If Only I - Jon McLaughlin

A million thoughts in my head Should I let my heart keep listening? I know it's time to say goodbye So hard to let go

You're the best friend of my life The rib on my side The peace in my mind The pleasure in my body My body I'm the light to your fire Your deepest desire The truth to your liar But still you don't want me And I don't want you But maybe I do If I call now would you pick it up I'm breaking down can you pick it up But you don't answer You always answer I'm drinking wine looking at my phone While you're inside her I'm here all alone I don't want this I'm better than this Call me your person I called you mine too Even though I'm whole now I'm still scared to lose Cause I was lost before you And you were lost too And I keep going in and out of being mad at you Even though I know the deal I wrote that shit with you And we both signed it Souls aligned and everything If I call now would you pick it up I'm breaking down can you pick it up But you don't answer You always answer I'm drinking wine looking at my phone While you're inside her I'm here all alone I don't want this I'm better than this When I needed you to cry on You found someone else to lie on Trusting you, I'd have put my life on Guess I wouldn't have survived long Now I don't know who you are Don't know if I care It's just messed up I thought you'd be there When I needed you to cry on You found someone else to lie on If I call now would you pick it up I'm breaking down can you pick it up But you don't answer You always answer I'm drinking wine looking at my phone While you're inside her I'm here all alone I don't want this I'm better than this Oh yeah I'm better than this Oh I'm better than this Yeah I'm better than this I'm better than this

This house, she's holding secrets I got my change behind the bed In a coffee can I throw my nickels in Just in case I have to leave And I will go if you ask me to I will stay if you dare And if I go, I'm goin' shameless Let my hunger take me there This house, she's quite the talker She creaks and moans, she keeps me up And the photographs know I'm a liar They just laugh as I burn her down And I will go if you ask me to I will stay if you dare And if I go, I'm goin' on fire Let my anger take me there The shingles, man, they're shaking The back door's burning through This old house, she's quite the keeper Quite the keeper of you I will go if you ask me to I will stay if you dare And if I go, I'm goin' crazy Let my darlin' take me there If I go, I'm goin' crazy Let my darlin' take me there

متكتف مهموم موجوع وضعيف وشجاع مليان أحلام وعشان مربوط مكسور وبكسر في المآديف وتفوت أيام وتمر سنين وانا حالي غريب انا مين انا مين مشدود في الساقية وعايش مبسوط وحزين ومحبط وجرئ ورزين مشدود في الساقية وعايش مبسوط وحزين ومحبط وجرئ ورزين على غفلة اتحول بركان جبار انا ضلمة وليل أنا نار ونهار متكتف مهموم موجوع وضعيف وشجاع مليان أحلام وعشان مربوط مكسور وبكسر في المآديف ماشي على طريق مكتوب مرسوم بس انا مسؤول وعليا اللوم ماقدرش أقول من الذنب برئ لا انا ابليس ولا هبقى رسول ماقدرش أقول من الذنب برئ لا انا ابليس ولا هبقى رسول قدامي طريق همشيه همشيه نفهم في الآخر كل ده لية متكتف مهموم موجوع وضعيف وشجاع مليان أحلام وعشان مربوط مكسور وبكسر في المآديف

فوسط زحمة وناس كتير وطريق أنا ماشي فيه عكس السير وسط الطموح والأمل والتمني فاضلي خطوة توصلني فوسط حاجات ومكيفات بحاول أنسى كل اللي فات في وسط صدري ضلعي مكسور ومن خلاله قلبي شايف نور أنا كنت فاكر اني طاير وأتاريني على وشي بقع أنا كنت فاكر إني هوصل لكني بهرب من الوجع أنا كنت فاكر اني طاير وأتاريني على وشي بقع أنا كنت فاكر إني هوصل لكني بهرب من الوجع فوسط الليل وأنا بعيد عن البشر شفت نور يشبه نور القمر بس القمر مسيره يفارق ويسيبني تاني مع الوحدة أحارب فوسط قصة حب يعني وهمية كان لازم أصدق اصل الوحدة قوية مش كل المشاعر حقيقية أنا شفت نور معرفتش اغمض عنيا أنا كنت فاكر اني طاير وأتاريني على وشي بقع أنا كنت فاكر إني هوصل لكني بهرب من الوجع أنا كنت فاكر اني طاير وأتاريني على وشي بقع أنا كنت فاكر إني هوصل لكني بهرب من الوجع

I'm not awake I'm not alone You're right beside my face Will you love me this way? 'Cause I'm dancing with my eyes closed It's okay, it's me, babe One more time for my taste One more time for my taste See me fall from your eyes to your waist One more time for my taste Drink this wine from your sweet, from your case I feel your love, I feel your faith always You're not awake You're not alone I'm calling off that fragile case Oh, baby Are you dancing with your eyes closed? It's okay, it's me, babe One more time for my taste I'll lick your wounds I'll lay you down One more time for my taste See me fall from your eyes to your waist One more time for my taste Drink this wine from your sweet, from your case I feel your love, I feel your faith always See me fall from your eyes to your waist I feel your love, I feel your faith always One more time for my taste One more time for my... One more time for my... One more time for my... One more time for my home I'll lick your wounds I'll lay you down I'll lick your wounds I'll lay you down I'll lick your wounds I'll lay you down I'll lay you down