Bedroom Dreams - James Newton Howard

You slipped suicide notes beneath my pillow as I slept In the morning the sun didn't come up, and the sun never came up again Everything here reminds me of you and it's getting harder to sleep The sheets on my bed still smell like your skin And it makes me sick, you make me sick, but why did you have to leave? I told you "never die", I told you "never leave" I didn't want you to haunt me, baby You slept in the backyard under the tree I didn't want you to haunt me, baby I don't want you anymore I don't want you anymore While your mother arranged flowers in the vase downstairs I undressed in your room The night was quiet but the sirens blared in the evening gloom I find traces of your footprints on the floor, I laugh at things I never would before Who are you to make me new? Who are you to leave? Let's drink to our eternal life And all the things that brought us closer to the sky Our endless passion, our endless strife When you pushed me to the edge but never let me fly The curtains open to the streetlight glow I didn't want you to haunt me, baby I wish I could sleep out in the snow I didn't want you to haunt me, baby I don't want you anymore I don't want you anymore I don't miss you anymore I don't need you anymore

I pray to God To stop these thoughts It works for me Can't you see? Now I know that I'm better I'm writing this letter To my past self Sitting on the shelf Nothing lasts It's for the past I won't stay here I won't stay there 'Cause now I'm happy For you have changed me I am so thankful No longer painful

And I remember how the pillows felt like clouds Or was it the other way around? How your neighbor came in to yell at you When the party got too loud When I snuck into your living room and I wished that you would follow At first you didn't, but then you did And it was already tomorrow Then you told me how you had an uncle Who played the villain in those movies And how he died and then you cried And you apologized profusely I was nervous that this was as good as I could ever feel And I was right I confess to thinking sex was my salvation When really, they just start with the letter S You'll forgive me for thinking heaven was her bedroom It's as close as I would ever get It's as close as I would ever get And I'll always remember picking up my favorite records in your apartment Kissing you before you left me for New York Weren't you a princess or an heiress or just the daughter of a rich man? In this land who calls you sunshine, so that you never have to work New York City's cold and when you love someone, you should hold on to them so tightly Until you crush them Or they wriggle from your grasp You don't just stand there and say nothing But at least I learned my lesson And I confess to thinking sex was my salvation When really, they just start with the letter S You'll forgive me for thinking heaven was her bedroom It's as close as I would ever get It's as close as I would ever get If I ever make it to New York Like I said that I would Would it do me any good? If I ever make it to New York Like I told you on the phone And I confess to thinking sex was my salvation When really, they just start with the letter S You'll forgive me for thinking heaven was her bedroom It's as close as I would ever get It's as close as I would ever get It's as close as I would ever get It's as close as I would ever get It's as close as I would ever get It's as close as I would ever get

A long time ago My mind was alone Stuck in circles So minimal But now I have changed My dark minds erased I feel so at ease The things you've shown me I'm not perfect More than object It's all cause of him He took away sin So what do I do Now that I've heard you You have worked me You've made me complete

If you heard the things that I say to my bedroom ceiling Would you have me commited for the things I'm feeling? When I tell anybody else it only goes in circles Sick of oversharing til' my face gets purple No one understands me like my bedroom ceiling Oh, this is so messed up 'Cause I trust this room more than anyone Oh, let me spill my guts With the only one that will never run When I'm at my worst and I'm so ashamed I open up and nobody stays Oh no, am I that messed up? 'Cause I trust this room more than anyone If you heard the things that I say to my bedroom ceiling You'd be more focused on fixing than who they're killing Don't know why you cringe when I say I don't want to live Four inch concrete listened better than you ever did No one understands me like my bedroom ceiling Oh, this is so messed up 'Cause I trust this room more than anyone Oh, let me spill my guts With the only one that will never run When I'm at my worst and I'm so ashamed I open up and nobody stays Oh no, am I that messed up? 'Cause I trust this room more than anyone (one, one...) Let me be alone 'Cause I've already found the perfect therapist Hanging from my home And nothing feels better than to cry like this Let me be alone 'Cause I've already found the perfect therapist Hanging from my home And nothing feels better than to cry... like this Oh, this is so messed up 'Cause I trust this room more than anyone Oh, let me spill my guts With the only one that will never run When I'm at my worst and I'm so ashamed I open up and nobody stays Oh no, am I that messed up? 'Cause I trust this room more than anyone

متكتف مهموم موجوع وضعيف وشجاع مليان أحلام وعشان مربوط مكسور وبكسر في المآديف وتفوت أيام وتمر سنين وانا حالي غريب انا مين انا مين مشدود في الساقية وعايش مبسوط وحزين ومحبط وجرئ ورزين مشدود في الساقية وعايش مبسوط وحزين ومحبط وجرئ ورزين على غفلة اتحول بركان جبار انا ضلمة وليل أنا نار ونهار متكتف مهموم موجوع وضعيف وشجاع مليان أحلام وعشان مربوط مكسور وبكسر في المآديف ماشي على طريق مكتوب مرسوم بس انا مسؤول وعليا اللوم ماقدرش أقول من الذنب برئ لا انا ابليس ولا هبقى رسول ماقدرش أقول من الذنب برئ لا انا ابليس ولا هبقى رسول قدامي طريق همشيه همشيه نفهم في الآخر كل ده لية متكتف مهموم موجوع وضعيف وشجاع مليان أحلام وعشان مربوط مكسور وبكسر في المآديف

فوسط زحمة وناس كتير وطريق أنا ماشي فيه عكس السير وسط الطموح والأمل والتمني فاضلي خطوة توصلني فوسط حاجات ومكيفات بحاول أنسى كل اللي فات في وسط صدري ضلعي مكسور ومن خلاله قلبي شايف نور أنا كنت فاكر اني طاير وأتاريني على وشي بقع أنا كنت فاكر إني هوصل لكني بهرب من الوجع أنا كنت فاكر اني طاير وأتاريني على وشي بقع أنا كنت فاكر إني هوصل لكني بهرب من الوجع فوسط الليل وأنا بعيد عن البشر شفت نور يشبه نور القمر بس القمر مسيره يفارق ويسيبني تاني مع الوحدة أحارب فوسط قصة حب يعني وهمية كان لازم أصدق اصل الوحدة قوية مش كل المشاعر حقيقية أنا شفت نور معرفتش اغمض عنيا أنا كنت فاكر اني طاير وأتاريني على وشي بقع أنا كنت فاكر إني هوصل لكني بهرب من الوجع أنا كنت فاكر اني طاير وأتاريني على وشي بقع أنا كنت فاكر إني هوصل لكني بهرب من الوجع