sailor Who sailed across the seas But now I'm just an island Since they took my boat away from me Oh no I don't like being stationary, no, no, no, no I like the rocky wavy motions of the sea I sit and rock behind these padded walls Hoping one day they'll fall And set me free He wrote his epitaph He wrote his eulogy It said, "I think that I can die now For my true love won't come for me" Oh no I don't like being stationary, no, no, no, no I like the rocky wavy motions of the sea I sit and rock behind these padded walls Hoping one day they'll fall And set me free I used to be a sailor Who sailed across the seas But now I'm just an island Since they took my boat away from me Oh no I don't like being stationary, no, no, no, no I like the rocky wavy motions of the sea I sit and rock behind these padded walls Hoping one day they'll fall And set me free Set me free, set me free, set me free Set me free, set me free, set me free Set me free, set me free, set me free

I'm out late every night Doing things that ain't right And she'll cry for me When I'm down in the dumps And she nurses my lumps How she cries for me And she'll never complain She keeps hiding the pain But I know all the while She's not feeling too well 'Cause I put her through hell Still she forces a smile She's got to be a saint Lord know that I ain't I finally realize Right before my eyes Here is a saint There's a dress in a shop That'll make her eyes pop But she'll look away She'd have gotten a lift If I'd bought her that gift For her birthday But her birthday has come And I feel like a bum 'Cause I spent my last dime On a worthless old friend On a drunken weekend I've done it time after time She's got to be a saint Lord know that I ain't I finally realize Right before my eyes Here is a saint Should I stay? Should I go? I really don't know My mind's in a blur Soon it's gonna be dawn And if she finds me gone Would it be best for her? I see her cry in her sleep So I kiss her wet cheek I kneel by her and pray And I'll turn off the light Step out in the night And I'll go on my way She's got to be a saint Lord know that I ain't I finally realize Right before my eyes Here is a saint

متكتف مهموم موجوع وضعيف وشجاع مليان أحلام وعشان مربوط مكسور وبكسر في المآديف وتفوت أيام وتمر سنين وانا حالي غريب انا مين انا مين مشدود في الساقية وعايش مبسوط وحزين ومحبط وجرئ ورزين مشدود في الساقية وعايش مبسوط وحزين ومحبط وجرئ ورزين على غفلة اتحول بركان جبار انا ضلمة وليل أنا نار ونهار متكتف مهموم موجوع وضعيف وشجاع مليان أحلام وعشان مربوط مكسور وبكسر في المآديف ماشي على طريق مكتوب مرسوم بس انا مسؤول وعليا اللوم ماقدرش أقول من الذنب برئ لا انا ابليس ولا هبقى رسول ماقدرش أقول من الذنب برئ لا انا ابليس ولا هبقى رسول قدامي طريق همشيه همشيه نفهم في الآخر كل ده لية متكتف مهموم موجوع وضعيف وشجاع مليان أحلام وعشان مربوط مكسور وبكسر في المآديف

فوسط زحمة وناس كتير وطريق أنا ماشي فيه عكس السير وسط الطموح والأمل والتمني فاضلي خطوة توصلني فوسط حاجات ومكيفات بحاول أنسى كل اللي فات في وسط صدري ضلعي مكسور ومن خلاله قلبي شايف نور أنا كنت فاكر اني طاير وأتاريني على وشي بقع أنا كنت فاكر إني هوصل لكني بهرب من الوجع أنا كنت فاكر اني طاير وأتاريني على وشي بقع أنا كنت فاكر إني هوصل لكني بهرب من الوجع فوسط الليل وأنا بعيد عن البشر شفت نور يشبه نور القمر بس القمر مسيره يفارق ويسيبني تاني مع الوحدة أحارب فوسط قصة حب يعني وهمية كان لازم أصدق اصل الوحدة قوية مش كل المشاعر حقيقية أنا شفت نور معرفتش اغمض عنيا أنا كنت فاكر اني طاير وأتاريني على وشي بقع أنا كنت فاكر إني هوصل لكني بهرب من الوجع أنا كنت فاكر اني طاير وأتاريني على وشي بقع أنا كنت فاكر إني هوصل لكني بهرب من الوجع

You promised a lifetime, but left in a moment I wonder if you even think about me Throw me a lifeline because I'm barely floating Stranded and broken You know you got me lost in the dark Is it too late? Is it too late for us? You know you got me lost in my heart Is it too late? Is it too late for us? Oh why'd you get me so high To leave me so low To leave me solo Oh I was wasting my time hoping you'd call But damn you're so cold Oh why'd you make me feel safe Just to walk away Just to let me go Oh why'd you get me so high To leave me so low To leave me solo You look like an angel Thought I was in heaven But I'm just falling without you with me I thought I was able to learn from my lessons Was trying my best but You know you got me lost in the dark Is it too late? Is it too late for us? You know you got me lost in my heart Is it too late? Is it too late for us? Oh why'd you get me so high To leave me so low To leave me solo Oh I was wasting my time hoping you'd call But damn you're so cold Oh why'd you make me feel safe Just to walk away? Just to let me go? Oh why'd you get me so high To leave me so low To leave me solo Ohhhh I'll never love again, I'll never love again Ohhhh I'll never love again, I'll never love again Oh why'd you get me so high To leave me so low To leave me solo Oh I was wasting my time hoping you'd call But damn you're so cold Oh why'd you make me feel safe Just to walk away? Just to let me go? Oh why'd you get me so high To leave me so low To leave me solo