Back to December - Josh Rabenold

I'm so glad you made time to see me How's life? Tell me, how's your family? I haven't seen them in a while You've been good, busier than ever We small talk, work and the weather Your guard is up and I know why Because the last time you saw me Is still burned in the back of your mind You gave me roses and I left them there to die So this is me swallowin' my pride Standin' in front of you sayin' I'm sorry for that night And I go back to December all the time It turns out freedom ain't nothin' but missin' you Wishin' I'd realized what I had when you were mine I'd go back to December, turn around and make it alright I go back to December all the time These days, I haven't been sleepin' Stayin' up playin' back myself leavin' When your birthday passed and I didn't call Then I think about summer, all the beautiful times I watched you laughin' from the passenger's side And realized I loved you in the fall And then the cold came, the dark days When fear crept into my mind You gave me all your love and all I gave you was goodbye So this is me swallowin' my pride Standin' in front of you sayin' I'm sorry for that night And I go back to December all the time It turns out freedom ain't nothin' but missin' you Wishin' I'd realized what I had when you were mine I'd go back to December, turn around and change my own mind I go back to December all the time I miss your tan skin, your sweet smile So good to me, so right And how you held me in your arms that September night The first time you ever saw me cry Maybe this is wishful thinkin' Probably mindless dreamin' But if we loved again, I swear I'd love you right I'd go back in time and change it, but I can't So if the chain is on your door, I understand But this is me swallowin' my pride Standin' in front of you sayin' I'm sorry for that night And I go back to December It turns out freedom ain't nothin' but missin' you Wishin' I'd realized what I had when you were mine I'd go back to December, turn around and make it alright I'd go back to December, turn around and change my own mind I go back to December all the time All the time

Oh man, oh man, oh man Not again Yeah, I learned the game from William Wesley You can never check me Back to back for the niggas that didn't get the message Back to back like I'm on the cover of Lethal Weapon Back to back like I'm Jordan '96, '97 Whoa, very important and very pretentious When I look back I might be mad that I gave this attention Yeah, but it's weighin' heavy on my conscience Yeah, and fuck, you left a boy no options I wanna see my niggas go insane You gon' make me step out of my fuckin' frame You gon' make me buy bottles for Charlamagne You gon' make me go out of my fuckin' way I waited four days, nigga, where y'all at? I drove here in the Wraith playin' AR-AB I'm not sure what it was that really made y'all mad But I guess this is what I gotta do to make y'all rap I mean woah, can't fool the city, man, they know what's up Second floor Tootsies, gettin' shoulder rubs This for y'all to think that I don't write enough They just mad cause I got the midas touch You love her, then you gotta give the world to her Is that a world tour or your girl's tour? I know that you gotta be a thug for her This ain't what she meant when she told you to open up more Yeah, trigger fingers turn to twitter fingers Yeah, you gettin' bodied by a singin' nigga I'm not the type of nigga that'll type to niggas And shout-out to all my boss bitches wife-in niggas Make sure you hit him with the prenup Then tell that man to ease up I did another one, I did another one You still ain't did shit about the other one I got the drink in me goin' back to back Yeah, goin' back to back I got the drink in me goin' back to back Yeah, I'm goin' back to back I don't wanna hear about this ever again Not even when she tell 'em that they better as friends Not even when you sayin', "Drizzy, tell 'em again" I been puttin' on a show, it was a sell out event Oh, you need better seatin' I didn't wanna do it, gave me every reason The point I'm tryna make is I don't ever need 'em Seen what you'd do for fame or what you'd do for freedom Please, check 'em for a wire or a earpiece Please, please do not let these niggas near me Please, think before you come for the great one Please, who's a real nigga and who ain't one? Please, somebody stop me I'm talkin' bousy and gwanin wassy I got the fest in five days and it's my shit Soon as a nigga hit the stage, they gon' They gon' ask if I can play this shit back to back Yeah, they want it back to back They gon' ask if I can play this shit back to back I took a break from Views, now it's back to that, nigga

