Back to December - Josh Rabenold

I'm so glad you made time to see me How's life? Tell me, how's your family? I haven't seen them in a while You've been good, busier than ever We small talk, work and the weather Your guard is up and I know why Because the last time you saw me Is still burned in the back of your mind You gave me roses and I left them there to die So this is me swallowin' my pride Standin' in front of you sayin' I'm sorry for that night And I go back to December all the time It turns out freedom ain't nothin' but missin' you Wishin' I'd realized what I had when you were mine I'd go back to December, turn around and make it alright I go back to December all the time These days, I haven't been sleepin' Stayin' up playin' back myself leavin' When your birthday passed and I didn't call Then I think about summer, all the beautiful times I watched you laughin' from the passenger's side And realized I loved you in the fall And then the cold came, the dark days When fear crept into my mind You gave me all your love and all I gave you was goodbye So this is me swallowin' my pride Standin' in front of you sayin' I'm sorry for that night And I go back to December all the time It turns out freedom ain't nothin' but missin' you Wishin' I'd realized what I had when you were mine I'd go back to December, turn around and change my own mind I go back to December all the time I miss your tan skin, your sweet smile So good to me, so right And how you held me in your arms that September night The first time you ever saw me cry Maybe this is wishful thinkin' Probably mindless dreamin' But if we loved again, I swear I'd love you right I'd go back in time and change it, but I can't So if the chain is on your door, I understand But this is me swallowin' my pride Standin' in front of you sayin' I'm sorry for that night And I go back to December It turns out freedom ain't nothin' but missin' you Wishin' I'd realized what I had when you were mine I'd go back to December, turn around and make it alright I'd go back to December, turn around and change my own mind I go back to December all the time All the time

Oh man, oh man, oh man Not again Yeah, I learned the game from William Wesley You can never check me Back to back for the niggas that didn't get the message Back to back like I'm on the cover of Lethal Weapon Back to back like I'm Jordan '96, '97 Whoa, very important and very pretentious When I look back I might be mad that I gave this attention Yeah, but it's weighin' heavy on my conscience Yeah, and fuck, you left a boy no options I wanna see my niggas go insane You gon' make me step out of my fuckin' frame You gon' make me buy bottles for Charlamagne You gon' make me go out of my fuckin' way I waited four days, nigga, where y'all at? I drove here in the Wraith playin' AR-AB I'm not sure what it was that really made y'all mad But I guess this is what I gotta do to make y'all rap I mean woah, can't fool the city, man, they know what's up Second floor Tootsies, gettin' shoulder rubs This for y'all to think that I don't write enough They just mad cause I got the midas touch You love her, then you gotta give the world to her Is that a world tour or your girl's tour? I know that you gotta be a thug for her This ain't what she meant when she told you to open up more Yeah, trigger fingers turn to twitter fingers Yeah, you gettin' bodied by a singin' nigga I'm not the type of nigga that'll type to niggas And shout-out to all my boss bitches wife-in niggas Make sure you hit him with the prenup Then tell that man to ease up I did another one, I did another one You still ain't did shit about the other one I got the drink in me goin' back to back Yeah, goin' back to back I got the drink in me goin' back to back Yeah, I'm goin' back to back I don't wanna hear about this ever again Not even when she tell 'em that they better as friends Not even when you sayin', "Drizzy, tell 'em again" I been puttin' on a show, it was a sell out event Oh, you need better seatin' I didn't wanna do it, gave me every reason The point I'm tryna make is I don't ever need 'em Seen what you'd do for fame or what you'd do for freedom Please, check 'em for a wire or a earpiece Please, please do not let these niggas near me Please, think before you come for the great one Please, who's a real nigga and who ain't one? Please, somebody stop me I'm talkin' bousy and gwanin wassy I got the fest in five days and it's my shit Soon as a nigga hit the stage, they gon' They gon' ask if I can play this shit back to back Yeah, they want it back to back They gon' ask if I can play this shit back to back I took a break from Views, now it's back to that, nigga

