How You Holding Up - nimino

Never made it as a wise man I couldn't cut it as a poor man stealing Tired of living like a blind man I'm sick inside without a sense of feeling This is how you remind me This is how you remind me of what I really am It's not like you to say sorry I was waiting on a different story This time I'm mistaken For handing you a heart worth breaking And I've been wrong, I've been down Into the bottom of every bottle These five words in my head Scream, "Are we having fun yet?" Are we having fun yet? It's not like you didn't know that I said I loved you and I swear I still do It must've been so bad 'Cause living with me must've damn near killed you This is how you remind me (you remind me) This is how you remind me of what I really am It's not like you to say sorry I was waiting on a different story This time I'm mistaken For handing you a heart worth breaking And I've been wrong, I've been down Into the bottom of every bottle These five words in my head Scream, "Are we having fun yet?" This is how you remind me (you remind me) This is how you remind me of what I really am It's not like you to say sorry I was waiting on a different story And this time I'm mistaken For handing you a heart worth breaking And I've been wrong, I've been down Into the bottom of every bottle These five words in my head Scream, "Are we having fun yet?" Are we having fun yet?

How you feel now? It's startin' to feel so familiar How you feel now? (LMC) Ayy, ayy, ayy I don't give a fuck how you feel now (hey, hey) Getting money, starting to feel so familiar (whoa, whoa) I just do it for my family, yeah (hey, hey) Was at the bottom, we on top of the hill now (whoa, whoa) I don't give a fuck how you feel now (hey, hey) Getting money, starting to feel so familiar (whoa, whoa) I just do it for my family, yeah (hey, hey) Was at the bottom, we on top of the hill now Ayy, ayy, ayy Is it the love or lust? I don't got nobody in my corner, who do I trust? If you ain't family, you can't be around, get on the bus It's like I'm from another world, 'cause all I see is us I told her I am not a cop, it's hard for me to cuff I put her on the block list and told her, "Get the fuck" I poured the double cup of Wok' and yeah, it got me stuck I'm rolling up another blunt, I'm 'bout to take a puff Yeah, keep it real with me Tell me how it feel when you got that record deal Most of these niggas changed, slipped on banana peels I seen it in your eyes, didn't wanna think it's real We pop another bottle, we pop another seal Been through a lot of pain, but that's what got me here Raised my son to be a man, and never show no fear My diamonds shining bright, just like a chandelier No one, no one It's hard to make a way when you come where I'm from At the bottom of the bottom where you barely see the sun And I've been going through depression lately, I just wanna run You'd probably leave when you see what I've done You would probably leave when you see what I've done I'm a different nigga, baby girl, I'm not the one Different type of diamonds all be on me in the sun Brand new Amiris, I'ma stuff 'em with the dollars My broski a shotta He gon' go berserk, he see a opp and go, "Grrah-ta" Smoking all damn day, I fill my lungs up with the zaza Don't hit up my phone, leave me alone with all that rara I don't give a fuck how you feel now (hey, hey) Getting money, starting to feel so familiar (whoa, whoa) I just do it for my family, yeah (hey, hey) Was at the bottom, we on top of the hill now (whoa, whoa) I don't give a fuck how you feel now (hey, hey) Getting money, starting to feel so familiar (whoa, whoa) I just do it for my family, yeah (hey, hey) Was at the bottom, we on top of the hill now Hey Oh yeah, ha-ha, ha-ha Oh yeah, okay Oh yeah, oh yeah Tryna take me down, but I was back on my pivot I know you see the way I'm living, and you just don't get it But I'ma keep grinding, I'ma shoot for the stars You see my tattoos, more like battle scars I know, yeah Give me pain But let me speak my pain Just let me speak my pain

Lying in the corner of my world Didn't hear a sound Hiding under my head Never to be found How have you been today? I woke up but it didn't go away Headed to the lonely south Penny to my name Saw a boy easing by In another brain How have you been so far I woke up and I still know who you are Did you expect me to cry? Will you not think of me tonight? Hiding in the corner of my world Didn't hear a sound Lying under my head Never to be found Did you expect me to cry? Will you not think of me tonight? Did you expect me to fly? Will you not think of me tonight?

