Being Honest - Kay Flock

As much as this hurts to admit Could you keep it secret? I'm an act, it's a front, just a boy out for blood So nobody can see I'm desperately avoiding bitter disappointment Tell me if it starts to show Them flashing lights are boring, probably should ignore 'em Anyways please take me home I spent my whole life trying to get here Do I even want it now? Should've tempered all my expectations Or been somebody else Since all this blood, I've been tasting Suffocates me now Over a decade under the influence of a teenage obsession Being lead by the wrist, eyes wild, raised fist A punk without a message desperately avoiding bitter disappointment Yeah, I guess you've always known Them flashing lights were all I ever really wanted They'd rather blind us both I spent my whole life trying to get here Do I even want it now? Should've tempered all my expectations Or been somebody else Since all this blood, I've been tasting Suffocates me now I'm desperately avoiding bitter disappointment I'm desperately avoiding bitter disappointment I spent my whole life trying to get here Do I even want it now? Should've tempered all my expectations Or been somebody else I spent my whole life trying to get here And I even let you down All this blood I've been tasting Suffocates me now

Fuck being friends (say it again, girl) Fuck being friends (we don't pretend) I got your heart in my hand and your dick in the other You ain't scared to fuck, but you scared of being lovers Why is that, huh? My pussy beat better then my heart do Boy, please, you ain't blind, you're a smart dude So why you pussy-footin' on this part two? Know, you didn't come here just to argue You still love me, oh, oh, oh Yeah, you stuck, why play dumb? You still love me, oh, oh, oh, yeah Why you worried if your friends blowing me up tryna fuck me? All up in my phone, all, all up in my head You stuck, why play dumb? You still love me, oh, oh, oh Fuck being friends (being friends) Fuck being friends (fuck being friends) Fuck being friends (being friends) Fuck being friends (fuck being friends) Why you in my bed? Prolly 'cause i'm still up in your head, oh I was doing better and you knew it so you called me Then you start to feel again But you're scared to fall Why is that? Huh? My pussy beat better then my heart do Boy, please, you ain't blind, you're a smart dude So why you pussy-footin' on this part two? Know, you didn't come here just to argue You still love me, oh, oh, oh Yeah, you stuck, why play dumb? You still love me, oh, oh, oh, yeah Why you worried if your friends blowing me up tryna fuck me? All up in my phone, all, all up in my head You stuck, why play dumb? You still love me, oh, oh, oh Fuck being friends (being friends) Fuck being friends (fuck being friends) Fuck being friends (being friends) Fuck being friends (fuck being friends) Fuck being friends (say it again, girl)

I can still remember me and Miss November Rain Beautiful and strange Always so inclined, coloring outside the lines Yeah, you were never on time You've always been slightly awkward, kind of weird Upside down and not all here What's so wrong with me and you is crystal clear Sometimes I'm in a room where I don't belong And the house is on fire and there's no alarm And the walls are melting too How 'bout you? I've never been the favorite, thought I'd seen it all 'Til I got my invitation to the lunatic ball And my friends are coming too How 'bout you? Don't worry, it's all just a symptom of being human Unpack all your baggage, hide it in the attic where You hope it disappears This all seems so familiar, but it doesn't feel like home It's just another unknown You've always been slightly awkward, kind of weird Upside down and not all here Right or wrong, it's all so crystal clear Sometimes I'm in a room where I don't belong And the house is on fire and there's no alarm And the walls are melting too How 'bout you? I've never been the favorite, thought I'd seen it all 'Til I got my invitation to the lunatic ball And my friends are coming too How 'bout you? Don't worry, it's all just a symptom of being human We're all just passing through Passengers on a ship of fools We're all just passing through Passengers on a ship of fools Sometimes I'm in a room where I don't belong And the house is on fire and there's no alarm And the walls are melting too How 'bout you? I've never been the favorite, thought I'd seen it all 'Til I got my invitation to the lunatic ball And my friends are coming too On a ship of fools Don't worry, it's all just a symptom of being human

I don't know why You want to follow me tonight When in the rest of the world With you whom I've crossed and I've quarreled Let's me down so For a thousand reasons that I know To share forever the unrest With all the demons had possessed Beneath the silver moon Maybe you were right But baby I was lonely I don't want to fight I'm tired of being sorry (sorry) It's an ocean drive With all the vampires and their brides We're all bloodless and blind And longing for a life Beyond the silver moon Maybe you were right But baby, I was lonely I don't want to fight I'm tired of being sorry (sorry) I'm standing in the street, yeah Crying out for you No one sees me But the silver moon (silver moon) So far away, so outer space I've trashed myself, I've lost my way I've got to get to you, got to get to you Maybe you were right But baby, I was lonely I don't want to fight I'm tired of being sorry (sorry) I'm standing in the street, yeah Crying out for you No one sees me But the silver moon (silver moon) Maybe you were right But baby, I was lonely I don't want to fight I'm tired of being sorry (sorry) I'm standing in the street Crying out for you No one sees me But the silver moon Maybe you were right And maybe I was wrong...

