Below the Surface - Griffinilla

All of my stories are below Beneath the surface you cannot grow Curled and naked I defer To shaky thoughts, all in a blur Every single fear I'm hiding Every little childhood memory I bury Every single fear I'm hiding Every little childhood memory (Bury) And I will lie, lie Keep it all together Lie, lie, lie Sitting on top of the facade Built this tower to surpass I can't remember why I'm here Only why I need to disappear Every single fear I'm hiding Every little childhood memory I bury Every single fear I'm hiding Every little childhood memory (Bury) I will lie, lie Keep it all together Lie, lie Will it last forever? Lie, lie Keep it all together Lie, lie, lie Lie, lie Keep it all together Lie, lie Will it last forever? Lie, lie They keep it all together Lie, lie, lie

I'm the strong one, I'm not nervous I'm as tough as the crust of the earth is I move mountains, I move churches And I glow, 'cause I know what my worth is I don't ask how hard the work is Got a rough, indestructible surface Diamonds and platinum I find 'em, I flatten 'em I take what I'm handed I break what's demanded, but Under the surface I feel berserk as a tightrope walker In a three-ring circus Under the surface Was Hercules ever like "Yo, I don't wanna fight Cerberus" Under the surface I'm pretty sure I'm worthless If I can't be of service A flaw or a crack A straw in the stack That breaks the camel's back What breaks the camel's back? It's Pressure like a drip, drip, drip, that'll never stop Whoa-oh Pressure that'll tip, tip, tip 'til you just go pop Whoa-oh-oh-oh Give it to your sister, your sister's older Give her all the heavy things we can't shoulder Who am I if I can't run with the ball? If I fall to Pressure like a grip, grip, grip and it won't let go Whoa-oh Pressure like a tick, tick, tick 'til it's ready to blow Whoa-oh-oh-oh Give it to your sister, your sister's stronger See if she can hang on a little longer Who am I if I can't carry it all? If I falter Under the surface I hide my nerves and it worsens I worry somethin' is gonna hurt us Under the surface The ship doesn't swerve As it heard how big the iceberg is Under the surface I think about my purpose Can I somehow preserve this? Line up the dominoes A light wind blows You try to stop it tumblin' But on and on it goes But wait, if I could shake The crushing weight Of expectations Would that free some room up for joy Or relaxation Or simple pleasure? Instead we measure this growing pressure Keeps growing, keep going 'Cause all we know is Pressure like a drip, drip, drip, that'll never stop Whoa-oh Pressure that'll tip, tip, tip 'til you just go pop Whoa-oh-oh-oh Give it to your sister, it doesn't hurt and See if she can handle every family burden Watch as she buckles and bends but never breaks No mistakes, just Pressure like a grip, grip, grip and it won't let go Whoa-oh Pressure like a tick, tick, tick 'til it's ready to blow Whoa-oh-oh-oh Give it to your sister and never wonder If the same pressure would've pulled you under Who am I if I don't have what it takes? No cracks, no breaks, no mistakes No pressure

You didn't know me when you were a kid In trouble at school, alone at lunch again I didn't know you when I broke my knee Spent the summer on crutches and everybody teased Except for this one friend I almost forgot You didn't know me but he knew me best The weight of my brain, the fear of my cold head You never saw me interred in the ice My friend tried to melt, but couldn't thaw me out right So I got ditched freezing alone with my thoughts And though I once said I was better off as being dead Better off as being dead, without my old friend True I once said I was better off as being dead But I didn't know you yet You didn't know me but you got cold too And your mind was heavy and you thought you might lose it Well everything fucked up we both felt before I'm glad for it all if it got us where we are With you in the boat there, I almost forgot How I once said I was better off as being dead Better off as being dead, I didn't know you yet And you might've said you were better off just being dead But I'm looking out for you, my friend, I'm looking I didn't know you when you were a kid But swimming with you, it sure feels like I did

متكتف مهموم موجوع وضعيف وشجاع مليان أحلام وعشان مربوط مكسور وبكسر في المآديف وتفوت أيام وتمر سنين وانا حالي غريب انا مين انا مين مشدود في الساقية وعايش مبسوط وحزين ومحبط وجرئ ورزين مشدود في الساقية وعايش مبسوط وحزين ومحبط وجرئ ورزين على غفلة اتحول بركان جبار انا ضلمة وليل أنا نار ونهار متكتف مهموم موجوع وضعيف وشجاع مليان أحلام وعشان مربوط مكسور وبكسر في المآديف ماشي على طريق مكتوب مرسوم بس انا مسؤول وعليا اللوم ماقدرش أقول من الذنب برئ لا انا ابليس ولا هبقى رسول ماقدرش أقول من الذنب برئ لا انا ابليس ولا هبقى رسول قدامي طريق همشيه همشيه نفهم في الآخر كل ده لية متكتف مهموم موجوع وضعيف وشجاع مليان أحلام وعشان مربوط مكسور وبكسر في المآديف

فوسط زحمة وناس كتير وطريق أنا ماشي فيه عكس السير وسط الطموح والأمل والتمني فاضلي خطوة توصلني فوسط حاجات ومكيفات بحاول أنسى كل اللي فات في وسط صدري ضلعي مكسور ومن خلاله قلبي شايف نور أنا كنت فاكر اني طاير وأتاريني على وشي بقع أنا كنت فاكر إني هوصل لكني بهرب من الوجع أنا كنت فاكر اني طاير وأتاريني على وشي بقع أنا كنت فاكر إني هوصل لكني بهرب من الوجع فوسط الليل وأنا بعيد عن البشر شفت نور يشبه نور القمر بس القمر مسيره يفارق ويسيبني تاني مع الوحدة أحارب فوسط قصة حب يعني وهمية كان لازم أصدق اصل الوحدة قوية مش كل المشاعر حقيقية أنا شفت نور معرفتش اغمض عنيا أنا كنت فاكر اني طاير وأتاريني على وشي بقع أنا كنت فاكر إني هوصل لكني بهرب من الوجع أنا كنت فاكر اني طاير وأتاريني على وشي بقع أنا كنت فاكر إني هوصل لكني بهرب من الوجع