Makes You Feel Better - Utah

I don't wanna feel better No one's ever gonna love me like that again I don't wanna get over you I wanna sit with you in bed I don't wanna feel better I'd give anything to miss you again I don't wanna get over it I wanna get under it instead A book sits on top of clean and messy blankets On a bed that fuckin' creaks at night when I get in it late And late at night, I'm chugging Gatorade And someone's breaking up when I crack up Because I know I'll never know just what to say I'm a communist, a terrorist, an MPDG thot Or I'm a sad girl in a dorm room, living out the shady Christian plot of Twilight or The Bible or The Lover by Duras Or I'm just really fuckin' selfish and really fuckin' lost But someone loved me, someone fucking loved me Someone fucking loved me and I fuckin' loved them too Goddamn it, I was worth something, I fuckin' learned something I had my cake (I ate it, it ate me too and, God, no) I don't wanna feel better (I don't wanna feel better) (I'd give anything to miss you again) (I don't wanna get over it) (I wanna rip it to shreds) We kept our liquor in a suitcase underneath my bed And we drank it to go out or just stay in or to feel sad But in a hot way, a way I'll fuckin' never have again The sun has began to set I'm a socialist, Marxist, libertarian slut I am an awkward teenage virgin and I sort of kinda laugh a lot in bed But other times, I cry or don't make noise at all I'd give my life to have a room that feels that small 'Cause someone loved me, someone fucking loved me Someone fucking loved me, I loved them too Goddamn it, I was worth something, I fuckin' earned something I have a right to die, a right to live, a right to choose, too And God, no! Of course I don't wanna feel better! Can you fucking imagine?! No one's ever gonna love me like that again I don't wanna get over it I wanna rip the stars to shreds I don't wanna feel better Of course it hurt, of course it fuckin' hurt It hurt like nothing in the world sometimes That I was super scared, and we were all a train-wreck And also somehow making it I think I might've died there twice, and I would do it all again I'm a nihilist, a soldier, an OCD-machine Or I'm a healthy baby-girl who traded sunshine for disease But when my head hit my cheap pillow, I could tell I had a heart And I wanna tear this fascist Milky Way apart 'Cause someone loved me, someone fuckin' loved me All my filthy life I loved someone I barely knew Goddamn it, I was worth something, I fuckin' learned something And it felt better in my mouth than fresh warm food I guess I loved you, I guess I really loved you All my filthy life I loved someone I barely knew And now you're over there, and I'm way over here What am I gonna do? I don't wanna feel better No one's ever gonna love me like that again I don't wanna get over you I wanna sit with you in bed I don't wanna feel better (I don't wanna feel better)

Stand in the front but shut up 'til I tell you to go Don't get caught up in pretend 'cause you're not in control 'Cause this is my world, little girl, you'd be lost on your own Just hating and waiting and saving up I'll do you a favor and save you if you sign on the line Don't worry your pretty little head about the future, it's all fine Whether you're wrong or you're right Doesn't matter, you're not up to the fight Keeping my head down 'Cause they don't know what I know now As empires fall to pieces Our ashes twisting in the air It makes me smile to know that I'm better without you Now look around and remember your friends if you can Feeding the flames 'til there's no one to blame, it's on your hands Lost in your lies, pay the price with our lives, you've gone mad And there's no way out 'Cause we all know you're hollow As empires fall to pieces Our ashes twisting in the air It makes me smile to know that I'm better without you Not enough, not enough Not enough to throw it all away We'd still be falling We're fallen Turn it up, turn it up Never gonna shut me up again Your time is over It's over now As empires fall to pieces Our ashes twisting in the air It makes me smile to know that I'm, I'm better without you

متكتف مهموم موجوع وضعيف وشجاع مليان أحلام وعشان مربوط مكسور وبكسر في المآديف وتفوت أيام وتمر سنين وانا حالي غريب انا مين انا مين مشدود في الساقية وعايش مبسوط وحزين ومحبط وجرئ ورزين مشدود في الساقية وعايش مبسوط وحزين ومحبط وجرئ ورزين على غفلة اتحول بركان جبار انا ضلمة وليل أنا نار ونهار متكتف مهموم موجوع وضعيف وشجاع مليان أحلام وعشان مربوط مكسور وبكسر في المآديف ماشي على طريق مكتوب مرسوم بس انا مسؤول وعليا اللوم ماقدرش أقول من الذنب برئ لا انا ابليس ولا هبقى رسول ماقدرش أقول من الذنب برئ لا انا ابليس ولا هبقى رسول قدامي طريق همشيه همشيه نفهم في الآخر كل ده لية متكتف مهموم موجوع وضعيف وشجاع مليان أحلام وعشان مربوط مكسور وبكسر في المآديف

فوسط زحمة وناس كتير وطريق أنا ماشي فيه عكس السير وسط الطموح والأمل والتمني فاضلي خطوة توصلني فوسط حاجات ومكيفات بحاول أنسى كل اللي فات في وسط صدري ضلعي مكسور ومن خلاله قلبي شايف نور أنا كنت فاكر اني طاير وأتاريني على وشي بقع أنا كنت فاكر إني هوصل لكني بهرب من الوجع أنا كنت فاكر اني طاير وأتاريني على وشي بقع أنا كنت فاكر إني هوصل لكني بهرب من الوجع فوسط الليل وأنا بعيد عن البشر شفت نور يشبه نور القمر بس القمر مسيره يفارق ويسيبني تاني مع الوحدة أحارب فوسط قصة حب يعني وهمية كان لازم أصدق اصل الوحدة قوية مش كل المشاعر حقيقية أنا شفت نور معرفتش اغمض عنيا أنا كنت فاكر اني طاير وأتاريني على وشي بقع أنا كنت فاكر إني هوصل لكني بهرب من الوجع أنا كنت فاكر اني طاير وأتاريني على وشي بقع أنا كنت فاكر إني هوصل لكني بهرب من الوجع