I had to let a little off, yeah I had to cut the pill off, yeah But if we bein' real though, yeah Nah, I don't never feel nothin' (yeah, yeah) I'm steady jumpin' the gun, yeah, I do it for fun You act like you do it for real, but, no, you is not one of us You never could come inside of this buildin' we run Inside of this world we run, we do it for us No, we don't fuck with one of them at all, at all We don't fuck with you at all (No, no) no, I won't pick up your calls, uh No, l don't like you at all I kind of wanna see you fall I keep on chasin' the highs I know I could never get back, so I'm always on low And I got eyes on the back of my head I got eyes everywhere, so I know where you go (yeah, yeah) I could drop ties in this bitch Drop like flies in this bitch, I cut ties in this bitch I'Il cut ties in your face, yeah, cut you like a lace Nothin' I do could be replaced that's why I'm livin' out in space I take the money to another level I take the plane to another level I take the heights to a newer level I take gettin' high to a newer level Keep diggin' your grave, I'll pass you the shovel, yeah I ain't mean to burst your bubble But I ain't into makin' change, I'ma stay the same, bring it to my level If we bein' real, I don't know how to feel I been overseas (I been overseas), you been on your knees You been beggin', "Please" (you been beggin', "Please"), it's nothin' left to see It's nothin' left to feel, why you in the field? (Why you in the field?) Why you so real? (Why you so real?) Tell me how you feel, huh (Tell me how you feel) Why you make me feel the way I feel? Will you make me feel better? (Will you make me feel better?) Always clashin' heads, yeah, with somebody who think they know better (Who think they know better) Who the fuck is you? Got better things to do I don't got time to waste, I just need my space It's a couple things that I can feel, but I can't feel my face It's a couple things that I wish I could but I can't replace I think it's a sickness, bein' so selfish, yeah I'm in need of a witness They always tell me, yeah, "Never forget this" I forget everything, I don't even know where my tip is And I'll change everything, I don't know how I'll top this

People They don't mean a thing to you They move right through you Just like your breath But sometimes I still think of you And I just wanted to Just wanted you to know My old friend, I swear I never meant for this Don't look at me that way It was an honest mistake Don't look at me that way It was an honest mistake An honest mistake Sometimes I forget I'm still awake I fuck up and say these things out loud My old friend, I swear I never meant for this Don't look at me that way It was an honest mistake Don't look at me that way It was an honest mistake An honest mistake Don't look at me that way It was an honest mistake Don't look at me that way It was an honest mistake An honest mistake

متكتف مهموم موجوع وضعيف وشجاع مليان أحلام وعشان مربوط مكسور وبكسر في المآديف وتفوت أيام وتمر سنين وانا حالي غريب انا مين انا مين مشدود في الساقية وعايش مبسوط وحزين ومحبط وجرئ ورزين مشدود في الساقية وعايش مبسوط وحزين ومحبط وجرئ ورزين على غفلة اتحول بركان جبار انا ضلمة وليل أنا نار ونهار متكتف مهموم موجوع وضعيف وشجاع مليان أحلام وعشان مربوط مكسور وبكسر في المآديف ماشي على طريق مكتوب مرسوم بس انا مسؤول وعليا اللوم ماقدرش أقول من الذنب برئ لا انا ابليس ولا هبقى رسول ماقدرش أقول من الذنب برئ لا انا ابليس ولا هبقى رسول قدامي طريق همشيه همشيه نفهم في الآخر كل ده لية متكتف مهموم موجوع وضعيف وشجاع مليان أحلام وعشان مربوط مكسور وبكسر في المآديف