This is a special shout going out to my mama, Ms. Ernestine Charles Mama used to do people hair in the kitchen Press and curl, hot curlers, everything I love you mama Black hair is (a revolution) Cornrows (uh-uh, honey, I am tender-headed) Jheri curls (style sophistication) Afro puff (ah-ooh, ah-ooh) Hair weave (call her Miss Ross) Braids (pride, respect) Extensions (more of a 90s fashion) Asymmetrical shroom (banji girl) I'm going back, back, black to my roots Where my love can be found and my heart rings true I'm going back, back, black to my roots To the time and the place, coming back to you I'm going back, back, black to my roots Where my love can be found and my heart rings true I'm going back, back, black to my roots To the time and the place, coming back to you Black hair is (a revolution) Finger wave (a classic extravaganza) Press and curl (never mix, never worry) Flat top fade (very contemporary) Nail sculpture (urban distinction) Hot comb (ouch, mama, that was my ear!) Blow out kits (ooh, ooh tamba) No-lye relaxer (fried dyed and laid to the side) I'm going back, back, black to my roots Where my love can be found and my heart rings true I'm going back, back, black to my roots To the time and the place, coming back to you I'm going back, back, black to my roots Where my love can be found and my heart rings true I'm going back, back, black to my roots To the time and the place, coming back to you Black hair is... Now mama got her own salon down on Auburn Avenue And if you wanna know what's happening in Atlanta Just go to the salon That's to you and all y'all down there, brothers and sisters Miss Earlene, Lizzy Dean, Renetta Little baby boy, Tone Tone, Leonard, K-Ron, Cornisha Peace my brothers and sisters Peace, love and hair grease A revolution, a revolution A re- re-, a revolution I'm going back, back, black to my roots Where my love can be found and my heart rings true I'm going back, back, black to my roots To the time and the place, coming back to you I'm going back, back, black to my roots Where my love can be found and my heart rings true I'm going back, back, black to my roots To the time and the place, coming back to you Black hair is...

Had a bad dream on the operating table I tried to scream, but I wasn't able They replaced my veins with cables Now I'll never be the same again I can't recharge your spirit I can see the light, but I can't get near it Echoes of your voice, but I can't quite hear it How did we end up here? I spent a lifetime lost A generation of lettin' go And now the daylight can't break through It's a long way back to you Another two years gone I spent forever lettin' go And I don't wanna face the truth It's a long way back to you Another day, slowly fadin' to sleepless nights Lie awake, empty spaces is a wasted time Push and pull, give and take couldn't make you mine, no And I just wanna recharge your spirit I can see a light, but I can't get near it Echoes of your voice, but I can't quite hear it How did we end up here? I spent a lifetime lost A generation of lettin' go And now the daylight can't break through It's a long way back to you Another two years gone I spent forever lettin' go And I don't wanna face the truth It's a long way back to you If everythin' heals with time Then why is our flame dyin'? (Dyin') If you don't want to get this right Then why are we still tryin'? (Still tryin') If everythin' heals with time Then why is our flame dyin'? If you don't want to get this right Then why are we still tryin'? If everythin' heals with time Then why is our flame dyin'? (Why is our flame dyin'?) If you don't want to get it right Then why are we still tryin'? (Why are we still tryin'?) If everythin' heals with time (I spent a lifetime lost) Then why is our flame dyin'? (A generation of lettin' go) If you don't want to get it right (and now the daylight can't break through) Then why are we still tryin'? (It's a long way back to you) If everythin' heals with time (another two years gone) Then why is our flame dyin'? (I spent forever lettin' go) If you don't want to get it right (and I don't wanna face the truth) Then why are we still tryin'? (It's a long way back to you)

I don't say what I mean I don't mean what I say It's almost like ain't me that keeps pushing you away How any nights have you laid here with me feeling like I left? Waking up in a stranger's bed Don't know how I got lost Don't know how to get back Don't know how you haven't hit the door with your bags all packed Every morning I hear you pray for the old me instead Of waking up in a stranger's bed I'm gonna run straight back to us baby No more same old someone else Back to the one you used to love like crazy Maybe, you'll save me from myself When the sun comes around again You won't be waking up in a strangers bed I know I say too little, yeah I'm gone too much I don't even remember the last time we touched Every night it's like you're sleeping with someone you've never met And waking up in a strangers bed I remember the words that you haven't heard for so long You're not gone yet I'm gonna run straight back to us baby No more same old someone else Back to the one you used to love like crazy Maybe, you'll save me from myself When the sun comes around again You won't be waking up in a strangers bed Oh no, oh woah I don't say what i mean I don't mean what i say It's almost like it ain't me that keeps pushing you away I'm gonna run straight back to us baby No more same old someone else Back to the one you used to love like crazy Maybe, you'll save me from myself Well I'm gonna run back to us baby No more same old someone else Back to the one you used to love like crazy Maybe, you'll save me from myself When the sun comes around again You won't be waking up in a stranger's bed Ooh