You only call me your baby When she wasn't there Now you go calling me crazy Because I don't care We'll never turn back time Now lovin' you is an after thought Too late to press rewind When all I want to do Do is sob I've got to break you free Don't know why you'd ever say love Knowing I'll never be enough Breaking the best part of me Well I don't let you do me like that Can't keep pulling you back to Me, me, me, me, me Can't keep pulling you back to Me, me, me, me, me I'll never trust you after The things that I saw Who wants an ever after If it ain't forever at all We'll never turn back time Now lovin' you is an after thought Too late to press rewind When all I want to do Do is sob I've got to break you free Don't know why you'd ever say love Knowing I'll never be enough Breaking the best part of me Well I don't let you do me like that Can't keep pulling you back to Me, me, me, me, me Can't keep pulling you back to Me, me, me, me, me You'll never be the one 'Cause it's not how it's supposed to be Won't pull you back Pull you back Pull you back to me I don't want your love Baby we were never meant to be It's not enough So your gonna have to break free You'll never be the one 'Cause it's not how it's supposed to be Won't pull you back Pull you back Pull you back to me I don't want your love Baby we were never meant to be It's not enough So your gonna have to break free I've got to break you free Don't know why you'd ever say love Knowing I'll never be enough Breaking the best part of me Well I don't let you do me like that Can't keep pulling you back to Me, me, me, me, me Can't keep pulling you back to Me, me, me, me, me You only call me your baby When she wasn't there

Is it a new start, or the end? 너와 나 사이를 가르던 평행선이 Falling slowly 이제 모든 게 새롭게 시작돼 어둠 속에 느껴진 떨림 Yeah, I'm fallin' Tell me, is it real? (Ooh) Real Tell me, is it real? (Ooh) Real 막이 오르면 멈출 수 없어, stay close So tell me, is it real? Is it real? In silence I'm in silence 꿈속 깊은 곳의 fear Disappear In silence Inside us 지난 어제의 엔딩과 출발선 경계에 선 우리 (Yes, all ready) 각오는 됐지 (Yes, all ready) 오, 다시 열리는 세계 이 길의 끝에 뭐가 있을지 모르지만 가보려 해 (지켜봐 줘 부디) 날 믿어볼래 (지켜봐 줘) So tell me, is it real? (Is it real?) Is it real? (Oh, woah-ooh-woah-oh) In silence (Silence) I'm in silence 막이 오르면 멈출 수 없어, stay close Tell me, is it real? Is it real? In silence (Ooh) I'm in silence (It's time to make it real) Make it real, make it real, oh-oh-oh Make it real, make it real, oh-oh-oh (It's time to make it real) Make it real, make it real, oh-oh-oh Make it real So tell me, is it real? (Make it real, make it real, oh-oh-oh) Is it real? (Make it real, make it real, oh-oh-oh) In silence (Make it real, make it real, oh-oh-oh) I'm in silence (Make it real, make it real)

Lessons learned and bridges burned to the ground And it's too late now to put out the fire Tables turned And I'm the one who's burning now Well I'm doing all right till I close my eyes And then I see your face and it's no surprise Just like that, I'm crawling back to you Just like you said I would, yeah Swallow my pride, I'm crawling back to you Yeah, I'm out of my head, can't wait any longer I'm down on my knees, I thought I was stronger Just like that, like you said I'd do Yeah, I'm crawling back to you Time can heal, but the scars only hide the way you feel And it's hard to forget how I left you hanging Holding by a thread, when everything is said I regret it Yeah I was doin' all right, thought I could make it Then I see your face and it's hard to fake it Just like that I'm crawling back to you Just like you said I would, yeah Swallow my pride, now I'm crawling back to you Yeah, I'm out of my head, can't wait any longer I'm down on my knees, I thought I was stronger Just like that like you said I'd do Yeah, I'm crawling back to you If you could find a way to give everything, I know you would And I would take it all back if only I knew that I could Lessons learned and bridges burned to the ground And it's too late now to put out the fire Just like that I'm crawling back to you Just like you said I would, yeah Swallow my pride, I'm crawling back to you Yeah, I'm out of my head, can't wait any longer I'm down on my knees, I thought I was stronger Just like that like you said I'd do Yeah, I'm crawling back to you Yeah, I'm crawling back to you Ohhh, yeah, yeah! Oh! Crawling back to you I'm crawling back to you