Tell me you hate me, just tell me something Lay it all on the table 'Cause sooner or later, it's back again I know that I messed up No misunderstanding But, darling, I need ya to blame me 'Cause your silence won't make me a better man You make me a better man So how can you sleep at night? Tell me you think I deserve this Tell me now, what should I do? 'Cause I'm standing paralysed You had it so good, I'm just selfish But I know you're hurting too Talking at you and there's no reply Staring at me from the other side Feels like you're gone, feels like you're gone So how can you sleep at night? Tell if you think it's worthless Tell me if I'm losing you I know that you're too proud to let it go easy If you got nothing to say We're just gonna waste all of the good days So I keep on asking, though I'm getting nothing And darling, I've made my mistakes And I'm begging to pay But you're not listening I know you're not listening So how can you sleep at night? Tell me you think I deserve this Tell me now, what should I do? 'Cause I'm standing paralysed You had it so good, I'm just selfish But I know you're hurting too Talking at you and there's no reply Staring at me from the other side Feels like you're gone, feels like you're gone So how can you sleep at night? Tell if you think it's worthless Tell me if I'm losing you Talking at you and there's no reply Staring at me from the other side Feels like you're gone, feels like you're gone So how can you sleep at night? Tell if you think it's worthless Tell me if I'm losing you So how can you sleep at night? Tell me you think I deserve this Tell me now, what should I do? Well, how can you sleep at night? Tell if you think it's worthless Tell me if I'm losing you

متكتف مهموم موجوع وضعيف وشجاع مليان أحلام وعشان مربوط مكسور وبكسر في المآديف وتفوت أيام وتمر سنين وانا حالي غريب انا مين انا مين مشدود في الساقية وعايش مبسوط وحزين ومحبط وجرئ ورزين مشدود في الساقية وعايش مبسوط وحزين ومحبط وجرئ ورزين على غفلة اتحول بركان جبار انا ضلمة وليل أنا نار ونهار متكتف مهموم موجوع وضعيف وشجاع مليان أحلام وعشان مربوط مكسور وبكسر في المآديف ماشي على طريق مكتوب مرسوم بس انا مسؤول وعليا اللوم ماقدرش أقول من الذنب برئ لا انا ابليس ولا هبقى رسول ماقدرش أقول من الذنب برئ لا انا ابليس ولا هبقى رسول قدامي طريق همشيه همشيه نفهم في الآخر كل ده لية متكتف مهموم موجوع وضعيف وشجاع مليان أحلام وعشان مربوط مكسور وبكسر في المآديف

فوسط زحمة وناس كتير وطريق أنا ماشي فيه عكس السير وسط الطموح والأمل والتمني فاضلي خطوة توصلني فوسط حاجات ومكيفات بحاول أنسى كل اللي فات في وسط صدري ضلعي مكسور ومن خلاله قلبي شايف نور أنا كنت فاكر اني طاير وأتاريني على وشي بقع أنا كنت فاكر إني هوصل لكني بهرب من الوجع أنا كنت فاكر اني طاير وأتاريني على وشي بقع أنا كنت فاكر إني هوصل لكني بهرب من الوجع فوسط الليل وأنا بعيد عن البشر شفت نور يشبه نور القمر بس القمر مسيره يفارق ويسيبني تاني مع الوحدة أحارب فوسط قصة حب يعني وهمية كان لازم أصدق اصل الوحدة قوية مش كل المشاعر حقيقية أنا شفت نور معرفتش اغمض عنيا أنا كنت فاكر اني طاير وأتاريني على وشي بقع أنا كنت فاكر إني هوصل لكني بهرب من الوجع أنا كنت فاكر اني طاير وأتاريني على وشي بقع أنا كنت فاكر إني هوصل لكني بهرب من الوجع