Lessons learned and bridges burned to the ground And it's too late now to put out the fire Tables turned And I'm the one who's burning now Well I'm doing all right till I close my eyes And then I see your face and it's no surprise Just like that, I'm crawling back to you Just like you said I would, yeah Swallow my pride, I'm crawling back to you Yeah, I'm out of my head, can't wait any longer I'm down on my knees, I thought I was stronger Just like that, like you said I'd do Yeah, I'm crawling back to you Time can heal, but the scars only hide the way you feel And it's hard to forget how I left you hanging Holding by a thread, when everything is said I regret it Yeah I was doin' all right, thought I could make it Then I see your face and it's hard to fake it Just like that I'm crawling back to you Just like you said I would, yeah Swallow my pride, now I'm crawling back to you Yeah, I'm out of my head, can't wait any longer I'm down on my knees, I thought I was stronger Just like that like you said I'd do Yeah, I'm crawling back to you If you could find a way to give everything, I know you would And I would take it all back if only I knew that I could Lessons learned and bridges burned to the ground And it's too late now to put out the fire Just like that I'm crawling back to you Just like you said I would, yeah Swallow my pride, I'm crawling back to you Yeah, I'm out of my head, can't wait any longer I'm down on my knees, I thought I was stronger Just like that like you said I'd do Yeah, I'm crawling back to you Yeah, I'm crawling back to you Ohhh, yeah, yeah! Oh! Crawling back to you I'm crawling back to you

متكتف مهموم موجوع وضعيف وشجاع مليان أحلام وعشان مربوط مكسور وبكسر في المآديف وتفوت أيام وتمر سنين وانا حالي غريب انا مين انا مين مشدود في الساقية وعايش مبسوط وحزين ومحبط وجرئ ورزين مشدود في الساقية وعايش مبسوط وحزين ومحبط وجرئ ورزين على غفلة اتحول بركان جبار انا ضلمة وليل أنا نار ونهار متكتف مهموم موجوع وضعيف وشجاع مليان أحلام وعشان مربوط مكسور وبكسر في المآديف ماشي على طريق مكتوب مرسوم بس انا مسؤول وعليا اللوم ماقدرش أقول من الذنب برئ لا انا ابليس ولا هبقى رسول ماقدرش أقول من الذنب برئ لا انا ابليس ولا هبقى رسول قدامي طريق همشيه همشيه نفهم في الآخر كل ده لية متكتف مهموم موجوع وضعيف وشجاع مليان أحلام وعشان مربوط مكسور وبكسر في المآديف

فوسط زحمة وناس كتير وطريق أنا ماشي فيه عكس السير وسط الطموح والأمل والتمني فاضلي خطوة توصلني فوسط حاجات ومكيفات بحاول أنسى كل اللي فات في وسط صدري ضلعي مكسور ومن خلاله قلبي شايف نور أنا كنت فاكر اني طاير وأتاريني على وشي بقع أنا كنت فاكر إني هوصل لكني بهرب من الوجع أنا كنت فاكر اني طاير وأتاريني على وشي بقع أنا كنت فاكر إني هوصل لكني بهرب من الوجع فوسط الليل وأنا بعيد عن البشر شفت نور يشبه نور القمر بس القمر مسيره يفارق ويسيبني تاني مع الوحدة أحارب فوسط قصة حب يعني وهمية كان لازم أصدق اصل الوحدة قوية مش كل المشاعر حقيقية أنا شفت نور معرفتش اغمض عنيا أنا كنت فاكر اني طاير وأتاريني على وشي بقع أنا كنت فاكر إني هوصل لكني بهرب من الوجع أنا كنت فاكر اني طاير وأتاريني على وشي بقع أنا كنت فاكر إني هوصل لكني بهرب من الوجع

I hate that S-Class Benz that you're so damn proud of You hate my truck 'cause you can't climb out of it And I'll admit it girl, I said it and I meant it Yeah, I loved you for a minute, but we dance sure different It's been a week since you went and hit the highway And made it clear that I oughta have it my way But my way looks a whole lot better With just my truck in the driveway And I hope you find you a high rollin' High rise view that you don't get in the country And I hope you find you a guy with some dollar sign eyes And a pocket full of money And it ain't that I want you to think that I hate every single little thing you do But when you say that I ain't ever gonna find nobody just like you I hope that's true You got drunk one night and told me I was white trash I was high, but I guess I wasn't high class Enough to show up with you on your own We were never gonna be two kids on a farm And I hope you find you a high rollin' High rise view that you don't get in the country And I hope you find you a guy with some dollar sign eyes And a pocket full of money And it ain't that I want you to think that I hate every single little thing you do But when you say that I ain't ever gonna find nobody just like you I hope that's true I could sit here bitter and bitchin' And wishin' things woulda gone different But that don't sound nothin' like me at all Honey, who the hell am I kiddin'? And I hope you find you a high rolling High rise view that you don't get in the country And I hope you find you a guy with some dollar sign eyes And a pocket full of money And it ain't that I want you to think that I hate every single little thing you do But when you say that I ain't ever gonna find nobody just like you I hope that's true Yeah, I hope that's true Oh, I hope that's true Oh, I hope that's true