drunk text me - Lexi Jayde

Can't help seeking corners Of dark and dead end rooms Where the drinks keep pouring down And the candles keep me warm Isolation tenders Something fragile coming soon Skinny angels making eyes at cameras perched in every room I had a good run playing horses in my mind Left my heart out somewhere running Wanting strangers to be mine Memory's a sacred meat that's drying all the time On a hillside I remember I am loving, losing life Strawberries in springtime Pretty happy accidents My awareness that I'm lucky Rolling clouds over cement Maybe there's a screenplay Or a bathroom I can hide Down the hallways of a high school And the dances left behind I had a good run playing horses in my mind Left my heart out somewhere running Wanting strangers to be mine I would climb the Eiffel Tower Write letters on the sky How many turns it took to reach you I had a good run playing horses in my mind On a hillside I remember I am loving, losing life

I guess you could call it textbook I was looking for the father I wanted back And I thought I found it in Brentwood It seemed only appropriate you'd easily had my back And then there was the issue of her I didn't even like myself, or love the life I had And there you were with shinin' stars standin' blue with open arms You touched the detriment most of the friends I knew already had You've got a Thunderbird, my daddy had one, too Let's rewrite history, I'll do this dance with you You know I'm not that girl, you know I'll never be Maybe just the way we're different could set me free There we were, screamin', "Black Lives Matter" In a crowd, by the Old Man River And I saw you saw who I am God, I wish I was with my father He could see us in all our splendor All the things I couldn't want for him I screamed for them, oh, oh I screamed for them, ah-ah Could we do this dance again? Do you think if I go blonde we could get our old love back? I guess this is really the end I never felt jealous before this year, but I'm jealous now People say we're too much alike But maybe, finally, that'll make it right in the end Of all these sleepless nights Other men I met felt right Would smile at you and stick a knife in your back Finally, I met you, so I'm not wonderin' why You've got a Thunderbird, my daddy had one too Let's rewrite history, I'll do this dance with you You know I'm that not that girl, you know I'll never be Maybe just the way we're different could set me free There we were, screamin', "Black Lives Matter" In a crowd, by the Old Man River And I saw you saw who I am God, I wish I was with my father He could see us in all our splendor All the things I couldn't want for him I screamed for them, oh, oh I screamed for them, ah-ah Old Man River keeps rollin' With or without him Old Man River keeps rollin' Without him, oh, my old man Old Man River keeps rollin', oh

متكتف مهموم موجوع وضعيف وشجاع مليان أحلام وعشان مربوط مكسور وبكسر في المآديف وتفوت أيام وتمر سنين وانا حالي غريب انا مين انا مين مشدود في الساقية وعايش مبسوط وحزين ومحبط وجرئ ورزين مشدود في الساقية وعايش مبسوط وحزين ومحبط وجرئ ورزين على غفلة اتحول بركان جبار انا ضلمة وليل أنا نار ونهار متكتف مهموم موجوع وضعيف وشجاع مليان أحلام وعشان مربوط مكسور وبكسر في المآديف ماشي على طريق مكتوب مرسوم بس انا مسؤول وعليا اللوم ماقدرش أقول من الذنب برئ لا انا ابليس ولا هبقى رسول ماقدرش أقول من الذنب برئ لا انا ابليس ولا هبقى رسول قدامي طريق همشيه همشيه نفهم في الآخر كل ده لية متكتف مهموم موجوع وضعيف وشجاع مليان أحلام وعشان مربوط مكسور وبكسر في المآديف

فوسط زحمة وناس كتير وطريق أنا ماشي فيه عكس السير وسط الطموح والأمل والتمني فاضلي خطوة توصلني فوسط حاجات ومكيفات بحاول أنسى كل اللي فات في وسط صدري ضلعي مكسور ومن خلاله قلبي شايف نور أنا كنت فاكر اني طاير وأتاريني على وشي بقع أنا كنت فاكر إني هوصل لكني بهرب من الوجع أنا كنت فاكر اني طاير وأتاريني على وشي بقع أنا كنت فاكر إني هوصل لكني بهرب من الوجع فوسط الليل وأنا بعيد عن البشر شفت نور يشبه نور القمر بس القمر مسيره يفارق ويسيبني تاني مع الوحدة أحارب فوسط قصة حب يعني وهمية كان لازم أصدق اصل الوحدة قوية مش كل المشاعر حقيقية أنا شفت نور معرفتش اغمض عنيا أنا كنت فاكر اني طاير وأتاريني على وشي بقع أنا كنت فاكر إني هوصل لكني بهرب من الوجع أنا كنت فاكر اني طاير وأتاريني على وشي بقع أنا كنت فاكر إني هوصل لكني بهرب من الوجع