فوسط زحمة وناس كتير وطريق أنا ماشي فيه عكس السير وسط الطموح والأمل والتمني فاضلي خطوة توصلني فوسط حاجات ومكيفات بحاول أنسى كل اللي فات في وسط صدري ضلعي مكسور ومن خلاله قلبي شايف نور أنا كنت فاكر اني طاير وأتاريني على وشي بقع أنا كنت فاكر إني هوصل لكني بهرب من الوجع أنا كنت فاكر اني طاير وأتاريني على وشي بقع أنا كنت فاكر إني هوصل لكني بهرب من الوجع فوسط الليل وأنا بعيد عن البشر شفت نور يشبه نور القمر بس القمر مسيره يفارق ويسيبني تاني مع الوحدة أحارب فوسط قصة حب يعني وهمية كان لازم أصدق اصل الوحدة قوية مش كل المشاعر حقيقية أنا شفت نور معرفتش اغمض عنيا أنا كنت فاكر اني طاير وأتاريني على وشي بقع أنا كنت فاكر إني هوصل لكني بهرب من الوجع أنا كنت فاكر اني طاير وأتاريني على وشي بقع أنا كنت فاكر إني هوصل لكني بهرب من الوجع

بخاف أنساكي، بخاف أنساكي، بخاف أغيب أنا نسيت نفسي ومنستكيش أنا نسيت أنا مين، نسيت أنا مين سنينك تسرقني ونارك تكويني من جوا وأسيح ولا ينفع أي بيتادين، ولا ينفع أي بيتادين وأنا ضايع ضايع، إنسي يلاقوه لو بكرهك إستحالة ألوم أنا فيا كتير بس مش بقول أنا كاتم همي وغمي ده جوايا أنا رايح رايح، أنا مش بفوق مش زي الحزن أنا إستحالة أدوم لسا زي ما أنا عـ العموم بس الفرق إن إنتي مش معايا إنتي بتباني وتختفي في لمح البصر مش قريبة، بعيدة زي القمر مفيش بيننا أي طريق مختصر إتحكمت في كل حاجة إلا الغضب كل اللي قولته فضفضة، كل اللي قولته فضفضة كل اللي سمعته كان صدى بخاف أنساكي، بخاف أنساكي، بخاف أغيب أنا نسيت نفسي ومنستكيش أنا نسيت أنا مين، نسيت أنا مين سنينك تسرقني ونارك تكويني من جوا وأسيح ولا ينفع أي بيتادين، ولا ينفع أي بيتادين مفيش فيكي عيب، يمكن ده عيبك مفيش فيا شيء مش هتشوفه عينك أنا واضح واضح، أنا واضح واضح لا مبتجملش أنا حقيقي إنتي بتصيبيني زي نصيبي أمر واقع، أنا واضح واضح أنا متدغدغ، أنا متكسر أنا متدمر، في قلبي خنجر مضروب ٢٠٠ طلقة وإستحالة إن جروحي تتطهر دموعي غالية، دموعها فضة أخاف أسافر بعيد همومي تتجمرك خايف من المكتوبلي مقلق من اللي مقدر إفتكريني لما الليل يليل هتلاقيني جايلك جايلك أنا ميت ميت ميت ميت أنا زي الظن سيء سيء انا زي الظن سيء سيء إفتكريني لما الليل يليل هتلاقيني جايلك جايلك أنا ميت ميت ميت ميت أنا زي الظن سيء سيء بخاف أنساكي، بخاف أنساكي، بخاف أغيب أنا نسيت نفسي ومنستكيش أنا نسيت أنا مين، نسيت أنا مين سنينك تسرقني ونارك تكويني من جوا وأسيح ولا ينفع أي بيتادين، ولا ينفع أي بيتادين

Yeah-yeah, uh-uh, uh-uh Uh-uh, yeah-yeah, yeah-yeah Uh-uh, yeah-yeah She don't wanna strip no more, don't wanna hit that pole (oh) Hit my old plug, I get it in and go (ooh, ooh) Shawty owe me something, better pay your toll (pay up, pay up) I lick the spoon and I scrape the bowl (skrrt, skrrt) Scrape the bowl (skrrt, skrrt) Scrape the bowl (skrrt, skrrt) Like, did you get the memo? She eat at out of the relay I'm poppin' hella Skittles Then I can solve your riddle We'll smoke you like it's menthol This dude is crazy mental A suave, hood hero Got Johnny Dang dental She's a nympho She slobbin' on her pillow Got chicken, Rob' De Niro She's too gone and she can't hear you (ooh, ooh, I know) She don't wanna strip no more, don't wanna hit that pole Hit my old plug, I get it in and go She don't wanna strip no more, don't wanna hit that pole (oh) Hit my old plug, I get it in and go (ooh, ooh) Shawty owe me something, better pay your toll (Pay up, pay up) I lick the spoon and I scrape the bowl (skrrt, skrrt) Scrape the bowl (skrrt, skrrt) Scrape the bowl (skrrt, skrrt) Seein' way too many ones I'm 'bout to throw some hundreds (I'm 'bout to throw some hundreds) In that old life that you run from Baby girl, keep running (ooh, keep running) It's pressure with me, sexually (sexually) Check my bank account (ooh, ooh) It's precious to me I got my anchor out (ooh, ooh) I'm locked in your sea You know you're my baby now, you're special to me I bought you time, I bought you diamonds, you can keep the receipt I got you down, I got you loose, I guess you owe it to me Is you down or nah? Fuck around, find your spot I get you lit, lit, drunk, trip Watch me slip inside She don't wanna strip no more, don't wanna hit that pole (oh) Hit my old plug, I get it in and go (ooh, ooh) Shawty owe me something, better pay your toll (Pay up, pay, up) I lick the spoon and I scrape the bowl (skrrt, skrrt) Scrape the bowl (skrrt, skrrt) Scrape the bowl (skrrt, skrrt) And I sent her away Pull out, sent her on her way She don't wanna hit the strip club, no, no She don't wanna go strip, no, no She don't wanna go strip, no way