This is a special shout going out to my mama, Ms. Ernestine Charles Mama used to do people hair in the kitchen Press and curl, hot curlers, everything I love you mama Black hair is (a revolution) Cornrows (uh-uh, honey, I am tender-headed) Jheri curls (style sophistication) Afro puff (ah-ooh, ah-ooh) Hair weave (call her Miss Ross) Braids (pride, respect) Extensions (more of a 90s fashion) Asymmetrical shroom (banji girl) I'm going back, back, black to my roots Where my love can be found and my heart rings true I'm going back, back, black to my roots To the time and the place, coming back to you I'm going back, back, black to my roots Where my love can be found and my heart rings true I'm going back, back, black to my roots To the time and the place, coming back to you Black hair is (a revolution) Finger wave (a classic extravaganza) Press and curl (never mix, never worry) Flat top fade (very contemporary) Nail sculpture (urban distinction) Hot comb (ouch, mama, that was my ear!) Blow out kits (ooh, ooh tamba) No-lye relaxer (fried dyed and laid to the side) I'm going back, back, black to my roots Where my love can be found and my heart rings true I'm going back, back, black to my roots To the time and the place, coming back to you I'm going back, back, black to my roots Where my love can be found and my heart rings true I'm going back, back, black to my roots To the time and the place, coming back to you Black hair is... Now mama got her own salon down on Auburn Avenue And if you wanna know what's happening in Atlanta Just go to the salon That's to you and all y'all down there, brothers and sisters Miss Earlene, Lizzy Dean, Renetta Little baby boy, Tone Tone, Leonard, K-Ron, Cornisha Peace my brothers and sisters Peace, love and hair grease A revolution, a revolution A re- re-, a revolution I'm going back, back, black to my roots Where my love can be found and my heart rings true I'm going back, back, black to my roots To the time and the place, coming back to you I'm going back, back, black to my roots Where my love can be found and my heart rings true I'm going back, back, black to my roots To the time and the place, coming back to you Black hair is...

متكتف مهموم موجوع وضعيف وشجاع مليان أحلام وعشان مربوط مكسور وبكسر في المآديف وتفوت أيام وتمر سنين وانا حالي غريب انا مين انا مين مشدود في الساقية وعايش مبسوط وحزين ومحبط وجرئ ورزين مشدود في الساقية وعايش مبسوط وحزين ومحبط وجرئ ورزين على غفلة اتحول بركان جبار انا ضلمة وليل أنا نار ونهار متكتف مهموم موجوع وضعيف وشجاع مليان أحلام وعشان مربوط مكسور وبكسر في المآديف ماشي على طريق مكتوب مرسوم بس انا مسؤول وعليا اللوم ماقدرش أقول من الذنب برئ لا انا ابليس ولا هبقى رسول ماقدرش أقول من الذنب برئ لا انا ابليس ولا هبقى رسول قدامي طريق همشيه همشيه نفهم في الآخر كل ده لية متكتف مهموم موجوع وضعيف وشجاع مليان أحلام وعشان مربوط مكسور وبكسر في المآديف

فوسط زحمة وناس كتير وطريق أنا ماشي فيه عكس السير وسط الطموح والأمل والتمني فاضلي خطوة توصلني فوسط حاجات ومكيفات بحاول أنسى كل اللي فات في وسط صدري ضلعي مكسور ومن خلاله قلبي شايف نور أنا كنت فاكر اني طاير وأتاريني على وشي بقع أنا كنت فاكر إني هوصل لكني بهرب من الوجع أنا كنت فاكر اني طاير وأتاريني على وشي بقع أنا كنت فاكر إني هوصل لكني بهرب من الوجع فوسط الليل وأنا بعيد عن البشر شفت نور يشبه نور القمر بس القمر مسيره يفارق ويسيبني تاني مع الوحدة أحارب فوسط قصة حب يعني وهمية كان لازم أصدق اصل الوحدة قوية مش كل المشاعر حقيقية أنا شفت نور معرفتش اغمض عنيا أنا كنت فاكر اني طاير وأتاريني على وشي بقع أنا كنت فاكر إني هوصل لكني بهرب من الوجع أنا كنت فاكر اني طاير وأتاريني على وشي بقع أنا كنت فاكر إني هوصل لكني بهرب من الوجع

