A Thousand Times - Ella Mai

Lying on a mattress cos my friend's crazy sister took my bed away Sleeping she looked like an actress In theory and in practice I said there's got to be a better way She said You light a thousand matches When you finally set fire well you run away So why'd you go and do it When you knew that you would go and i would stay I hit the wall in frustration the conversation had been circling for days She said Don't take it out on him For the wall has always been Supportive in the best of ways We were laughing and crying like mad men dying in the snow For just one second it was funny That she would have to stay and I would go I said love you know I love you so And when you love someone Well you've gotta let them know She said Nothings changed I love you the same But when you love someone sometimes You've gotta let them go She handed me a stone in the perfect shape of a heart She said I'm gonna take this home For I know you'll only lose it somewhere after dark In some faceless hotel room Where you seem to lose everything you own She didn't mean it how it sounded What she meant was she would stay and i would go And she said Love you know I love you so And when you love someone You've gotta let them know I said Nothings changed I love you the same But when you love someone sometimes You've gotta let them go Sometimes you tear it all apart To see the wood from the trees Sometimes you break your own heart To set yourself free I walked her to the station hesitation in our movement and our tone And words finally left after realising how uncomfortable they'd grown See what you want and what you need well they seldomly succeed to grow We reluctantly agreed when you love some one you've gotta let them go

Heart beats fast Colours and promises How to be brave? How can I love when I'm afraid to fall? Watching you stand alone All of my doubt suddenly goes away somehow One step closer I have died every night waiting for you Darling, don't be afraid I have loved you for a thousand years I'd love you for a thousand more Time stands still Beauty in all she is I will be brave I will not let anything take away What's standing in front of me Every breath, every hour has come to this One step closer I have died every day waiting for you Darling, don't be afraid I have loved you for a thousand years I'd love you for a thousand more And all along I believed I would find you Time has brought your heart to me I have loved you for a thousand years I'd love you for a thousand more I love you I'd love you for a thousand I'd love you for a thousand years So in love So in love One step closer One step closer I have died every night waiting for you Darling, don't be afraid I have loved you for a thousand years I'd love you for a thousand more And all along I believed I would find you Time has brought your heart to me I have loved you for a thou-thousand years I'd love you for a thousand more

(My, my, my, my) (My, my, my, my) (My, my, my, my) (My, my, my, my) (My, my, my, my) (My, my, my, my) (My, my, my, my) (My, my, my, my) Saying goodbye is death by a thousand cuts Flashbacks waking me up I get drunk, but it's not enough 'Cause the morning comes and you're not my baby I look through the windows of this love Even though we boarded them up Chandelier's still flickering here 'Cause I can't pretend it's ok when it's not It's death by a thousand cuts I dress to kill my time I take the long way home I ask the traffic lights if it'll be all right They say, "I don't know" And what once was ours is no one's now I see you everywhere The only thing we share Is this small town You said it was a great love One for the ages But if the story's over Why am I still writing pages? 'Cause saying goodbye is death by a thousand cuts Flashbacks waking me up I get drunk, but it's not enough 'Cause the morning comes and you're not my baby I look through the windows of this love Even though we boarded them up Chandelier still flickering here 'Cause I can't pretend it's okay when it's not It's death by a thousand cuts My heart, my hips, my body, my love Trying to find a part of me that you didn't touch Gave up on me like I was a bad drug Now I'm searching for signs in a haunted club Our songs, our films, united we stand Our country, guess it was a lawless land Quiet my fears with the touch of your hand Paper cut stings from our paper thin plans My time, my wine, my spirit, my trust Trying to find a part of me you didn't take up Gave you too much but it wasn't enough But I'll be all right, it's just a thousand cuts I get drunk but it's not enough 'Cause you're not my baby I look through the windows of this love Even though we boarded them up Chandelier's still flickering here 'Cause I can't pretend it's ok when it's not No, it's not It's death by a thousand cuts (you didn't touch) Trying to find a part of me that you didn't touch My body, my love, my trust (it's death by a thousand cuts) But it wasn't enough, it wasn't enough, no, no I take the long way home I ask the traffic lights if it'll be all right They say, "I don't know"

متكتف مهموم موجوع وضعيف وشجاع مليان أحلام وعشان مربوط مكسور وبكسر في المآديف وتفوت أيام وتمر سنين وانا حالي غريب انا مين انا مين مشدود في الساقية وعايش مبسوط وحزين ومحبط وجرئ ورزين مشدود في الساقية وعايش مبسوط وحزين ومحبط وجرئ ورزين على غفلة اتحول بركان جبار انا ضلمة وليل أنا نار ونهار متكتف مهموم موجوع وضعيف وشجاع مليان أحلام وعشان مربوط مكسور وبكسر في المآديف ماشي على طريق مكتوب مرسوم بس انا مسؤول وعليا اللوم ماقدرش أقول من الذنب برئ لا انا ابليس ولا هبقى رسول ماقدرش أقول من الذنب برئ لا انا ابليس ولا هبقى رسول قدامي طريق همشيه همشيه نفهم في الآخر كل ده لية متكتف مهموم موجوع وضعيف وشجاع مليان أحلام وعشان مربوط مكسور وبكسر في المآديف

فوسط زحمة وناس كتير وطريق أنا ماشي فيه عكس السير وسط الطموح والأمل والتمني فاضلي خطوة توصلني فوسط حاجات ومكيفات بحاول أنسى كل اللي فات في وسط صدري ضلعي مكسور ومن خلاله قلبي شايف نور أنا كنت فاكر اني طاير وأتاريني على وشي بقع أنا كنت فاكر إني هوصل لكني بهرب من الوجع أنا كنت فاكر اني طاير وأتاريني على وشي بقع أنا كنت فاكر إني هوصل لكني بهرب من الوجع فوسط الليل وأنا بعيد عن البشر شفت نور يشبه نور القمر بس القمر مسيره يفارق ويسيبني تاني مع الوحدة أحارب فوسط قصة حب يعني وهمية كان لازم أصدق اصل الوحدة قوية مش كل المشاعر حقيقية أنا شفت نور معرفتش اغمض عنيا أنا كنت فاكر اني طاير وأتاريني على وشي بقع أنا كنت فاكر إني هوصل لكني بهرب من الوجع أنا كنت فاكر اني طاير وأتاريني على وشي بقع أنا كنت فاكر إني هوصل لكني بهرب من الوجع