Just come outside, for the night (Yeah) Take your time, get your light (Yeah) Shawty giant, huh-uh I been out geekin' Bitch Fien', fien', fien', fien'-fien' (Yeah) Fien', fien', fien', fien'-fien' (Yeah) Fien', fien', fien', fien'-fien' Fien', fien' (Yeah), fien', fien', fien' The career's more at stake when you in your prime (At stake) Fuck that paper, baby, my face on the dotted line (Dot, yeah) I been flyin' out of town for some peace of mind (Yeah, yeah, bitch) It's like always they just want a piece of mine (Ah) I been focused on the future, never on right now (Ah) But I'm sippin', not kombucha, either pink or brown (It's lit) I'm the one that introduced you to the you right now (Mm, let's go) Oh my God, that bitch bite (That bitch bite) But alright (Alright), tryna vibe (Tryna vibe like this) In the night, come alive Ain't asleep, ain't a—, ain't a—, ain't-ain't-ain't— Fien', fien', fien', fien'-fien' Fien', fien', fien', fien'-fien' Fien', fien', fien', fien'-fien' Fien', fien', fien', fien' Fien', fien', fien', fien' Syrup, woah, what? What? (Homixide, Homixide, Homixide, Homixide) What? (Yeah, woah, yeah, yeah) (Homixide, Homixide, Homixide, Homixide, yeah) (Yeah, hol' up, yeah) Yeah, I just been poppin' my shit it's been gettin' live, hol' up (Shit) Yeah, you try to come 'round 'bout this shit, they poppin' ya tires, hol' up (Shit) Uh, hunnid round, woah, feel it, knock 'em on ten Playin' both sides with these hoes (Hol' up) Shawty, I'm fuckin' yo' friends (Hol' up) I been goin' crazy, shawty, I been handlin' these bands She not innocent, uh, shit, she tryna go— Fien', fien' (Yeah, talm 'bout), fien', fien'-fien' (Syrup, oh-oh, what?) Fien', fien', fien', fien'-fien' (Syrup, oh-oh) Fien', fien', fien', fien'-fien'-fien' (Talkin' bout, talm 'bout, let's go) I just been icin' my hoes I just been drippin' my ho (Drippin' my ho) This is a whole 'nother level, shawty I got these hoes on they toes (Hoes on they toes) I put this bitch on the road She tryna fuck on the O, hol' up, hol' up I got this ho with me, she tryna show me sum', hol' up, hol' up I got flows for days, these niggas ain't know nun', hol' up, hol' up Me and my bro locked in, you know we on one, hol' up We in the spot goin' crazy, until the sun up You worried about that ho, that ho done chose us (Bitch-ass) Uh, pistols all in the kitchen, can't get it to cold, uh, hol' up, yeah (Wow) Fien', fien', fien' (Hol' up, hol' up, hol' up, hol' up, yeah) Why the fuck these niggas actin' like they know us? Double 0, Cactus, shit we towed up, this shit how we told 'em (Skrrt, skrrt) Switch out the bag, these niggas get rolled up (It's lit, hol' up, slatt) Everything lit, hol' up, everything Homixide, Homixide (Homixide, Homixide, Homixide, Homixide) Fien', fien', fien', fien'-fien'-fien' (Homixide, Homixide, Homixide, Homixide, Homixide, Homixide, Homixide)

