Spread Thin - Mariah the Scientist

Momma loves her baby And daddy loves you too. And the sea may look warm to you babe And the sky may look blue But ooooh Baby Ooooh baby blue Oooooh babe. If you should go skating On the thin ice of modern life Dragging behind you the silent reproach Of a million tear-stained eyes Don't be surprised when a crack in the ice Appears under your feet. You slip out of your depth and out of your mind With your fear flowing out behind you As you claw the thin ice.

She said I wonder when it'll be my day 'Cause I'm not too far from breakin' down All I've got are screams inside but somehow they Come out in a smile and I'm wonderin' if I'll always feel this way This way The cross is heavy what a burden, am I crazy, Tyler Durdin Don't get better seem to worsen, I don't even know this person In the mirror I hate my sight, two more oxys sleep tonight From fun to havoc, gotta have it alcoholic and an addict This is tragic need some magic I'm insane my thoughts are static Full throttle hit the bottle, pride and ego date a model Drunk as hell stagger wobble, eat them pills, gobble gobble Shake all mornin' panic attack will I find my way back Needle in a haystack, someone pass the J back Numb the pain, all the time can't believe I wrote this rhyme It's my secret this is mine, I'm sick of jail an' doin' time On my knees God take my life insanity cuts me like a knife Ain't got the strength to even fight to take the pain not tonight I keep a smile inside I crumble every way I turn I stumble I need you but I hate you I need some kind of breakthrough I sit in tears can't take it now I live in Hell I'm breakin' down She said I wonder when it'll be my day 'Cause I'm not too far from breakin' down All I've got are screams inside but somehow they Come out in a smile and I'm wonderin' if I'll always feel this way This way Wakin' up blood is itchin', scared to death who is snitchin' Feel like hell look at my health sad when you can't trust yourself Pushed my dad stole from mom entire life made of drama All my friends weathered down when I need help their not around Trapped in a mazeI give up run in place my feet are stuck Things I've done I'm so embarrassed, Oawned the things that I most cherish Search all day for what I need, demeanor's mean my eyes are green I trade my soul for one more bean, friends are dyin' am I the sequel After pills then comes the needle, so much stress I ain't workin' Always shakin' bodies hurtin', can't forget got to muention Extreme anger some depression, delirium tremors I can die Look to the sky wonder why hallucinate with open eyes 30 pack every night I give up I quit the fight Hit my knees saw a light, pray to God with all my might Before my daughter and Mini Thin I heard a voice say Jason listen I love you son and you are missed my name is Jesus, remember this And maybe you've fallen down And maybe you just took the long way home But baby you could never love you Like me And one day this will fade away in The mirror you'll see your smiling face And standing next to you will always be me Yeah me If Mini can do this, so can you First 2 verse 2002 God loves everyone that he meets Help me put these poems in beats It ain't been easy but I can breathe Now I work wit' those in need Making progress prayers on knees In the back of my mind hear that disease Tell me about those nights, you stayed awake Tell me about those days you hated me Tell me how you'd rather die alone, than bein' stuck here with me One day you're going to see things my way You gave me so much room, that I can't break Tell me about those nights, you stayed awake Tell me about those days you hated me Tell me how you'd rather die alone, than bein' stuck here with me One day you're going to see things my way You gave me so much room, that I can't break

متكتف مهموم موجوع وضعيف وشجاع مليان أحلام وعشان مربوط مكسور وبكسر في المآديف وتفوت أيام وتمر سنين وانا حالي غريب انا مين انا مين مشدود في الساقية وعايش مبسوط وحزين ومحبط وجرئ ورزين مشدود في الساقية وعايش مبسوط وحزين ومحبط وجرئ ورزين على غفلة اتحول بركان جبار انا ضلمة وليل أنا نار ونهار متكتف مهموم موجوع وضعيف وشجاع مليان أحلام وعشان مربوط مكسور وبكسر في المآديف ماشي على طريق مكتوب مرسوم بس انا مسؤول وعليا اللوم ماقدرش أقول من الذنب برئ لا انا ابليس ولا هبقى رسول ماقدرش أقول من الذنب برئ لا انا ابليس ولا هبقى رسول قدامي طريق همشيه همشيه نفهم في الآخر كل ده لية متكتف مهموم موجوع وضعيف وشجاع مليان أحلام وعشان مربوط مكسور وبكسر في المآديف

فوسط زحمة وناس كتير وطريق أنا ماشي فيه عكس السير وسط الطموح والأمل والتمني فاضلي خطوة توصلني فوسط حاجات ومكيفات بحاول أنسى كل اللي فات في وسط صدري ضلعي مكسور ومن خلاله قلبي شايف نور أنا كنت فاكر اني طاير وأتاريني على وشي بقع أنا كنت فاكر إني هوصل لكني بهرب من الوجع أنا كنت فاكر اني طاير وأتاريني على وشي بقع أنا كنت فاكر إني هوصل لكني بهرب من الوجع فوسط الليل وأنا بعيد عن البشر شفت نور يشبه نور القمر بس القمر مسيره يفارق ويسيبني تاني مع الوحدة أحارب فوسط قصة حب يعني وهمية كان لازم أصدق اصل الوحدة قوية مش كل المشاعر حقيقية أنا شفت نور معرفتش اغمض عنيا أنا كنت فاكر اني طاير وأتاريني على وشي بقع أنا كنت فاكر إني هوصل لكني بهرب من الوجع أنا كنت فاكر اني طاير وأتاريني على وشي بقع أنا كنت فاكر إني هوصل لكني بهرب من الوجع