Something's got a hold of me lately No, I don't know myself anymore Feels like the walls are all closing in And the devil's knocking at my door, whoa Outta my mind, how many times Did I tell you I'm no good at being alone? Yeah it's taking a toll on me, trying my best to keep From tearing the skin off my bones, don't you know I lose control When you're not next to me I'm falling apart right in front of you Can't you see? I lose control When you're not next to me Yeah, you're breaking my heart, baby You make a mess of me Problematic, problem is I want your body like a fiend, like a bad habit Bad habit's hard to break when I'm with you Yeah I know, I could do it on my own, but I want That real full moon black magic and it takes two Problematic, problem is When I'm with you I'm an addict And I need some release, my skin in your teeth Can't see the forest through the trees Got me down on my knees, darling please, oh I lose control When you're not next to me I'm falling apart right in front of you Can't you see? I lose control When you're not next to me Yeah, you're breaking my heart, baby You make a mess of me, yeah I lose control When you're not here with me I'm falling apart right in front of you Can't you see? I lose control When you're not here with me Yeah, you're breaking my heart, baby You make a mess of me

Our love will never be another You're just a devil undercover Found you when you were in the gutter It was sweet until I was a sucker, shout out Jonas Brothers I learned more than I cared to discover Don't you know that I'm more than a come up? You act up and then act like it's nothin' Sold your soul, you stone cold, you a stunner Every time you left it was never right In another bed every single night Had it to a science, you were so precise See it in your eyes, saw you in the light Somehow, mami, I still want you Listen to me, don't drive away Kill me softly, your hold on me is Somethin' I can't explain I know you could never be my - It could never be like this I know, stop thinkin' you're in my plans Hunnid times you blew another chance I know you were gettin' down on the low Then runnin' back to me in the morning I know it could never be like this You could never be my - No, no Our love will never be another You're just a devil undercover Found you when you were in the gutter It was sweet until I was a sucker Rather be single for life Than be - with you I ain't rollin' the dice, no I ain't playin' to lose (no) Every time you left it was never right In another bed every single night Had it to a science, you were so precise See it in your eyes, saw you in the light Somehow, mami, I still want you Listen to me, don't drive away Kill me softly, your hold on me is Somethin' I can't explain I know you could never be my - It could never be like this I know, stop thinkin' you're in my plans Hunnid times you blew another chance I know you were gettin' down on the low Then runnin' back to me in the morning I know it could never be like this You could never be my - No, no Be my - It could never be like this It could never be like this It could never be like this

Look what this girl done did to me She done cut me off from a good, good love She told me that those days were gone Gone, gone Now I'm sitting here goin' half crazy 'Cause I know she still thinks about me, too And it ain't no way in hell That I can be just friends with you And I wish we never did it And I wish we never loved it And I wish I never fell so deep in love with you And now it ain't no way we can be friends The way it felt, no fakin' it Maybe we were movin' just a little too fast But what we've done, we can't take it back Back, back Now I'm sitting here halfway crazy 'Cause I know she still thinks about me too And it ain't no way in hell That I can be just friends with you Now I'm sitting here halfway crazy 'Cause I know she still thinks about me too And it ain't no way in hell That I can be just friends with you And I wish we never did it And I wish we never loved it And I wish I never fell so deep in love with you And now it ain't no way we can be friends Ain't no tellin' what we could've been Ain't no tellin' what we could've been, no And if I knew it end like this I never would've kissed ya 'Cause I fell in love with ya We never would've kicked it Girl, now everything's different I lost my only lover and my friend That's why I wish we never did it And I wish we never loved it And I wish I never fell so deep in love with you And now it ain't no way we can be friends