اه ياخويا فاتك كتير كلام محبوس و جوايا حتي انت مش نفس الشخص اللي معايا لسه فراك و بجري و جيبي يدفعلك طب لحد امتا انا هفضل كدا الله اعلم انا من صغري بلف مفيش وصول و ريحه الناس في الفصول خلتني افكر امتا يابا هنستقر و ايه الظروف اما بتنساني اما اقول مش فكراني ياه ده انا لسه بحن لصوره قديمه وحشاني ياه ياه ياه ياه ياه ياه يا حبيبي انا نفسي ارتاح مبقاش سواح وبلف ليالي انا نفسي ارسالي ياه ياه ياه ياه ياه ياه الناس بتروح وتنسي وانا لسه متعلق بحبالي Ay ياه ياه ياه ياه ياه ياه يا حبيبي انا نفسي ارتاح مبقاش سواح وبلف ليالي انا نفسي ارسالي ياه ياه ياه ياه ياه ياه الناس بتروح وتنسي وانا لسه متعلق بحبالي يازمان خلاص كفايه واحنا كسبنا ايه بكلام كام مره هودت مالك وانا مش تمام ازاي فكل الخلق ديه مفيش انسان ونشكي لمين مفيش عنوان وتايه بقالي سنين زعلت فمكان ضحكت في انا شايل فنفسي حكايات متحكتش متسبنيش ياغايب الحمل تقيل ويخف لو بيا وبيك ولو غلطان ابقي اعذرني او اشكيلي ومتسبنيش مش عايز اعيش الرحله مش ده اللي كنتي بتحلم بيه ولا انت نسيت كام مره بكيت خدوا مني كتير ياما خدوا مني كتير و انا اللي كنت غريب غريب عشان بسيب رسمولي مكيده يابا و القلب كان خطاء غلطت انا من الاول اه احساسي كان غلطان كام مره جبرت خاطر حاضر ميقولش جيبي خلاص يا حبيبي انا جلدي نمل خالص لوحدي افوت في النار Ay ياه ياه ياه ياه ياه ياه يا حبيبي انا نفسي ارتاح مبقاش سواح وبلف ليالي انا نفسي ارسالي ياه ياه ياه ياه ياه ياه الناس بتروح وتنسي وانا لسه متعلق بحبالي

مفيش مانع مفيش مانع مفيش مانع مفيش مانع مفيش مانع مفيش مانع مفيش مانع مفيش مانع مفيش مانع مفيش مانع ياه لو كان الموت يفرِق لو كانت الغيوم تقفِل لو كانت السموم تغلِب كانت النجوم دبِلِت لو كان المعاد فاتني حتى لو ضلي سابني مش هسأل أنا إيه اللي جابني ما بقتش تفرق طول ما أنا ماشي لوحدي فيها أنا اللي بكسب حتى لو موج البحر خدني مش محتاج أشتكي وأنده ربي وحده بس عالم باللي في قلبي مش بتشوفي الصورة كاملة حبيتي البرواز من بعدي بطَّلت أظبط ساعتي لو كان يهمِّك بجد كنتي سألتي و أنا أكيد كنت هجاوب مفيش، مفيش، مفيش مانع انسي، مش هفضل فاكر مفيش مفيش مفيش مانع مفيش مانع مفيش مانع مفيش مانع مفيش مانع مفيش مانع مفيش مانع مفيش مانع مفيش مانع مفيش مانع كان نفسي محسش بالذنب كان نفسي دماغي دي تسيبني في حالي لما أشوفك أحس إنه عادي مبيعش اللي بينا لو جيتي في بالي دي فرصة سعيدة بس أنا متمناش تتكرر تاني وأنا مش هفضل فيكي ماسك مش متعوّد أتنازل أنا روحي طالعة بتتنازع مش هتشوفيني في النازل أنا عندي أيام في الهوا طارت عندي ساعات في الهوا طارت وأنا جايب آخري ومش صابر فاصل، أنا فاصل، أنا فاصل لو عالوقت مفيش فاضل لو على نفسي مفيش خالص أنا لو على حبِك فبناقص قاطع السكة مفيش واصل أنا لو عالوقت مفيش فاضل لو على نفسي مفيش خالص أنا لو على حبك فبناقص قاطع السكة مفيش واصل إيه وأنا مش محتاجك، متجيش مش محتاج أنسى أنا مين الحال مش ثابت مراجيح عقلي بيدور دراويش أنا حالي مش مرضي (لو كان الموت يفرق) مفيش مانع فيه أدرينالين جروح بتلم من غير بيتادين مفيش سر في البير غير لما الدايرة بتضيق غير لما الدايرة بتضيق (لو كان المعاد فاتني) هي بتشد وتسيب وأنا في دماغي مسحول قاعد بفك جنزير عندي من الكره كرتونة عبيت من الشر صناديق عبيت من الشر صناديق